Ettrama: The Secret In Love

Our dinner was over, Mr. Gornio led us to the living room for a talks. This is what I've been waiting for, maybe they will discuss the purpose of our coming here.

I tried to sit quietly and occasionally replied to a joke from Renandra, the boy clung to me. It's not that I don't like it, but I thought why didn't he stick to his father.

"Dear, Reista. Maybe you are asking why Renandra, our grandson said you are his new mommy", I stopped playing with Renandra's fine hair. Staring at Lord Gornio who was already staring at me intensely.

I just smiled and occasionally glanced at Mommy, she gave a signal through her eyes to keep me calm. Then I glanced at Renandra and Mr. Ramel they looked calm when looking at me.

Why is their stare annoying me, they really are father and son to match, just look at the way they sit and those unblinking eyes.

"Your father and I have been friends when we were in high school until now, and we have promised from a long time ago, if we have children of two different genders, we will match them", said Mr. Gornio, stopping and glancing at me.

I keep smiling and trying to be calm. Although I already understand more and more what this all means.

"We invite you and your family here to make our promise come true, you Reista and Ramelson we will match",

Having already felt the feelings of my heart that had been beating fast, I still smiled calmly. But my legs feel shaking, unfortunately I can't hold anyone's hand. My eyes didn't stop glued to Mr. Gornio's.

His words were like a joke. Very funny but doesn't make me laugh.

I was silent stiff, how could my family match me without tell menbefore it ?. especially with my own boss, can't they ask me first? even though I know my boss's family is a good family, but still this is my life and my future.

I really can't say anything I just look at my family and my boss family with a blank stare. As if the word matchmaking was like nonsense that I never expected.

"Reista? Hey you daydreaming dear?", Called Mommy who came over and tapped my shoulder softly.

I just nodded slowly and smiled at him. Really crazy, how many times have I smiled in the span of an hour. I tried to take a breath and looked at Mr. Gornio gently.

"Mr. Gornio, why did you choose me? I mean, maybe you guys have an appointment. But it's been a long time, right, the promise of youth is just a joke in my opinion". I said softly.

"Dear, look Mommy. this is all for your good and for the good of our family. After all, Mr. Gornio's son is a good and responsible son, it's not wrong if Mommy and Daddy match you with him", interrupted my mother.

"Mom I asked Mr. Gornio", I said firmly.

"Dear. forgive me, I know you are shocked by this information. But it's like I said earlier, this has been an agreement between me and your father since a long time ago. Even though we made decisions for a long time, we never thought it was a joke." , Mr. Gornio looks at me gently and lovingly.

"Sorry, Mr. Gornio, apart from the previous agreement, I also have a stance in life, that I don't like being a second wife. Besides, I'm also a woman. There's no way I could hurt Ramelson's wife", I said full of affirmation. What the heck is I being made the second wife? Huh! In your dreams !.

After all, I'm still young I can still find good and responsible men out there.

"Dear, Ramelson's wife has been dead for about 5 years, so that's why we want to set you up with him", said Daddy to me.

No wonder they are so passionate about matching me with my boss, it turns out that the widower is rich and handsome. But still what is this even I can't determine my own life.

"So Reista this matchmaking will continue to agree or disagree with you, dear. because this is Daddy's decision," he said firmly and irrefutably.

I looked down sadly I clenched my fists, I really feel insulted by this matchmaking. they really do not think I exist, I exhale my breath to neutralize the anger that has reached the crown. I can't possibly act arbitrarily here.

"As much as Daddy and Mommy, after all my answer is not important is not it, this is my life but I am like a doll that is always carried out according to orders", I exhaled my breath, I got up to leave the place. right now I really need fresh air.

A few steps I walked, a bass sound interrupted my steps.

"Aren't you old enough Miss? But your thinking is like a 7 year old child who needs time to play",

Is he insulting me ? really ?? he hasn't become my husband yet but his behavior is like a legitimate husband.

"This is my life, sir. Marriage is not a toy for me, this is only once in a lifetime. Therefore I want a husband who can be with me in trouble or pleasure, until his death picks me up. Besides that I also want a husband who loves me not on the basis of an agreement like This ", I'm really emotional my breath has fluctuated erratically.

"You lived all this time because your parents supported you, everything you wanted was always fulfilled by them, is this your reward for your parents?" Ramel's steps got closer, I didn't turn my body. I can not look into his eyes.

"They only ask for one wish in their life. But you? You even selfishly think of your own life", he mocked me with his words.

I really can't think straight right now, I want to cry, I want to scream, I want my life with a husband who loves and is loved by me. Not like this.

"Can you guarantee that one day our lives will be happy? Marriage without love? Even we are not that close! We are two strangers who have different paths, how can we build the same roof?",

"Reista, love comes because he is used to it, I can't guarantee that our lives will always be happy. But we will be able to guarantee that happiness. If we are together".

Ramel twisted my body and looked into my eyes gently. He took my hand and held it.

"Therefore will you marry me? Become a mother to my children, love them as you love yourself?

We don't really know each other, but please know that our parents won't plunge us into the wrong hole. If they believe in our marriage. means they know we'll be happy ".

I choked at his words. simple but straight into my heart, is he good at composing words? Shit! Even I was consumed by his words.

How about this? On the one hand the words are true, but on the other hand it is not my wish.

"Is that what you think Mr. Ramelson?". I let go of my hand from his grasp.

"If that's what you think, for my respect for my parents who have raised me. I accept it, I accept the destiny of my life!", I said firmly.

But deep in my heart, I was completely broken. My heart, my life, my dreams. destroyed by my own family.

"The wedding will be in one Sunday so be ready", she turned away leaving me standing like a fool.

What the heck is he crazy? arbitrarily leaving me immediately.

"Congratulations my little sister you will soon marry", my brother smiled at me and stroked the top of my head softly. I knew that he had been following and listening to my conversation with Ramel.

I looked into his eyes as level as possible as if my eyes were talking Are you happy with my sadness? If yes, then be happy !.

I left the house and ran away, my tears had really fallen, I cried and kept running. The night is getting colder and the streets are getting darker and lonely. I don't care if my family is looking for me or not, I feel like they won't think of me either.

I want to be selfish, I want my life, even if I dreamed that I never thought I would be arranged like this.

My tears had dried, my body was shivering from the night air. I don't care if I have to die today! I do not care!.

My body started to weaken, my head was spinning I felt as if the angel of death had summoned me. It's so funny, I want death.

I stepped towards the road with unsteadiness, many vehicles passing by honking loudly towards me.

Until in the middle of the road the lights shone sharply at me, I didn't care if the vehicle hit me.

Even I will be grateful to him if I really die !.

Stupid! I guess my brain is completely malfunctioning,

Not long after, I felt my consciousness begin to disappear, followed by a car horn sound that deafened my ears and suddenly I heard a voice.

Ciittttttt !!!!

Brrrruuuuakkkkk !!

My gaze dimmed and began to darken.