Fall in love with a beautiful boss

"You're lying. Not only do I understand your heart, but you also understand my heart. You know it very well." I said stubbornly, with a burst of sadness in my heart.

"Whether you and I understand it or not, it doesn't matter. What matters is that we all have our own reality. We can't change the reality. People should have a conscience and show gratitude. This is my character. I believe you will do the same if you change. I... have no illusions about us. I just hope that in this real world, I can see that you and Haizhu can be well, that someone can love you and take care of you, that you can have a happy marriage and family, and that Haizhu and you can live happily together. In this way, it is also a relief for me, and I will be happy. "

"Your eyes are only me and Haizhu. Your eyes are only your benefactor's parents, your benefactor's family, and only your own gratitude," I said. "Even if you see Haizhu and I enter marriage and have a family, even if Haizhu is happy, do you think I will be really happy and happy? Do you think you can really feel happy and relieved? "

"I have no other way. I have no other choice. I have only one way to go. I can't turn back. Even if I don't return, I will go on. In reality, I don't expect any happiness and happiness. I'm satisfied as long as I can find the lost memory in the air from time to time, and as long as I can recall what I once had in my soul in the air.

We are all rational people, social people and people living in reality. Reality is inescapable. Reality must be respected and conscience must be feared. I don't want to hurt more innocent and kind people because of my so-called happiness. I can't.

What Xia Yu said that day is actually very right. Time and space will change everything. In this time, nothing can stand the test of time and space. Years will eventually tell you and me that what we have experienced can only be a virtual and nothingness in the air. In reality, we will all have our own life trajectory, and we will eventually follow the trajectory of fate. On this track, you will eventually reap your happiness. "

Qiutong's voice is full of helpless sadness and desolation.

Looking at Qiu Tong's sad expression, my heart hurts badly and my eyes are a little damp.

I grabbed Qiu Tong's hand and put it in my palm.

Qiutong's hands are cold and weak.

She didn't try to break free and looked at me with clear eyes.

"You're torturing yourself, you're abusing yourself, you're torturing yourself." I said.

"I will." She said.

"I know your heart is very bitter and painful." I said again.

"I --"

"Do you know how bitter and painful my heart is? Do you know how many sleepless nights I have because of you? Do you know how many times I think of you when I am with Haizhu? " My voice trembled.

"I'm sorry..." her eyes began to turn red again, with distressed eyes.

"Even, I'm with Haizhu. When I do that, I will suddenly think of you. When I think of you, I suddenly -- "I can't go on, and my throat suddenly choked.

"Sorry, it's all my fault, it's all my fault." Qiu Tong murmured with guilt on his face.

"No, you're not wrong. It's me. It's the reality of this son of a bitch. It's this fucking world. "

"No, you are not wrong, the reality is not wrong, the world is not wrong, but me. I shouldn't have appeared in your life, in your air. " She said, "to you, I really don't know what to do except to say sorry. I can only be deeply sorry for you and Haizhu. Our understanding was a mistake from the beginning, a tragic mistake. We shouldn't know at all. Even in the air, it's a mistake. "

My heart was full of pity and sadness. Looking at Qiu Tong, I said, "I... I want to tell you, I want to tell you outside the air. I... I love you. "

At this moment, I finally said three words that had been suppressed for a long time.

Her body trembled, her hands trembled, and she stared at me.

"I love you! You are the only woman I love most in the world, and the favorite I can't shake in my soul! " I said.

Her eyes turned red again and looked at me.

"Tell me, you also love me. You only love one man in your heart, that is, Yike in the air and Yike in the reality!" I clenched her hand.

Her hands trembled slightly, still cold.

She looked at me silently for a while and gently shook her head: "I'm sorry, I can't tell you. I can't. The guest in the air has disappeared, disappeared in my dream paradise, and Yi Ke in reality is my best and best friend. I will deeply bless him and wish him peace, happiness and happiness. But I and Yi Ke in reality can only be two parallel lines that will never be intertwined. Even if it is infinitely close, it will never arrive. "

With that, Qiu Tong gently took out his hand and drank up a glass of wine. His eyes were sad.

I also drank the wine in the cup at once. My heart was full of great pain and sadness, as well as suffocating depression and loss.

We looked at each other silently and said nothing to each other.

We drank another glass of wine and kept silent.

