Fall in love with a beautiful boss

"Master of the book of changes?" I said.

"No, it's Yi Ke. I just gave him the title today, Master Yi! "

"Why call him a master?"

"Because he is really a master. His rich experience in business research and practice is really a valuable asset. The more I look at his lecture materials, the more I feel that this person is level. It's not too much to call him a master!"

I suddenly felt excited and lost: "then he is a master. What am I?"

"Of course you are also a master. For me, you and he are both my teachers. However, in terms of marketing, you are my earliest teacher and an enlightenment teacher. He is later than you."

"Do you admire him very much?"

"Worship is not enough. I admire him very much!"

"Do you worship me?"

"Hee hee, do you want me to worship you?"

"Hope!"

"Well, I'll say I worship you! I adore guests. "

"You are fooling me and satisfying my poor vanity and self-esteem!" I said.

"Ah - the guest is so clever." She sent a laughing expression.

I couldn't help laughing: "why lie to me?"

"I didn't lie to you. I really admire you. However, I don't admire your marketing ability and knowledge. I also admire your ability. "

"What do you say?"

"Because you are my belief, the pillar and belief of my spiritual world, and the object of my soul space worship." She said.

My heart suddenly trembled and my brain was greatly shocked. I deeply understood what she meant. I have become a deep and indelible brand of her spiritual world and a spiritual pillar for her to survive in the real world.

She continued: "once, when I was young, I had faith, which was the Utopia in the dream taught to me in the textbook. Later, when I grew up, I lost faith and had no faith. Later, when I met you, I found faith unconsciously. It seems that it is the home of barren spirit, the home of lonely soul and the end of wandering soul. "

I said, "in fact, I can't be your faith. I don't deserve to be your faith."

"This is not controlled by your subjective imagination, nor do I do it on purpose." She said, "maybe if we were together in reality, I wouldn't believe in you, but in this illusory world, I don't know how I came to this step unconsciously. Perhaps this is the characteristic of the virtual world. "

"Yes." My heart is a little heavy.

In fact, unconsciously, since the beautiful and wrong encounter on the Yalu river last year, Qiu Tong has been deeply imprinted in my heart. After the reality has become impossible forever, Qiu Tong has sublimated into an indispensable belief in my spiritual world and become the highest realm in my love space.

Perhaps, faith is unattainable and can never be obtained. If you get it, it is not faith.

"Guest."

"Well, I am!"

"Do you have faith?"

"Me. Yes. "

"What do you believe in?"

"I believe in eternal love." I said, "it's just that this faith can only be faith and will never be realized in reality."

She was silent.

For a long time, she said, "the reality is always cruel. In fact, you and my faith, in other words, is ideal. The so-called unforgettable, the so-called life and death, is like a gorgeous window paper. Only when you pierce it can you know how cruel it is behind the paper. Many people in the real world are often confused by this gorgeous paper and enter a dream. When they wake up, reality deeply hurts people's eyes. "

I took a deep breath, lit a cigarette, silently looked at her words, for a long time, I said: "this topic is very heavy, change the topic."

"Yes."

"You. Do you like Master Yi? " I asked her.

"Yes! I like friends like him! "

"I said like, not like this."

"Who likes it?"

"That's the kind, you know."

"I have answered you this question before. My love for him and your love are not of the same type." She said: "Master Yi is a man with a girlfriend. His girlfriend is my good sister. I wish them happiness from my heart. Do you think I will like him? Also, that kind of love, as a man, may be for several women at the same time, but as a woman, will it be for two men at the same time? "

"As a man, you won't have it at the same time?"

"You are a man. You don't need to ask me this question."

"Master Yi, does she mean that to you?"

"This should not be."

"What do you mean?"

"Now I understand that he is a man of good conduct, love and righteousness. He now has his own girlfriend. His girlfriend loves him very much and he is also very good to his girlfriend. In this regard, he won't mean that to me, but."

"But what?"

"But. Sometimes, the way he looks at me often makes me feel a kind of panic. I really don't understand what he means. "

"What kind of eyes?"

