Fall in love with a beautiful boss

Haizhu's decisive departure has dealt a heavy blow to my body and mind. In sadness, I am desolate, in pain, and in loneliness, I am lost. In just one and a half years, from Donger's disappearance to her appearance to her departure again, from Haizhu's appearance to her entry, I have experienced at least n gains and losses, and each time I am left, It has caused a heavy blow to my spiritual world.

My world begins to snow, my world falls into a long night, I sink in confusion, I taste in pain, and I repent in pain.

I blamed myself deeply. After a little calmness, a little confusion flashed in my mind from time to time. Yes, as Qiu Tong said that day, didn't Haizhu show signs of relaxation in front of me before? Why did it suddenly become so abnormal and decided to break up, Is there any new change that leads to the new fluctuation of Haizhu's thought? If so, what would it be? I can't think of anything for the moment.

Haizhu's departure has plunged me into extreme depression. Many times, I don't want to talk to anyone. Many times, I prefer to be alone. Many times, I choose more silence. During the day, I fill my empty heart with hard work. At night, I intoxicate myself with alcohol and cigarettes and don't give myself room to think and indulge, Let yourself go to sleep in numbness and intoxication.

It seems to know that there will be no good fruit to provoke me at such a time. Xia Yu and Dong Er have not appeared in front of me for the time being. It seems that they are quietly waiting for me and waiting for the best opportunity to attack to see who can occupy the vacancy left by Haizhu in the best and fastest way.

Haizhu's sudden departure also brought a huge psychological shock to Qiu Tong. She knew that I was in a bad mood and usually didn't bother me. She occasionally said a few words with me to comfort me. When I talked to Haizhu, I saw her eyes show great confusion and confusion from time to time, It seems that she has been thinking about the real reason why Haizhu left me.

"For some things, the result is not important, but the reason is important. There is no fruit, but the fruit is planted. " Qiu Tong murmured, with a look of sadness and loss in his eyes.

Qiu Tong's words made me think hard.

In the meantime, floating life like a dream and Yike didn't communicate online. Floating life like a dream didn't leave a message to Yike. Instead, she saw such a sentence in her space: "the world is painful, and happiness is short. Sometimes believe in fate. Since you can't put it down, don't deliberately put it down and put it in your heart. "

It made me think for a long time.

My emotional world has been stormed, but I will not bring my personal emotions to work, let alone infect others. During the day, I am as busy and calm as usual. In front of everyone, I talk, laugh, do, eat and drink. I left my true self for the night.

In the lonely and sad night, Haizhu filled my whole body and mind. In addition to endless repentance and attachment to Haizhu, from time to time, I would also have vague love and worry about Haizhu. I was worried about her safety and that she would be hurt.

I gave xiaoqinru a death order. Whenever there were signs of danger over Haizhu, I should report it to me quickly.

I have never relaxed my vigilance and vigilance against a person - Bai Laosan.

Even if Haizhu has left me, I still have the obligation to protect her. I must not let her be hurt and infringed by Bai Laosan.

That afternoon, Lao Li and I sat quietly in Tianfu tea room and tasted tea quietly.

Lao Li already knew about my breakup with Haizhu. He knew it by accident when he scolded Xia Yu fiercely and secretly behind his back in summer. Xia was worried that he would get angry and hurt his body. He didn't dare to tell him, but he heard it by accident. Lao Li didn't ask about summer and summer rain. He always pretended not to know.

In front of me, Lao Li also kept quite silent. It seems that his mood was also affected by this matter and my mood.

"Xiao Yi, why don't I take you out to relax? We'll go far. We'll go to Madagascar. " Lao Li said.

Madagascar, indeed far enough, is a fascinating place.

I looked at Lao Li and didn't speak.

"It's my treat!" Lao Li said again.

It's not about money. I shook my head and knew Lao Li said it on purpose.

"I'm not going anywhere now!" I said.

In fact, I know in my heart that I can't go anywhere in the current situation of Xinghai.

"Because of work? Or because... "Lao Li looked at me tentatively.

"Because of everything." I lit a cigarette, took two breaths, turned and looked out of the window. The warm winter sun slanted in and sprinkled on me, but I didn't feel a little warm.

"Time can take everything away. No matter how big things are, they will pass. Life will always continue." Lao Li said.

I looked at Lao Li in silence.

"Xiao Yi, do you think I should apologize for Xia Yu?" Lao Li suddenly said.

I smiled bitterly, "what do you mean by asking me? I don't need anyone to apologize. "

"If I hurt you and your girlfriend because of Xia Yu, I must apologize to you instead of my daughter." Lao Li sighed.

"Lao Li, no need. In fact, Haizhu may not have left me because of the summer rain. " I said bitterly.

"That's because?" Lao Li looked at me.

"Because I don't know why." I said, "so you don't have to apologize, and I don't want to blame Xia Yu."

"I understand the character of the two children, summer and summer rain. They will not affect their work because of private things. The cooperative business between Sanshui group and spring tourism company will not be affected by this incident." Lao Li said, "there is something wrong with the summer rain. The child is spoiled by me."

