Falling In Love With A Broken Hearted Man

"I'm sorry.." He looked down. "I just wanna help.."

My ears deafening on his words. That reason is invalid for me. I won't accept it, because in the first place I was the one who sacrificed my education just to send them off to school that they want.

It doesn't make sense even if he tells me that he did it to help us. Like what the hell? Am I sacrificing for nothing?

"Raine.." He reached for my hand but I took it away...

"You decided to help us but you're neglecting your studies, is that what you wanted to say now, Drake?" I really felt betrayed about it.

And I just can't accept that my sacrifices was nothing to them.

"I'm not neglecting it. I'm just working part-time so I can still study--"

"But you're not supposed to work on that age! No one will hire you!"

"Working as an assistant on a bakery is enough, Raine!"

"No! It's not!"

"What?" He still manage to be calm.

"You are not going to work there anymore! You will straightly focus on your studies and nothing more,"

"But--"

"No more buts. You'll gonna disobey me now?" I asked.

He closed his eyes. I know he's just suppressing his feelings. My brother will understand me, I'm certain of that.

"Okay," He says and that made my breathe normally.

"Sorry for not telling you.."

"It happened already. Just don't work while I'm working for us, Drake," I swear, I'll provide all of their need just to send them to school until they graduate.

"You're not upset on me right?" I asked.

He shook his head, "I know it's my fault. I shouldn't have tried to do the things that will make you angry in the end.."

This is one of those characters of Drake that I love the most. Despite his coldness, he's a very understanding person. He care about other people's point of view. Though It's still mysterious for me because I can't seem to know what he's thinking after that.

He's quiet most of the time so we're having some difficulties in guessing his thoughts. But it's still okay, 'cause we're used to it now.

"What's happening here?" My mother's voice calls from behind.

Drake and I turn to face her and Dad was on the other side. The're looking at us confused. I know, we need to say it to them. Admit it, Drake.

My eyes locked on their faces and I just can't mutter any words. I wonder if they knew about Drake's work. I'll really get mad it they are.

"Mom, Dad.." I call..

Their reactions are still the same. It is more scary if they already know about it and never mentioned it to me than telling them at this crazy time.

"Do you know that Drake's working?" It's like there's something on my neck that's choking me.

"Work?" Dad asked.

"Yeah,"

"No," Dad answers.

Thank God. I looked at my mom whose now looking at me nervously.

"Mom?"

She nods and looked away. No.

She won't let my brother work at his young age. She would never approve of it.

"You can't let him, right?" I asked in desperation.

My point here is that, he's too young to work and he's supposed to attend school and focus on his studies.

"I'm so sorry, Raine.. I let your brother work," Her voice cracks.

Damn it!

I feel like I was left behind. I feel like I was betrayed by everyone.. I was working so hard and thinking that my brother are studying on a great university. No matter how I want to go back to school, I just can't because I was thinking about them..

I was thinking that if I go back, I couldn't make some money as I make now. But what happened?

My tears fell, "Why?"

I want to shout at them..

"Why do I have to sacrifice if you don't even acknowledge it? Does my income isn't enough for us?"

"No, that's not the reason darling.." She tries to come to me but I stepped back.

"Don't come near me, Mom,"

"Your dad doesn't want to work and I can't go back to my previous work now.. Your dad suggested that Drake will work to help you provide our needs--"

"THAT'S BULLSHIT!"

I was extremely angry!

"YOU SUGGESTED WHAT, HUH?" I looked at my dad. "DAD?"

He's so ungreatful! I despise him the most! I did everything just to make him accept me.. I even quit my school just to fill his responsibilities. I don't want to make my brothers suffer that's why I did my best to give them everything even if it means that nothing's left with me..

He still hits me, I endured that. He called me idiot, I ignored that. He doesn't want to work for us, I accept that.. But making my brothers work just like me, I can't fucking accept that!

He's just a piece of shit in this family. I won't ever hold onto this anymore.. I would let my mom divorce him now. He's pushing us to work for his laziness, then I'll make him realized what kind of daughter he has.

