Dragon Clan: Thought So Far

Since she parted with Lu Mingfei in Chicago, Su Xiaoqiang always had a strange dream. In the dream, she was standing on a mountain and looking into the distance. She looked at the sea of ​​trees that seemed to be rippling with waves and the sea of ​​trees stretched to the horizon. At the end of the world, there was a huge copper pillar.

There was fog in the dream. The fog rose from the mountainside like a cloud. In the depths of the cloud, Su Xiaoqiang sometimes saw a young man. His eyebrows were drooping, and he wore a stiff denim jacket. His face was always full of bitterness and hatred, and he never said a word.

They stared at each other across the cloud that flowed like water on the mountain. Su Xiaoqiang vaguely remembered that the man's surname was Tang and he was a friend of Zhao Menghua. They first met in the autumn of 2009, when the lush red pine forest in Illinois gradually turned yellow. It was the first time Su Xiaoqiang and Lu Mingfei met again after graduating from Shilan Middle School.

The first time Su Xiaoqiang woke up from this dream in the dormitory near the economics activity area, she felt as cold as if she was thrown into a winter lake.

Outside the window, the wind and snow continued, the gray-black clouds towered like mountains that were about to fall, and the flames in the electronic fireplace jumped and reflected the skin on her wrists, which was white and red.

Thinking back to the man in the dream, Su Xiaoqiang's face was blank and helpless. She didn't know why she had the same dream over and over again. In the dream, she always felt that she was facing something huge. That thing was rolling over, and she was powerless to stop it, as if she would be crushed into dust immediately.

She was tortured by this emotion for a long time. Since the first time she had this dream, Su Xiaoqiang always felt as if there was always a layer of impenetrable fog in front of her, and the man named Tang in the fog was carrying something heavy.

The encounter with a young opposite sex in a dream should be beautiful, but Su Xiaoqiang always felt that she was looking up. Even though Ronald Tang was actually standing at the foot of the mountain, she just felt that the man was high above, like an emperor.

Of course, Su Xiaoqiang often dreamed of Lu Mingfei, but those dreams were not beautiful. He was always pierced on a strange branch, like a dying bird, with his drooping eyebrows and eyes showing infinite sorrow.

All this seemed to foreshadow something, until later she even got used to those ancient and strange dreams that could even be called a little weird.

Anyway, the people in the dream would not hurt her, so she sat on the mountain to watch the scenery.

The copper pillar at the end of the sky seemed to be reflected in a sea of ​​fire. Its bottom was illuminated by something red, and the top was black like black iron. If you look closely, you can see that the surface of the copper pillar is engraved with ancient language in some kind of small seal characters.

The color of the sea of ​​trees gradually changed from dark green to pale yellow, mottled and gorgeous, like a stubborn brushstroke.

Su Xiaoqiang thought it was good. The scenery in the dream was peaceful and peaceful, and there were always clouds rolling around her, just like being in a fairyland.

Everything in the dream seemed to be in an endless cycle, until one day the man in the fog stopped staring at her and came over.

He sat down next to Su Xiaoqiang, and Su Xiaoqiang didn't feel scared, just as if he was talking about childhood memories with a friend who had not seen him for many years.

He said: "My name is Norton."

"Zhao Menghua told me that your name is Ronald Tang." Su Xiaoqiang didn't look back, she just raised her face slightly and stared at the copper pillars on the horizon gradually disappearing into the darkness that slowly took away all the light and fire.

When the world completely dimmed, she would wake up from her dream.

"Ronald is to Norton like a small river to the sea. No matter how far the river goes, it will eventually return to the ocean." Norton said softly. He was very tall and handsome. In Su Xiaoqiang's eyes, he might be just a little bit worse than Lu Mingfei.

"Why are you here?" Su Xiaoqiang tilted his head. "Are you a ghost? If you are a ghost, then we have only met once. In comparison, Zhao Menghua is more like the person who deserves your dream, right?"

"From Ronald's perspective, it is true, but from Norton's perspective, you are the more suitable person to explore fate."

"Fate?"

"It's like everyone is written in a script, and everything they do is destined at the moment of birth." Norton explained. He always had a smile on his face when he said these words, and his skin was clean and had a marble texture.

