Forbidden To Be Tempted

The benefactor will not apologize to the lover.

Thinking of this, Jiang Yu suddenly realized, how could she have the thought of apologizing? Did she do something wrong? The person who clearly crossed the line was the children, and she was just following and maintaining the terms of the agreement. Why should she apologize?

Tian Lin is not wrong, she is indeed a bit abnormal recently, she even has to think about whether she should have such an idea.

Ridiculous.

Jiang Yu was irritated for no reason, put away the keyboard, but her eyes stayed on the kid's profile photo.

"Good baby", with a face like a white steamed bun, wearing a yellow round hat, carrying a small satchel, holding a pink heart with two small paws, soft and cute.

She remembered that when she first added her, the kid's profile picture was a tree.

In the vast expanse of the wilderness, an oak tree stands alone in the center, with the blue sky and white clouds above the head, and the fragrant soil under the feet, which looked calm and peaceful. Later, at some point, she changed her profile picture to a little penguin, and then, now, she became a "good baby".

The style has changed so much, is there any meaning?

Jiang Yu pondered for a moment, and when she came back to her senses, she realized that she was thinking about meaningless things again, and became even more irritable, so she simply threw her phone aside.

She lay down on her back, grabbed a jackrabbit and hugged it in her arms, turned over, and closed her eyes.

Lying like this for a while, sleepiness hit her unknowingly...

In the chaos, her body seemed to keep falling, and at a certain moment, it floated up again, the surroundings were silent, and there was a white fog in front of them, and nothing could be heard or seen.

Another endless dream.

She walked alone in the dark and lengthy corridor, surrounded by thick and endless darkness, oppressive, airtight, no light, no hope, she didn't know where she came from, where she was going, and it seemed that she would never end.

As we walked, many people appeared in front of her, including her mother, grandmother, stepfather, younger brother, teachers and classmates...

Everyone looked at her with vicious eyes.

"Dead loser!"

"Little turtle!"

"Big bear*!"

*big coward

Everyone rushed up to surround her, screaming and cursing one after another. She was terrified, struggling to run forward, running hard, and kept running, but she couldn't escape no matter what.

Help, help...

She yelled silently as she ran.

In a panic, she wanted to grab something, but gradually she felt a soft touch from the palm of her hand, but there was no warmth, and the girl's beautiful and bright face appeared in front of her eyes.

She didn't care much, and hugged the girl tightly, muttering in her mouth: "Help me... save me..."

Then she opened her eyes.

A glaring light fell from the ceiling, Jiang Yu narrowed her eyes, raised her hand to block it, the back of her hand touched the fine beads of sweat on her forehead, her chest heaved violently.

It turned out to be a dream again.

After a while, Jiang Yu sat up, lowered her head and found that she was holding a rabbit doll in her arms, not the girl in her dream. That face disappeared when she woke up from the dream.

She was in a trance, and a faint sense of loss welled up in her heart...

After a while, Jiang Yu let go of the rabbit doll, took a deep breath, got out of bed and poured herself a glass of warm water, took a couple of sips, grabbed her phone and checked the time.

It was half past twelve in the morning.

WeChat still stays on the small interface, and "good baby" lies quietly in the message list.

There is no "good night".

Jiang Yu sat quietly by the bed alone, the soft light from the ceiling shrouded her lonely figure, she held her mobile phone in her hands and was lost in thought, feeling that something was missing and empty in her heart.

After one o'clock in the morning, she felt sleepy again. She finally put down her phone, turned on the night light by the bed to dim it, grabbed a rabbit into the bed, turned off the headlight and lay down.

In the second half of the night, she slept very restlessly.

Drowsy and dreaming again, and then waking up, as soon as she closes her eyes, the dark corridor will rush towards her like a beast, devouring her...

The consequence of a bad night's sleep is waking up in the morning with no energy.

Jiang Yu's work schedule is very regular. She lies down at ten o'clock every night, enters a deep sleep before ten thirty, and wakes up at six thirty in the morning. Occasionally, her biological clock will not be affected if she messes up once or twice due to work needs.

But today it failed.

She woke up groggy, washed up in a daze, ate breakfast in a daze, and didn't feel clearer until after ten o'clock in the morning.