"It's the kind of dazed, dazed and crazy eyes. Sometimes there are a few strands of confusion, even a little sour. I'm often overwhelmed by his eyes. I don't know what's on his mind. However, according to my current understanding of other people's personality, he will never have that intention for me. In fact, he is a very loyal person. Although he has changed his girlfriend several times, it is out of helplessness, not what he wants. "

"Oh." My heart suddenly jumped and churned: "you observed very carefully."

"In fact, if it weren't for you, I wouldn't have found this." She said.

"What does that mean?"

"Because sometimes, when I see him, I can't help but see your vague shadow in my mind. Sometimes, I can't help being stunned. I always feel that you are very similar to him. I know you are not alone, but I can't help thinking. When I see him, I think of you. I'm often distressed about it. I know it's wrong for me to do so. I shouldn't turn you into him. "

"Let me ask you a question!"

"Ask!"

"If, I mean if." I said, "if I were Master Yi, what would you do?"

"There is no such thing as if!"

"Isn't this an analogy? We can have a fantasy and rebirth. If I were Master Yi, what would you and I do?"

"If that's true, I might as well die!" She said, "as for you, life is better than death!"

"Ah - why?" I was startled.

"It's very simple. I have my reality and you have your reality. I can't go against my conscience. I must repay my kindness. I must marry my benefactor's son. This is an unalterable fact. As for you, there is a girl who deeply loves you. You also love her very much. According to your character and personality, you won't leave your girl. Isn't this the cruelest reality for you and me? If it doesn't ruin your and my life, even if it doesn't ruin our physical life, our spirit will collapse completely. Without the spirit, there is only the body, that is, the walking dead. "

"Yes." I fell into deep confusion and loss.

"In fact, I often have a deep sense of guilt now. I have my own fiance in reality, but I like a person in the air in the illusory world. I don't abide by women's morality. Although it is the back plate of spirit, I think it is more terrible than physical betrayal, and it makes me very uneasy when I think of it.

Countless sleepless nights, I kept blaming myself deeply, and even tried to forget you and erase you from my memory. But I can't do it, I can't do it. I can't make it.

Guest, I think I'm going crazy. I'm a bad woman. I can't be any worse. In the real world, everyone thinks I am a good woman, an intellectual, rational, educated, reasonable and self-disciplined woman, but who will know the other side of me, my dirty and evil side. "

"You -- stop talking." My angina pectoris: "I don't allow you to trample on yourself and belittle yourself so much. I tell you, no matter in the real and illusory world, you are a good woman, the kindest, gentlest and most beautiful woman in the world. You don't want to be like this. You are just forced, forced by reality. In reality, you have ruined everything and repay kindness at the cost of your best youth. Your life is hard enough.

In the illusory world, you just want to find a spiritual support, an illusory comfort and a spiritual habitat. It's not your fault. You're not guilty. You're innocent. You should thank this virtual world. Without this virtual world, although your body still continues to exist in reality, your spirit may have died long ago. Now, with the support of the illusory world, your spirit is still breathing in reality, although it is not clear. "

At this point, my heart was so painful that I couldn't help myself. I hit the send button and then smoked hard.

I know that if I completely disappear from the dreamy world, I will cruelly kill her spiritual life and completely suffocate her soul until she dies.

She paused for a moment and said, "even if. Even if what you said is right, I still can't reduce my guilt. Even if I don't care about my reality, I have to take care of you. If we continue like this, there will be no result. I can't give you anything. I've been asking for your spiritual comfort, and you will have nothing in the end. Not only have nothing, but also delay and affect your real life. This is extremely unfair to you. If this goes on, I will be sorry for everyone, including you. "

"I don't care! You don't have to think about it! " I sent a rude and angry expression: "what to give, what to ask, what to be sorry, are bastards. As long as you live well in this virtual world, as long as you are happy, I will be happy. In the future, such words shall not be mentioned or spoken again! Do you hear me? "

She doesn't speak.

"Did you hear what I asked you? Answer me! " I sent another overbearing expression.

After a while, she said, "I hear you."