And I also have a bit of alcohol. Although I don't drink much, everyone gets drunk if I'm not drunk.

"I love you." I said again.

She pressed her lips tightly.

"Say you love me." I said stubbornly.

She lowered her head, did not speak, and her body trembled slightly.

"Say you love me." I said it again. The voice was sour, bitter and dry.

She looked up at me with begging eyes: "please, don't force me, don't."

Although we were all drunk, she seemed to be a bit sober and still refused to relax the final bottom line.

I didn't speak. I got up and walked behind her with my hands on her shoulders.

She sat there motionless and continued to tremble slightly.

My hand touched her face, my fingers slid gently on her facial skin and facial features, and gently stroked her delicate cheek.

She suddenly grasped my hand with her hand, and her trembling increased.

I bowed my head and kissed her hair. It smells good.

Then I put my mouth close to her ear and whispered, "I love you."

"No... don't say that." Her flustered voice.

"I know, you love me too, love me very much. Whether it's in the air or in reality. " I continued to whisper. The stimulation of alcohol accelerated my blood flow.

"No..." she murmured, shaking violently.

I felt her face very hot.

I felt her body start to heat up.

It seems that this encourages me.

My brain suddenly burst out an irresistible impulse and suddenly picked her up without thinking——

"Ah -" she exclaimed. Before she could speak, her mouth was blocked by my mouth.

Without hesitation, I hugged Qiu Tong tightly and strode upstairs to her bedroom——

Qiu Tong struggled and made a flustered voice: "no, you don't, put me down, put me down..."

I hugged her body tightly and continued to walk upstairs. I didn't say a word and was hot all over.

I went into the bedroom and laid her flat on the bed. I pressed her up before she got up.

Her throat made a rapid and ambiguous voice, and her hands waved wildly in front of my chest, trying to push me away.

I pressed her body and looked at her.

She looked at me helplessly and powerlessly, and issued begging eyes: "please, don't do this, let me go."

I shook my head gently. "No - I don't."

"You like this, i... we..." she said intermittently, incoherent.

"Say you love me." I lowered my head and whispered in her ear.

"Don't force me, don't... she made a weak voice with extreme pain and panic.

"Say - you love me." I said again.

"Please, don't force me, I..."

I stopped talking and kissed her again.

I started the next step.

"No, absolutely not. No, we can't. We... Can't." She cried in panic and shrank to the head of the bed.

I was stunned and looked at her.

I knelt there and looked at her.

She covered her face with her hands and said sadly, "I'm sorry, we can't do this. We can't repeat our previous mistakes."

"You are torturing yourself, you are deceiving yourself." My voice was a little hoarse, my heart suddenly felt very sad, and my tears suddenly came out.

Hearing her cry so much, my heart softened. I felt sad and filled with infinite pity at the same time.

I know that I'm finished this time and I'm on the verge of success.

Her eyes gave out painful eyes, suddenly hugged my body, buried her face in my arms, and her body twitched violently.

She began to cry silently but violently.

The more silent she cried, the more painful my heart was.

I patted her on the back with my hand and whispered in her ear, "if you want to cry, cry aloud. I know your heart is very painful and depressed. Cry, cry. "

She stopped crying and became silent in my arms.

I sighed deeply, dried my tears, bowed my head and kissed her hair.

She slowly left my arms and I handed over a tissue.

She dried her tears with a paper towel, then got out of bed and went into the bathroom.

I sat on the edge of the bed, lit a cigarette and smoked silently.

After a while, she came out. She combed her messy hair and clothes, and her look returned to normal.

She sat silently on the sofa at the head of the bed and looked at me with extreme uneasiness and melancholy in her eyes.

"Just now, i... I went too far." I said.

She lowered her head.

"I know I shouldn't. I know what I'm doing. I know I'm wrong. " I continued, my voice a little lost and low.

She looked up at me.

I watched her silently.

"Me. I don't blame you. " She whispered.

My heart trembled.

"I... I understand your impulse, I understand what you did just now. However, I should not be like that, should not indulge myself. I just indulged myself. I really shouldn't, my indulgence encouraged you, so I don't blame you, all blame me.

I was wrong. I keep telling myself not to make mistakes, but I can't control myself. I always make mistakes again and again on the edge of collapse. I really... Really can't forgive myself. " She said incoherently, with deep guilt and uneasiness in her voice, and lowered her head deeply.