Falling In Love With A Broken Hearted Man

"Y-you did w-what?" I stuttered. I was shocked by his sudden confession.

I didn't even think of that. I believed that he really made a mistake that day.. It's still fresh on my mind and I don't have a word to describe how I feel after finding out about it.

"Why? Does your heart flutter after hearing about it?" The smirked on his face made me blushed.

I just focused my eyes on the food. I'm regretting now. I should've just waited for him so I could have an alibi to escape this another embarrassment.

He placed his hand on my chin and lift it up to face him.. He's not getting my reaction. Damn. I might had a heart attack if he continues to do this!

"You're embarrassed after hearing it? I'm supposed to be the one who react like this, right baby?" He flushed an amused smile while turning his gaze on the living room.

The smile on his face suddenly changed into a serious one. I don't know what he's thinking but it gives me a bad feeling.

"You waited for my call right?" His face looked worried and guilty.

I want to say that I didn't but my messages obviously states that I want to talk to him last night. I waited and I haven't received any..

"Yeah. But that's fine. I understand that you had to fixed the mess, so we can go back to normal again.. I understand.." I gave him an assuring smile so he won't be bothered by it anymore.

But his face didn't changed. He shook his head like he's scolding himself for not calling me. Seriously, it's really fine. Now that I've witnessed how tired he was last night.

"Sorry.." He sighed. "I left my phone on my car and it..It slipped on my mind, it's late when I already thought about calling you. I'm really sorry baby.."

My heart was a bit hurt by that. I didn't even thought that he would really forgot about it but it's really true.

I hate being forgotten but what can I do? I love him and I would understand him no matter what.

"I know you're disappointed. It's my fault so you can be mad at me,"

My eyes widened. I can't do that to him!

"I'm not m-mad.. I'm j-just a bit..d-disappointed.." I bit my lower lip.

Of course I waited for him and I was assuming a lot of things why he didn't call me. I was patiently waiting for his call..

But the thought of that suddenly blew all out when I found out about the truth. It literally disappoint me, like I was so stupid for believing that he's just busy..

This might be so shallow but I'm afraid of being forgotten and I'm scared of being ignored..

"You can say your thoughts to me. You know, I'm not used to this.. I'm not used of you being this quiet.." He placed his hand on my hand from the table so I stared at it.

His face feels warm and soft. It just melted the bad feeling that I'm experiencing right now.

"I waited last..night.." My voice cracked.. "I thought you're just busy.."

My lips trembled as I bit it to prevent from crying. Oh god. I'm so dramatic!

"I punched him a-again there.." He looked away which made me go back to my senses. Fuck! Did I heard it wrong?!

"You--w-what?"

He put the fork on his place before wiping his mouth with a table napkin. I didn't know what to feel now. Seriously, it's getting worse day by day.

"It's fine now. I'm fine," He did a face palmed causing me to see his knuckles swelling from of course--punching him.

"Did he say something to you again, huh? He's really too much!" I scowled.

He just chuckled and shook his head. The need to know everything really bothers me.

"You're taking it too much baby. You didn't even asked who started the fight."

I rolled my eyes at that. Why would I still ask If I already know who had the big horn his head.

"I'm sure you did nothing wrong.." I muttered in my panting breath.

"What if I did? Would you still accept me?" He looked so worried while waiting for my answer so I just pinched his fluffy cheeks.

I shrugged.

"It depends on the situation," I smirked before standing up to arranged all the plate that we used.

I offered to wash the dishes but he never let me so I just watched his broad back here by patiently waiting for him to be done.

I bit my lower lip when I remembered that we haven't talked about him being the son of the chairman of CK Group. I don't know if he's ready to talk about it but I think I should ask him now before my thoughts would kill me.

I waited for him to finished wrapping it up and when he's done. I immediately stood up to face him. He's a bit startled when he saw me in front of him so I just did my best to smile at him.

"You seemed like you have a plenty of questions now.." He licked the side of his lips and smile.

My eyes widened. "Was it obvious?"

My thoughts are killing me and I had to ask him now.

He nodded, "You wanna know why I hide it from everyone right?"

And I'm even surprised that he knew what I'm thinking. There's no point of denying it now so I just gave him a nod before looking away.

I don't know but I suddenly felt guilty and I want to scold myself for feeling this. He's the one who hides a very big secret from me and I think I should be that who will be mad at him.

"I want to be free from anyone.." My eyes lift up when I heard the sadness in his voice. "I don't want any pressure.. It's killing me and I just woke up one day, I already wished for my freedom.."

He's very emotional when he said that. But still, I'm amazed because I know how secretive Noah was. He doesn't tell his problems to anyone like me. He doesn't want to bother other people in his problems and he would really face it alone without dragging anyone with it.

I'm still surprised that he went through all of that alone. It's hard to decide on your own especially when there's some people who objects of that.

"But my dad doesn't want it.. I've been his favorite among the two us, so the pressure is on me. I always strike for good to meet his standards. It's such a tough time for me especially that I still had a long way to go.. I want to be free but he suddenly made me a CEO.."

My eyes widened to what he said. So he means..

I swallowed hard when he nodded and smiled bitterly.

"Thank God, my brother doesn't give a damn since he's very understanding and he's not fucking interested in businesses. Should I be thankful of that?" He chuckled bitterly.

I suddenly felt sorry for him.. I can see the sadness in his eyes while telling me everything about it.

"I don't know what to say.." I muttered.

Honestly, I lost my words. I don't know how to comfort him when I know how deep his scars had affect his whole personality.

"You don't have to say anything, baby. I'm telling you this so you won't feel like I was ignoring your feelings. I didn't want you to feel that. I want you to know how important your are to me.. That's the truth."

He smiles while caressing my cheek. I know that he cares for me but it made my heart melt when I personally heard it from him. Honestly, I thought that I'm not that important to him because his feelings for weren't that deep. I know I thought of it in advanced but he just made me feel less important when he told me that he forgot about me..

But everything blew away in his one word..

"So, what happened after that?" I bit my lower lip.

I'm not hoping if he would answer that or not because it's a different case now. We're getting into the main point now.

I will understand if he's still not ready..

He pursed his lips and looked at me in the eyes. I was a bit startled of course, this is the first time that I asked someone for their personal problems. I didn't bother to look for other's problems before because I don't want to be nosy but this is exemptional. I want to know more about his life and I think that's still okay with him.

"He got mad when I gave my resignation letter," He chuckled like it's the most funny thing that he did. "He told me that he won't ever support my needs and I became his disappointment.."

I can see the pain in his eyes when he said those last words. I want to take it out on him but I can't do anything about it.

"That single refusal, I became his..disappointment.." He smiled bitterly bitterly.

I even felt sorry more.. Gosh! Why is this so hard to see him like this?

"After that, he already cut ties with me..my mom can't even do anything so I decided to just leave.. I didn't hide, baby.. I just don't want to bother them anymore.. I already caused my mom pain and disappoint my father with my personal reasons.." He looked away looking guilty.

I know how it feels like you have a burden to bear while carrying another blocks on your other part. It's tiring and stressing.. But I'm still amazed the finally get through with it all by himself.

He should be happy too..

"I'm proud of you.." His eyes widened like he didn't expect me to say it. "You've done enough baby.. And you need to stop being guilty for other people.."

To be continued..