Eternal Love

   Chapter 51: Bitter Love (4)

  It is not only Xue Han who knows that Zhou Yan is reluctant to leave. Yinyin also knows, but she doesn't want to think about it. She knows that going deep will only make her feel depressed.

   "Does the princess not plan to go back?"

  After Zhou Yan left, Xue Han suddenly asked. Even if he didn't elaborate, Yinyin knew the cause.

   "Well, although I don't know when I want to go back, I only don't want to go back now."

Yinyin’s mood, Xue Han, can realize that being overprotected by Zhou Cheng all day makes her breathless. Although she also knows that Zhou Cheng loves her, it is because of this mood that Yinyin’s heart resists. And depression, as time goes by, it is like putting an invisible shackle on her. The more she is unwilling to lose, the easier it is to lose, and the faster she loses. Xue Han understands that the deeper the feelings accumulated in Zhou Cheng's heart, the more lost it will be. The direction, perhaps, Yinyin's choice is not necessarily correct. Leaving Zhou Cheng's side at this time, it might be the right thing to calm him down and think about what should be done next.

   "Even so, will you still escape King Jing?"

  Xue Han's sudden sentence made Yinyin startled, but what he said was also the truth. Xue Han knew that this kind of thing was beyond his ability and didn't intend to say it, but he blurted it out for some reason.

"…I am sorry."

  Seeing Yinyin's heavy expression, Xue Han immediately apologized. He had never wanted Yinyin to show such an expression.

   "You... are right."

  Yinyin doesn’t know what’s wrong, this kind of thing has always been suppressed in her heart, but at this moment, when Xue Han asked, she would answer naturally and uncontrollably?

"Even though I have forgotten the past, I know some things that have happened. After all, they are past events. I don’t want to pursue them. I know Cheng treats me very well and cherishes me, but I am I can’t accept his feelings, I know, even if I forget, there is still an irreplaceable existence in my heart. That person is neither Cheng nor Yan, even though I don’t know who it is, I think I must I love him deeply. I want to know who he is, where he is now, why he is not by my side when I need it most? I want to think of that person by my own ability, and I want to ask him face to face , Why is he not by my side when I need it most, why doesn't he come to me, before I find these, I don’t want to show any affection to anyone, I’m afraid that when I know everything, these people will be hurt because of it , I don't want to hurt them, but, but I still hurt them..."

For a while, Yinyin couldn't restrain her inner impulse, and blurted out all the words that had been suppressed in her heart for a long time. It was not until she heard these words that Xue Han suddenly realized that she finally knew that Yinyin had been abnormal again and again, and had been indifferent to Zhou Cheng and Zhou Yan. The reason why it is very friendly to other people. He never thought about what that forgotten memory represents to a person with amnesia. It would cause people to endure such a huge pain?

She clearly doesn’t want to hurt, but she hurts more unintentionally. Although this situation is very common, there is no choice in Yinyin’s heart. If she can choose, she will never choose to do so, but even if it hurts others , Yinyin herself also endured great pain; even if Yinyin didn't want to hurt others, she tried her best to avoid everything, but she still couldn't avoid hurting others and hurting herself.

Seeing Yinyin hiding his face and crying bitterly, Xue Han really wanted to hug her into his arms to comfort her, but he was very clear about his position and knew what to do and what not to do, even if he loved it deeply. On the other side, he was still holding back his inner emotions and could only watch as an outsider.

Soon after, when Xiuying came back with her meal and decoction, Yinyin had already wiped away her tears and greeted her return with a smile. Xue Han really wanted to know what was supporting Yinyin and why she could still be in endless pain. Can you greet people with a smile? Her innocent smile is not a trace of falsehood, it is so innocent. If it weren’t for the pain in Yinyin’s heart, Xue Han would have been blinded by her smile, but when she knew her pain, Yinyin’s smile made him I felt bitter in my heart, and her smile made his heart aching; I believe that many people will be blinded by her smile and ignore her inner pain, maybe because of this, so many people fall in love with her, right? She doesn't need to do anything, and she doesn't need to do anything. The reason why she is so pitiful is that she herself has no falsehood, no pretentiousness, but her nature is so fascinating.

  Separate Library Study Room

  "The lord, please forgive your subordinates for talking too much. Since you are worried about the princess, why not take the princess with you?"

  Zuoyu was reporting to Zhou Yan about the situation in Wangcheng and also about Han Ji. After reporting on Han Ji, Zuoyu couldn't help asking Zhou Yan.

  "Take her away will only make her situation embarrassing. It is better to leave her behind. The emperor is not a mediocre person. He should be aware of the affairs between the king and the princess, so he will not take action against the princess."

  Zuo Yu couldn’t fully understand Zhou Yan’s words, but he always felt that Zhou Yan was infatuated with Yinyin on the surface, but he could not abandon Han Ji, or did he feel ashamed of Han Ji that he couldn’t let it go? Zhou Yan’s thoughts are not something Zuo Yu can guess. He only knows that Zhou Yan is his master. If the master wants him, he only needs to do his best to help. Moreover, he feels that Zhou Yan’s feelings belong only to Yinyin alone. Sincere admiration, outsiders say that Zhou Yan is cold-blooded and ruthless, but how many people know that Zhou Yan is only in love with a woman? Will be desperate for a woman, not afraid of life and death?