Fairy Cries Only At Night

Will I have children?

No, I don't want children, I don't want children!

I grabbed Li Yan's hand and shook my head madly.

Children are the crystallization of two people's love. Li Yan and I have no love. We don't need children.

Li Yan looked at me, just like that.

I eagerly looked around for something to talk to him, but I didn't.

I went to touch his clothes, trouser pockets and took out his mobile phone. Just when I wanted to write, Li Yan grabbed my hand and took the mobile phone. In a low voice, with cold tenderness, he said, "don't want children?"

I nodded quickly without hesitation.

Li Yan smiled softly, held my hand, rubbed it slowly on my fingernails and said, "what if you commit suicide again?"

The voice is helpless, without any trouble in the face of difficult problems.

I held him tightly with my backhand and shook my head eagerly.

No, I won't kill myself. I really won't kill myself!

“……”

Li Yan didn't speak or look at me. His fingers always rubbed my nails, rubbing from here to there, as if he had encountered something fun, enjoying it leisurely.

I lowered my head, looked at Li Yan, broke free, held his face and forced him to look at me. I shook my head at him madly and told him with my eyes that I really wouldn't commit suicide.

Li Yan looked at me, looking indifferent and strange.

"What if you don't keep your word?"

“……”

I shook my head again.

"You say, how should I believe you?" Li Yan gave me his cell phone after seeing me half ring.

I hurried to the result and wrote it quickly.

I won't go back. I promise you everything you do!

Li Yan took over the mobile phone, gradually enough to arouse a smile at the corners of his mouth, and whispered, "you promise me everything I do?"

I nod!

In order not to get pregnant, I actively cooperated with the doctor's treatment and let Li Yan see my sincerity.

But every time when Li Yan and I have the same room, I am still afraid.

All the time, I was worried about whether I would get pregnant, but after three months, my stomach still didn't respond after living with Li Yan countless times, I gradually put down my heart.

The city of England is very beautiful. The ancient buildings and people from all over the world make it full of charm.

I live in a big manor in England, like an ancient castle. At first, I often get lost and afraid.

Because there are too few people here, and I often dream that the child cries at me and asks me why I don't want her.

At that time, my mood was so bad that I had nightmares every day and my mind was a little confused.

Later, Li Yan called a doctor and lived next door to me. If Li Yan didn't come back one day, the doctor would come to appease me.

But anyway, with the continuous spending of money, my body gradually improved.

But I know that no matter how good my body is, my heart is not good.

It is already riddled with holes.

"Miss Su, lunch is ready." a voice with a strong accent sounded. I looked at delifen, put down my book and got up to the table.

I still can't speak.

The dishes on the table are very rich. They are all my favorite.

I looked at the time. Eleven o'clock. Well, after dinner, I went out for a walk.

I had lunch, went upstairs, put on a thick down jacket, put on a scarf and gloves, and went out.

Yes, it's winter now, and Christmas is a week away.

How fast

I asked ah Cheng to stop in the city center. I want to go out for a walk.

Ah Cheng stopped the car and followed me.

I pulled up my scarf, covered my face and nose, and looked at the surrounding scenery with only one eye.

It snowed heavily this morning and turned the streets white.

However, now come out, the snow has been swept to both sides, a large area of snow-white.

I came to a snow place, which is like a special place to play with snow. Children of all sizes and their parents squatted in it to make a snowman.

They make snowmen of various shapes, but they are very beautiful and beautiful!

I became interested, walked in, squatted on the ground, picked up the snow and began to pile it up.

I like it very much, but I used to live in the south. It doesn't snow very much, so I hardly played with snow.

Today is my wish.

I quickly made a snowman and found a branch to break and rub it on the snowman's hand.

Looked, turned and looked at ah Cheng.

He stood like a piece of wood looking at the snowman.

I ran to him, took off his gloves, padded his feet, took off his hat and put it on the snowman.

Well, perfect!

I picked up my cell phone, squatted down next to the snowman and pressed the shooting button.

I took a lot of photos towards the camera, but no matter how well I posed and how happy I smiled in my heart, there was still no smile on my face.

My smile disappeared with my voice

After taking the picture, I put on my hat and gloves for ah Cheng and continued to walk forward.

When I went outside the dessert shop, the ice cream in it made me want to drool. I went in, ordered a super large ice cream, sat by the window and ate it slowly.

Eating ice cream in winter really feels different. It's so sour!

I finished my last bite of ice cream, got up, went to the cashier and handed the money to the cashier.

The cashier gave me the change and I looked out.

"Miss, here's your change."

I turned around, took the money, put it in my bag and went out.

After a while, it snowed again. I looked up at the sky and reached for it. The snow fell into my hand and soon melted.

I watched it melt into a small drop of water. I felt so cute.

I raised my hand to pick it up again, but there was an unexpected person in front of me.

A brown coat and a white sweater, especially that face, smile like, er, the sun.

Not Jin Yan. Who is it?

I looked at Jin Yan in a daze. Beside him was a beautiful and elegant woman. They spoke in a low voice, and their faces were filled with a happy smile.

I looked behind them. There was a wedding dress shop.

And they came out of the wedding dress shop

How is that possible? This man is not Jin Yan!

I walked forward and ran. The woman turned and kissed Jin Yan. I couldn't see Jin Yan's face, but I could see them kissing.

No, this person may be Jin Yan. I stopped where I was and didn't dare to go forward.

Then I saw Jin Yan open the door. The gentleman raised his hand on the roof and the woman sat in. Then he came to the driver's seat and started the car. The car left soon.

The blood coagulated and my whole body was like being placed in an ice cellar. I shivered when it was cold.

With trembling hands, I picked up my mobile phone and entered a few words into a number.

"Ding" SMS sent successfully.

I stood there, looking at the wedding dress shop opposite, holding my mobile phone tightly and waiting for the reply in my mobile phone.