I said, "in fact, I should be blamed most. Don't push the responsibility on Xia Yu. I am the main responsible person. I have an unshirkable responsibility. There are some things I can't avoid, and no one can replace me. "

With that, I sighed heavily.

Lao Li was silent for a long time and said, "I still suggest you go out with me. If you think my treat hurts your self-esteem, we'll make it AA."

"It's not about money." I said half a sentence, then shook my head at Lao Li: "no, I'm not going anywhere!"

"Can't you go or don't you want to go?" Lao Li suddenly said.

My heart thumped and said, "no comment!"

"I don't think you can go!" Lao Li looked at me quietly.

"I said no comment. Why are you so annoying and keep talking." I'm a little upset.

"I'm not upset. You're upset. You're upset because I'm right, aren't you?" Lao Li said.

"Lao Li, don't mess with me, will you? Why are you so annoying! " I said.

"Well, I won't annoy you. I won't bother you. I won't talk, will you?" Lao Li saw that I was in a bad mood. He stopped pressing step by step and began to retreat.

I looked out of the window for a long time and suddenly said, "are you married in summer?"

"Single!"

"He's thirty-five or six. Why is he still single?"

"The child is too strong. He vowed never to start a family if he didn't start a career. Now he's starting a career, but he's even busier. Where can he have time to fall in love. Of course, I think he didn't meet the right person. "

"Are you in a hurry to have grandchildren?"

"It's false to say it's not urgent, but there's no way!"

"What kind of daughter-in-law do you want?"

"I want to find a daughter-in-law who loves my son and my son loves her!"

"Nonsense."

"Sometimes, nonsense is necessary." Lao Li looked at me with thoughtful eyes.

I turned and looked at Lao Li. I didn't speak for a long time. Summer, autumn Tong and Li Shun flashed in my mind.

"In life, there are always some people who come and go like the wind and dream without trace. Countless encounters, countless departures, maybe not giving up, maybe expecting, maybe helpless, and finally realizing, it's better to keep humble and clear your heart... "Lao Li's floating voice echoed in my ears.

My heart trembled, I got up and turned sadly.

Lao Li sat there motionless and watched me leave in silence.

Sunday, 10 a.m.

Front lawn of Xinghai Park Square.

It's rare to have a good weather. The warm winter sun shines on the earth.

I sat on the chair beside the square, wrapped in cotton padded clothes, my head shrunk in the vertical collar, and looked lazily at the playing snow not far away.

Of course, Xiaoxue is not playing by herself. There are her grandparents Lao Li and Lao Li's wife next to her. At the moment, they are happily playing games with Xiaoxue on the lawn. Lao Li looks at me from time to time.

Of course, it's not just the grandparents and grandchildren playing here. On the connecting chair next to me, Qiu Tong is sitting. She is smiling and looking at the happy grandparents and grandchildren.

I didn't come to their family's weekend party. I met them when I was alone in the sun. Last night, I got drunk in the dormitory. In the morning, I felt my head heavy and had a headache, so I came here for a breath of fresh air, so I met them.

"Look, what happy grandparents and granddaughters." I said weakly.

"Yes." Qiu Tong said and looked at me: "didn't you sleep well last night? Why do you look sleepy at the moment. "

I didn't say anything.

"You drank too much yourself last night, didn't you?" Qiu Tong said.

I still didn't speak. The figure of Xiaoxue running and playing in front of me gradually blurred.

"I know you're in a bad mood, so I didn't bother you too much. I know you often get drunk alone and often drown your worries in the dormitory. " Qiu Tong looked at me: "Yi Ke, I don't want you to be like this all the time. I don't want you to degenerate and decadent. No matter how hard it hit you, I hope you can adjust your mood and get out of the haze."

I nodded: "well, don't worry about me. I'll adjust myself."

"I have been doubting the real reason why Haizhu left." Qiu Tong said.

I looked at Qiu Tong and said for a long time, "Qiu Tong, in fact, no matter what the reason is, it is all related to me, isn't it? Don't care about me and Haizhu. It's not good for you to care more. Before that, you have received a lot of misunderstandings and criticisms. I don't want you to continue to suffer greater grievances and difficulties for this matter. "

Qiu Tong lowered his eyelids: "as long as I can see that you and Haizhu are reconciled again, as long as I can see the happiness of you and Haizhu, even if I am embarrassed and misunderstood, it is worth it. Before Haizhu's accusation against me, I didn't have any grievances and complaints. I was really wrong. I made too many mistakes. Now, my biggest wish is to let Haizhu return to you. To let Haizhu return to you, we must know the real reason why Haizhu left you. "

"Did you find it?" I said something carelessly. I think Qiu Tong's thinking is too complicated. I haven't figured out other reasons why Haizhu left me. Since there are no other reasons, Haizhu is still caused by me, Xia Yu and my joining the gang.

"I haven't found it yet. But I believe I will find it. " Qiu Tong locked his eyebrows and sounded determined.