This anomaly made her a little uneasy.

"Sister Yu, why do I feel that your complexion is not very good?" In the afternoon, Tian Lin came over worried. Seeing Jiang Yu's listless expression, her heart sank.

Jiang Yu was sitting on the swing eating a fruit cake. Hearing the sound, she casually said, "I slept a little late yesterday." After speaking, she took a piece of cake and handed it over, "Try this, it's delicious."

"..." Tian Lin looked at her suspiciously, took it, tore open the packaging bag, and took a bite.

The crispy shell is wrapped in a rich and sweet fruity aroma.

She took another bite.

Jiang Yu raised his eyebrows and smiled, "Is it delicious?"

"Mm," Tian Lin nodded seriously, "Where did you buy it?" She suddenly realized, "Eat less, high-sugar and high-oil..."

"The kids' hometown specialty." Jiang Yu slightly froze, as if thinking of something, she glanced at the phone beside her.

The WeChat account is very quiet.

The kid didn't send her "good night" yesterday, and she didn't send "good morning" today.

Although she has never asked the girl to do this, the other party has always taken the initiative, but these days, she has long been used to its existence, and at this moment, it seems that something that originally belonged to her has suddenly disappeared, and she feels a little uncomfortable.

It was hard for her not to think that the kid was just being angry.

Tian Lin saw that she was in a trance, absent-minded, and the guesses she had pressed before came out again, and she couldn't help but probe: "I said, you haven't eaten these things for many years, so it was given by... the kid, ah."

She especially bit down on the sound of the word "kid".

Jiang Yu lowered her face, immersed in her own thoughts, as if talking to herself: "Am I being too nice to her?"

"..."

"Tian Lin."

"Eh."

"What do you think?"

"This..." Tian Lin thought for a while and answered carefully, "If you take those girls in the past as a reference, you treat  Miss Cheng more special now. I don't know how to define good or bad, so you still have to ask  yourself."

"Is it special?" Jiang Yu raised his face, his eyes blank.

She just did what a benefactor should do.

Which one is out of bounds? As a result, she let the kid push her nose to her face* again and again, and now she dares to be angry with her.

*push her luck.

Tian Lin was silent.

No matter how special it is, it is the relationship between a benefactor and the lover. Once you embark on this path, it is difficult to turn back, and you can only keep moving forward. She understood, and so did Jiang Yu.

The afternoon sun shines into the floor-to-ceiling windows, dyeing the carpet a faint warm yellow, very soft, like sparkling champagne. The whole room has a dusty and old sense of seclusion, as if the hustle and bustle under the tall buildings has nothing to do with everything here.

Jiang Yu half-closed her eyes, and her dark eyes were filled with unclear emotions. After a while, she turned her face away and stared at the sky outside the window, "You should pay attention recently to see if there is any suitable girl."

"Do you want to change?" Tian Lin asked in surprise.

"For a spare tire."

"Okay."

"Under the age of twenty-three, with a net height of no more than 1.68 meters, pure appearance, oval face is the best, big and bright eyes, good personality, quiet, good singing, and two foreign languages..." Jiang Yu said  As she spoke, the image of the kid appeared in her mind.

A beautiful and delicate face with a pair of clean deer eyes. When she smiles, there are two small dimples on her face. She is very obedient and soft. The way she calls her sister makes one want to bully her.

"There must be dimples."

"Okay."

Tian Lin remembered everything, and was suddenly taken aback.

Isn't this Miss Cheng?

She looked at Jiang Yu.

Jiang Yu tilted her head against the swing, rubbed her temple with her index finger, and closed her eyes at some point.

On the last day of the holiday, students returned to school one after another, and the originally empty campus became lively again.

The cafeteria in the evening was several times more crowded than usual on weekends.

After eating, Cheng Suran came out of the cafeteria with a canvas bag on her back. It was already dark, and she checked WeChat while walking outside the school gate. She received a message from the driver sister three minutes ago and waited for her at the old place.

After autumn, the temperature difference between day and night is large, and she wears less clothes when she goes out, and the night wind is blowing on her body at this moment, is a bit cool.

