Empress Of Business World

" Am I worthy to you? " He muttered to himself. He gave himself a sad mocking laugh.

" Yan yan why don't you remember me? Am I living in delusions thinking about you? Can you recognize your Brother Mu sheng once . Only once. Please. " tears welled in his eyes as he muttered.

"Yan shu do you know when everyone said that you are dead I believed that you are alive. I used to think that you will come to me one day. Now there are only few steps between us but why am I not able to reach you? Am I really unworthy to you?

Yan shu do you know to make our future happy I have offended lot of people just to see you happy.

Yan shu did you know when jichen said that you might like another man other than me. Do you know how I felt? I wanted to kill the person that you like. But I realized if I kill that person you will not be happy anymore.After thinking for a while do you know what decision I made? Yan shu even if you like another person I will not interfere in your life. I will just watch you from the side and see your smile. If I see your cries I will not hesitate to kill the person. "

Even though he decided like that but the thought of watching Yan shu with another man is killing him. The person that he loved for eleven years is not with him but with another man. The rage inside building stronger and stronger.

He wanted to vent his anger out some way or other but he can not vent his anger. He tried to suppress his anger but the anger, resentment, sadness, the feeling of lossing her again, the thought of her absence in his life again, the thought of her being with another man is killing him. All his frustrations anger and all other negative emotions collected at once and bursted out through his eyes.

Tears started flowing out. It felt like there is no end to it. He never cried in his lifetime. This is the first time he cried. That to for Yan shu.

He knew crying is not his quality. It doesn't suit his character. But what can he do? Moreover he is man. Why is he crying like a child with his silly thoughts. Those might come true and may not come true. But he should at least try to stop happening them.

He determined that " From now I will not stay in shadows. I will stay close to you Yan shu. I will treat you better. No one can stop me from taking you. I am not ready to loose you again."

He wiped his tears harshly. And he glanced outside the window of his office. He saw Yan shu face with lightly frowned as he gazed at her computer screen.He watched her fingers moved gracefully on her keyboard. After few minutes she stopped typing. She again glanced at her computer screen. She is satisfied with the result. Again her face is bloomed with a smile.

His gaze softened. He lowered his head. But he only saw the file that consists of Yan shu identities. The details about the women in the file and the women in front him with a smile seemed to be totally different.

He is very determined to know about her. He muttered to himself " looks like I have to know about yourself by my own. " He continued after a while" it's time for the return of the godly hacker M. "