"I don't actually understand love between humans. Is your feeling for Lu Mingfei love?"

"Maybe." Su Xiaoqiang said.

"Maybe?"

"That's it." This time the girl's tone was higher and her voice became firm.

She was a girl called a little angel by many people. She was very proud, so proud that she seemed a little conceited. She never refused any courtesy close to her and was always alone, until that year when she saw the boy who was clearly standing in the crowd but was so lonely that he seemed to be standing outside the world at the high school entrance ceremony.

That kind of loneliness made him incompatible with everyone around him, but it was this incompatibility that attracted Su Xiaoqiang for no reason.

She thought the boy was really cool. He always walked alone on the narrow gravel path between the library and the classroom. On rainy days, his hair always covered his eyes with wet hair, as if he would not look at you even if you talked to him. He always sat silently by the window and looked into the distance.

But what really made Su Xiaoqiang feel that she liked this guy a little bit was the time when Chen Wenwen got lupus erythematosus. At first, the school organized students to visit her, but later no one wanted to go anymore. Only Lu Mingfei insisted on going to discuss Duras's lover with her every week.

Su Xiaoqiang also insisted on going every week. When the two of them reached dusk, they walked back along the Fei River together. As they walked, Su Xiaoqiang asked Lu Mingfei if he liked Chen Wenwen. Lu Mingfei was stunned and said no with a shocked expression on his face for the first time.

Su Xiaoqiang asked again why did you go to see her every week? Lu Mingfei said, isn't it the same for you?

As they walked, Su Xiaoqiang suddenly said to Lu Mingfei, "Look, look." Lu Mingfei looked in the direction of her finger and saw a kitten fell into the Fei River.

He took off his clothes in the autumn and jumped in. He picked up the kitten and threw it on the shore. It's hard to say why, but the moment he jumped into the Fei River, Su Xiaoqiang felt that he might like him.

It might be the courage to risk his life, or it might be the rare kindness that dared to be expressed, or it might be because Su Xiaoqiang liked kittens very much. In short, Lu Mingfei quietly broke into her heart.

Later, I forgot what happened. Su Xiaoqiang was alone, hiding in the corner of the stairs while others were going home after class, wiping her tears. She cried so sadly. At that time, she thought that if a man would come down from the sky on a white horse to hug her and comfort her, she would be willing to give herself to him no matter if that guy was Tang Seng or Prince.

But it was neither Tang Seng nor Prince who appeared, but Lu Mingfei, who was wiping his wet hair with a towel after playing basketball with the boys from the physical training team on the playground and returning to the classroom to pack up.

The guy finally didn't have the courage to hug Su Xiaoqiang, but just sat silently with her on the rooftop of the teaching building, waiting together until the sunset took away all the afterglow, and the silent city woke up in the light and fire like mountains and seas. He said that no matter what happens, don't cry, you must not lose your composure when you are frustrated, because those people you hate are waiting to see your joke.

Su Xiaoqiang asked, "Are you here to see my joke?"

Lu Mingfei said no, I came to see the stars, I often watch the stars on the rooftop of my uncle's house. When he said this, he really looked up at the stars in the sky, and the starlight was reflected in his eyes, shining as if it fell into the sea.

Su Xiaoqiang blinked and forgot the sadness. After many years, she once again felt the alienation and loneliness from the boy beside her.

Lonely people always sympathize with each other.

When he was in high school, Lu Mingfei ranked first in the grade for three consecutive years, but someone told Su Xiaoqiang that when he was in junior high school, he was still a weed growing in the corner of Shilan Middle School, and anyone could step on him.

Sometimes she secretly looked at the boy's profile in another corner of the classroom and wondered what changed you, what made you go from that bad boy who was full of nonsense to the majestic Senior Brother Lu today?

"What does it feel like to like someone?" Norton asked.

"You will know if you try it, why are you asking me?" Su Xiaoqiang said.

"We are born with defects. Only a few of us can understand the meaning of love, so even if we feel a little warmth, we have to try our best to hold on to it."

The darkness in the dream became thicker and thicker. Su Xiaoqiang watched the clouds coming and going. After a moment, she said, "Can you stop appearing in my dream?"

"Why?"