Just as she was about to put away her phone, there was a sudden notification.

"!"

Cheng Suran was shocked, and quickly unlocked it again, and clicked on WeChat, but what she saw was not the gray and black profile picture she expected, but a news feed.

She was instantly discouraged.

All day...

She spent the whole day in the library, and WeChat was also quiet all day.

From last night to now, she clicked on the chat box marked as "sister" countless times, looked at the familiar gray and black profile picture, wanted to say something, but held back again and again.

She was afraid that her sister's anger would still linger, and she would become even angrier when she sees a message from her, and then terminate the contract in a fit of anger.

She can't bear such consequences.

Certainly…

There is also selfishness.

After going back last night, she cried bitterly, her grievances clouded her mind like a dark cloud, and she didn't want to put a hot face on a cold butt*, as if she was competing.

*coax/compliment but be ignored/treated coldly

She didn't know what she was expecting either.

Does she want sister to take the initiative to coax her?

Impossible.

Walking past one street lamp after another, her shadow stretched by the cold white light, she deleted the news feed, put away her mobile phone, and walked towards the school gate at a faster pace.

After getting into the car, Cheng Suran couldn't help but take out her phone and looked at it over and over again.

She felt like she was gambling.

Just wait a little longer. If sister wants to go back to the hotel tonight, she will definitely send her a message. If she hasn't received the message before ten o'clock, she will apologize. It's been a whole day, and the anger should have subsided right? She comforted herself in this way.

With such thoughts in mind, Cheng Suran felt relieved.

When she arrived at the hotel, she rushed into the bathroom in a hurry, consciously washed herself clean, then sat on the sofa with her mobile phone in her hand and waited, and waited, and waited...

Half past ten.

There was no movement on WeChat.

Cheng Suran yawned, knowing that Jiang Yu would not be coming tonight, so she obediently sent a message:

[Sister, sorry for yesterday.]

[I promise there will be no next time.]

[Good night.]

After sendy, she waited for a while until the time showed exactly eleven o'clock, and then she was sure that Jiang Yu really wouldn't talk to her, she put away her phone in frustration, got up and went back to her room to sleep.

The night was dark, and the whole city fell into a deep sleep.

"Help, help..."

The person in the dream uttered ravings, she opened her eyes suddenly, and saw a dim yellow light.

Jiang Yu woke up from the nightmare again.

She lay on the bed, short of breath, and her chest heaved violently. After a while, she slowly sat up and turned on the light.

The bedroom lit up instantly.

The light was a bit dazzling, Jiang Yu turned her head, her long hair that fell down blocked the light, she curled up, panting tiredly, for a long time, she grabbed her phone to check the time.

One o'clock.

There are three unread messages on the screen.

Jiang Yu's consciousness was a little confused, and she couldn't tell whether it was the main or a small account, so she clicked in and looked, and it was a message from the kid.

"..."

She stared at the screen, the girl's face overlapping the dream.

Kid…

Surrounded by silence, she could clearly hear her own heartbeat, from fast to slow, and gradually calmed down.

Jiang Yu wiped the cold sweat off her brow, grabbed her phone and got out of bed, casually put on a long coat, picked up her bag, and hurried out the door.

….

A white sports car speeds down the empty road.

About twenty minutes later, she arrived at the hotel and went up to the twenty-seventh floor. Jiang Yu opened the platinum door, and a faint light leaked out. She walked straight to the second bedroom, and pushed the door open like a gust of wind.

The room was dark.

With the dim light in the living room, the outline of the arch on the bed can be vaguely seen.

Jiang Yu was stunned for two seconds, walked over lightly, put down her bag, took off her coat, lifted the quilt and got in.

The blanket was warm, and a sweet milky scent wafted into her nostrils. She took a deep breath, hugged the girl's soft body, buried her face in her hair, and finally felt relieved.

"Huh--"

The person in her arms moved.

Cheng Suran opened her eyes in a daze, feeling something was wrong, her mind went blank for a few seconds, and suddenly found that there was someone beside her at some point, and she became frightened out of her wits.

"Ah!!!"

She kicked it.

——Boom!

Before Jiang Yu could react, she fell off the bed heavily.