Even so, we are living in the present

Chapter 20 – Oppressed Sexual Desire and Possessiveness

“Oi, it’s time to wake up.”

Tomoya’s consciousness was roused by a gentle shaking of his shoulder.

“… Ngn…”

Slowly opening his eyelids, he stared at the ceiling in a daze with his yet unawakened brain, realizing that his beloved brother was next to him, and after a few moments, he made a rush to get under the covers upon recognizing his own figure.

“B-Big brother… I don’t have any clothes on.”

“Don’t you remember?”

Natsume, whose upper body was likewise exposed, raised his upper body and asked the question in a matter-of-fact manner.

“… What has happened?”

Tomoya peered into the other’s face as if he was searching for an expression.

“Have you forgotten what you’ve been asking me for since then, Tomoya?”

“Eh? No way…”

After that, that would be the time following the nightmare that awakened him. To be honest, he had no recollection of it. In fact, when Tomoya’s mental age became an infant in pursuit of affection, it often resulted in a hazy memory of the subsequent events. This has been persistent for a long time and has served as one of Tomoya’s concerns.

“Damn, on top of not remembering it, you fell down quickly… I even e̲ja̲c̲u̲l̲*t̲e̲d̲ inside you…”

“Aaah! Don’t say another word!”

He immediately sensed what Natsume, who was ready to reveal everything without wrapping it up, will say and he hurriedly raised his voice aloud, his cheeks flushing red with shame.

“Ah? Even though I was trying to remind you of that.”

As he said this, the corners of Natsume’s mouth turned up in mischief.

“I-It’s alright, I kind of get the idea…”

Although not averse to the details of the act with the other party, he was too embarrassed to listen to the specifics of the activity. Red to the ears, and writhing in a stitch of clothing, he got off the bed, picked up his underwear, which was scattered all over the carpet, and put it on.

“You should put on your pajamas too. Otherwise, you’ll catch a cold.”

Saying this, he tossed him a pair of top and bottom pajamas. He dexterously took them and grumbled as he donned them.

“Who made me take them off?”

“You took it off yourself.”

Sitting slumped on the bed, he folded his hands and looked down at his younger brother, who sat on the carpet and put on his pajamas.

“Ugh…”

Although he adopted a weak puppy-like attitude with his eyebrows drooping at his unrivaled brother’s reply and sharp gaze, he was excited inwardly. At some point, he has grown to take pleasure from being misbehaved with by his beloved older brother. Those were feelings that were twisted by the lack of sufficient affection in his childhood.

“Too bad you don’t remember.”

“…”

He did not deny it. If possible, Tomoya’s desire was to remember every act with his brother. How he was teased, being played with… being violated…

“… Ah, not good.”

Having fantasies he had no memory of, he hastily put on his pants, turned his back to the bed, sat in a cross-legged position, and pressed his nether region with his hands.

“Oh? What’s the matter?”

From behind him, while he was still sitting cross-legged, his brother’s nagging question resounded. Even without looking at his face, he could tell. He must have a grin and a mischievous smile on his face.

“I-It’s nothing.”

Looking over his shoulder at Natsume, he retorted with a bright red face. However, such a lie would be no barricade in front of his brother.

“Even if you hide it, it’s obvious. You got an erection by merely imagining me violating you, didn’t you?”

He knew that the other person would be aroused by the shame, but he enjoyed making fun of him.

“So, stop saying it!”

Tears gradually welled up in his reddened eyes. Seeing his brother’s cuteness, he finally burst into laughter.

“Kuhaha! Aww, seriously… that’s the sort of cute part that you’re unaware of, and that’s why I’m worried about you.”

He laughed amusedly, but then his voice slowly lowered in tone. With a slight creak of the springs, he stepped off the bed and crouched down in front of Tomoya, grasping him by the chin. Tomoya’s throat rose and fell without averting his gaze as he was stared at by his brother’s glaring face.

“I’m the only one who can bully you, Tomoya.”

“Yes, I know. I belong only to you, big brother.”

There was no room for disagreement in his intimidating voice. Tomoya immediately uttered the answer the other sought. After hearing this, Natsume hugged his beloved brother tightly with both arms.

“… Okay, charging completed.”

“Me too, me too,” said Tomoya, joyfully embracing him.

“Hehe, charged up!”

Wherever his shame from earlier was, he stood up in response to his partner with a lively voice. Together, they made their morning preparations and proceeded to commute to school with each other. Then they headed out the front door jointly. Tomoya went to high school. Natsume went to university. Even though they commute to school on different routes, they stay together until they are about to part ways.

“Tomoya, be careful on your way.”

“Take care of yourself, too.”

With that, they waved at each other and walked down their respective paths.

“…”

At this time, he did not expect it. That there was a man lurking in the shadows, watching Tomoya’s every move…