"I always feel that you are not something fabricated by this dream, but a real ghost." Su Xiaoqiang counted on her fingers, "and I think that one day I will have a happy ending with Lu Mingfei. It's not a good idea for you to keep appearing like this. Who knows if you peeked in a spring dream one day."

"One day you will be glad that I appeared here." Norton smiled.

"Bullshit, who knows what you are." Su Xiaoqiang bared his teeth and narrowed his eyes. "What if you covet my beauty?"

"We are not the same species." The man sighed, "Will an elf fall in love with a goblin?"

"That's right, I'm not interested in you at all. This is my dream. I don't think you can do anything wrong." Su Xiaoqiang snorted. The girl was proud that no matter what he was, at least he had some self-knowledge.

"Don't get me wrong, in fact, you are the goblin in this metaphor." Norton's bitter and vengeful face finally showed a ripple.

Su Xiaoqiang puffed up his cheeks angrily.

That is, when Su Xiaoqiang woke up on the same day, he found that he was not in the bed in the dormitory but in a cafe with a rather luxurious decoration. The cafe was not open late at night. The store was silent, with transparent floor-to-ceiling windows all around and a huge chandelier hanging above his head.

She took out her mobile phone to check the distance to the University of Chicago, but found that it was thirteen kilometers.

There were two cups of steaming coffee on the table. When Su Xiaoqiang woke up, she was holding one cup in her hand, and the other cup was only half full, with a crumpled napkin next to it.

She shuddered slightly, stood up and touched the chair opposite.

It was still warm.

During the time she fell asleep, her body quietly pushed open the door of the University of Chicago dormitory, and then crossed a distance of more than ten kilometers to such a stylish cafe to drink a cup of coffee with a guy who was still unknown.

Su Xiaoqiang thought that maybe he should not look for a psychiatrist now but a priest.

—— When Su Xiaoqiang first met Norton two years ago, he didn't know that this world actually hid so many truths that ordinary people could not touch in their entire lives.

This time, Lu Mingfei was finally willing to show her the so-called dark side of society. It turned out that darkness and light coexist in this world, and between light and darkness there has always been a desperate wall, and the flesh and blood that built the wall came from a group called mixed-races.

Su Xiaoqiang bit a pencil and carefully pushed open the door. She saw her mother curled up on the sofa and fell asleep. The Portuguese woman, who was already middle-aged but still well-maintained and as delicate as a girl, was wearing silk pajamas and holding a huge panda doll in her arms, snoring softly.

Since Lu Mingfei introduced a lady who called herself Nuwa to help her cure her father's cerebrovascular disease a day ago, her mother seemed to have finally unloaded the burden on her shoulders and had a good sleep for the first time in several months.

Although in fact, the family's industry has always been handled by Su Xiaoqiang.

With my mother's IQ, all the power in her hands may be stripped on the first day of power.

She tiptoed to find an apple from the refrigerator and put it in her mouth. She returned to the room, and her pale face was reflected in the mirror.

With Su Xiaoqiang's intelligence, she had guessed that Norton was actually a person from Lu Mingfei's world, or a dragon.

In fact, since that sleepwalking, she rarely had the dream of looking into the distance from the mountain, but she still remembered what the young man looked like, and his face that seemed to always be sad and a little embarrassed.

She was sure that it was not her hallucination, nor was it a product of schizophrenia.

But should she tell Lu Mingfei?

Tell him that she actually had the opportunity to contact the world hidden under the ice, or that she had actually been a person in that world for a long time?

No, don't.

There was a very small voice in Su Xiaoqiang's heart saying, "Don't, Su Xiaoqiang, don't tell Lu Mingfei, you also want to be a person in that world, and you also want to be able to stand by his side."

Just like Xia Mi, just like Chen Motong, just like Eri.

At a certain moment, a faint golden color suddenly attracted Su Xiaoqiang's attention. She looked at the mirror in front of her and examined herself in the mirror.

I don't know if it was an illusion, but in her pupils... there seemed to be a flash of golden light.

I don't know if it was an illusion, but some extreme palpitations arose from the depths of her soul.

It was like the feeling she had in another dream when she saw Lu Mingfei being pierced by a branch. (End of this chapter)