And I can't accept that I'm his daughter.

Fuck!

"I'll work for us. Yes, I'll work for us.." He says on my brothers and to my mother.

I can't help but to laugh sarcastically. "Too late now, dad.. I won't accept you as my family anymore.. And I would never help you get back together with my mom anymore,"

He clenched his fist, go old man. Try to hit me and you'll never see this family anymore..

"HOW DARE YOU! I'M STILL YOUR FATHER!" He shouts.

"I HAVE NO FATHER! IF I HAVE, WHY WOULD I WORK MYSELF AND NOT HIM? FUCK THIS LIFE!"

"THAT'S WHAT YOU GET FOR WORKING ON THAT SHITTY BOSS OF YOURS--"

"DON'T TRY TO SAY THAT TO NOAH, HE'S NOT LIKE YOU!"

What's his problem to Noah? He did nothing wrong to him!

"AND YOU'RE SAVING HIM FROM ME NOW HUH? THAT GUY WILL EVENTUALLY LEAVE YOU SOON AND NOTHING'S GONNA LEFT FOR YOU--"

"WELL I'M NOT A COWARD LIKE YOU!"

HE SLAPPED ME!!!

Oh god! I can't feel my face for that.

"WILL!!" My mother shouts.

"YOU CAN'T EVEN HAVE A NICE LIFE WORKING ON THAT SHITTY SHOP. I BET YOU'LL JUST BECOME LIKE ME IN THE FUTURE!"

"YOUR WISH! I WOULD NEVER BECOME LIKE YOU!"

I don't want to acknowledge him as my father anymore. He's too much.. I don't want to be rude to him but he's reliving my self control. I can't fucking held back anymore..

I've had enough for his unreasonable acts!

"GET OUT OF OUR LIVES, DAD!" I shouted.

"YEAH! WITH THAT RUDENESS OF YOURS, YOU'LL DEFINITELY CRY IN THE FUTURE!"

My two brothers held his two arms and get him out of the room. My heart beat was rapidly fast. I can't even breath normally.

My mother tries to hug me but I immediately put my hand on my front. I want to be alone now.

"Please mom, I want to be alone.." I feel drained now.

She cries and left the room. My tears began to fell down my cheeks. I was extremely hurt. I want to escape from this reality now. I want to forget about this problem. I can't fucking accept that I even have this fucking life.

With the way I watch my friends being with their family happy and content, I can't help but to feel envious.. It's unavoidable for my situation. My family loves me but not my dad.. My family is happy only if I'm not around.. And my dad can't fucking stay away from me, until I'm gone..

Sad but truth. And I want to get out in this painful world.

I wanna run now, but I'm too weak. Too weak to run alone.. I have many reasons to turn my back at everything. But I always choose to stay because of my brothers.

When I moved out, I thought my life will get easier because my father is not around. But it's only the same, he's always around and making me uncomfortable with my friends. He can't even wait to say his painful words on public. He would embarrassed my to everyone until he saw me cry.

My only escape from that day was my friends and work. I forget about my problem when I'm distracted and I'm still thankful for that.. And now, Noah is my shelter, he's my home, and he's my family..

I can't leave him, he's my everything now..

My phone vibrates so I immediately opened it. It was Noah.

I wiped my tears and pressed the button. I hope he won't noticed my voice.

"Hey," His voice is so soft..

"H-hey," I tried to sound normal.

"Are you okay?"

I closed my eyes. His voice is making me cry. I wanna go to him now..

"Yeah.." I bit my lip.

"I'm outside of your house," He said which made me shocked.

"What are you doing here?"

I immediately fixed myself.

"Wanna go out with me?" He asked.

My tears fell. He's here! He's here for me..

"Hell yeah, baby.. I would gladly!" I said then went out to see him.

I never expect this! I never expect him to be here!

When I reached outside. His smile that I love the most melts me. My heart pounds so fast I run towards him. I love this guy and he's here for me..

I would never had any other comfort arms other than him.

I could stay in his arms forever..

To be continued..