Great Creator

　　 Huang Si persisted for a while, and finally finished learning all about integrated circuits.

　　 It was already December at this time, and Huang Si could feel that his spirit was deteriorating day by day.

Before 　　, he could at least find some fun for himself, and he could do all kinds of things in rotation, and he was not tired for the time being.

　　 But, as time goes by, this kind of fun becomes less and less.

　　 Huang Si can't do anything about it now, nothing is interesting.

　　 What's more terrifying is that he gradually started to think too much.

　　 It’s December, and it’s been almost half a year since I came here.

　　 Parents don’t know if they are looking for him, maybe the house and him disappear suddenly, so that the parents can know that this is a supernatural event, so they don’t worry and search so much.

　　 Several old friends don’t know what they are doing. Speaking of a buddy who is about to get married, he also prepared a gift to send it over. It's probably over now, right?

　　 Huang Si missed all of them very much.

　　 And in this house, there is only despair. Even if Huang Si plans his life as much as possible, even if he is always looking for various things to dispel his mood, even if his soul has become stronger, none of this can change a fact.

　　 That is, he has been alone in a house for more than half a year and cannot leave, and he has to endure the mental pressure of a strange environment. He can only eat exactly the same food with no nutrition every day, and nutritional supplements rely on vitamin tablets.

　　 Huang Si is just an ordinary person, an ordinary person who will go home immediately after get off work, read books, watch movies, and play games. Not a hero, nor a great man.

　　 has been able to support until now, it has not been easy.

　　 Huang Si truly feels every day that his physical and mental condition is gradually getting worse, maybe the progress is very slow, but in this confined space, this must be an irreparable thing.

　　 And going home, there is still no hope.

　　 Sometimes he doesn't even know what he is insisting on. It becomes a problem even to live naturally when he just crossed over. He had to create air for himself to keep himself from dying.

now what? Continue to create various life resources for yourself like a machine every day, and then survive? Do you watch yourself weaken day by day?

　　 He didn't dare to think about the future, maybe one day in the future, when he can no longer hold on, he will die here silently.

　　 "Oh..." Huang Si supported the wall of the bathroom and vomited.

　　 Today, he can't eat any more food. A few pieces of artificial meat were just imported, and the creamy taste suddenly made him feel nauseous, and he couldn't help but vomit.

　　 Huang Si looked at the food he was vomiting, and was dazed for a while, then silently poured the rest of the food into the bathroom and flushed it away.

　　 "Am I depressed?" Huang thought.

　　 He glanced at the date on the phone.

　　 "December 31, ah, it's almost 2020."

　　 Huang Si moved slowly, came to the computer, and then began to search for depression.

　　 After looking up all the information he could find, Huang Si sat on the bed alone and thought for a long time.

　　 Then, he finally said something:

　　 "I want to go home."

　　 After speaking, Huang Si came to the living room.

　　 He took the book of creation that glowed day and night from the cabinet, and stroked its soft cover.

　　 "I beg you from now on, if I really am about to collapse, please help me."

　　 "At that time, please restore all my body and memory to when I first came here. Please."

　　 Huang Si didn't care whether the creation of the book listened to these words, he took a deep breath, as if he had made up his mind, took out a pen and paper, and wrote a note.

　　 "I at this moment: If you can't hold on at all, or are about to die, please connect to the book of creation and perform the function of ‘making yourself in reality’."

　　 "If you see this note for the first time, congratulations, you have been filed back. Please go to the study room and read all the notes from number 01 to number 10 in the top row."

　　 Huang Si copied many of these two papers and pasted them all over the room.

　　 This is the last support he left for himself.

　　 If he still can't find a way back until he is insane or physically dead, then remind himself, read the record, cover the present, and return to the self who just came to this place not long ago.

　　 He is willing to give up all the memories from the beginning to the present, in exchange for being able to continue living in this hopeless world.

　　 Even if he continues to be hopeless, even if he reincarnates a hundred times, he still wants to pursue that little bit of faith.

　　 He wants to go home.

　　 From that day on, Huang Si never paid attention to depression anymore.

　　 If you have depression, then accept it, and then let it go. If you are in a bad mood, then study how to continue to study and complete your work when you are in a bad mood.

　　 Every day, Huang Si still insists on cooking, exercising, going to bed and getting up early.

　　 There is no smile on his face even when he is doing anything.

　　 Time passed day by day, and notebooks No. 11 and No. 12 were added to Huang Si's bookshelf.

　　 The physical and mental discomfort repeatedly tortured him. In order to get rid of this discomfort, Huang Si completely devoted himself to work.

　　 If he is studying integrated circuits, he will try to hypnotize himself and stop thinking about anything other than integrated circuits.

　　 If he is debugging AI, he will immerse himself in making the AI ​​more perfect all day long, and he simply ignores other things.

　　 This is the way he has learned from the information to fight depression, that is, to shift emotions, let oneself indulge in something, so as to forget the pain and troubles.

　　 By the time of February 2020, Huang Si's spirit was already vulnerable to a single blow. No matter what he did, he couldn't last long, and his spirit was seriously depressed.

　　 But, even so, he did not stop the pace of research and development.

　　 As long as the mental state is a little better, Huang Si immediately continues to sit in front of the computer and continue to study mechanical automation.

　　 He will not deal with it until he feels hungry, or thirsty, or anxious.

　　 Depression can be terrible, and sometimes it makes people feel so painful that they want to commit suicide.

　　Every time he encounters this situation, Huang Si always sits on the bed silently, waiting for this state to pass, and then continues, what should I do.

　　He is like a traveler walking in a swamp.

　　 Depression and physical discomfort hung on his feet like heavy mud, making him almost unable to move forward.

　　 However, he continued to walk forward in the swamp, even if he was about to sink.

　　 Anyway, Huang Si and his notes filled the house. As long as he feels that his mental or physical condition has crossed the bottom line of collapse, he will reset himself without hesitation.

　　 And before crossing the bottom line, anything will do.

　　In this terrible life, Huang Si's consciousness and soul are under tremendous pressure.

　　 Under pressure, the strength of the soul is gradually increasing.

　　 One day, Huang Si saw the golden-green light appear again, and he leveled up again. In the creation book, below his name, the level has become the "bloom" level, and he has also accepted the fragment of "bloom".

　　 When the soul is upgraded, the fragments given to him by the creation book make his soul essence improve again, which also makes him more capable of resisting mental pressure.

　　 Regarding this, Huang Si just nodded with a faint joy in his heart, and continued to work.

　　 Later, he accidentally discovered that a line of explanatory text appeared in the fragment distribution record of the creation book:

　　 "Record 4: Failed to retrieve the next fragment."

　　 "Record 5: Checking the status of all fragments is completed, the current number of missing fragments: 5, the number of issued fragments: 2, the number of remaining fragments: 0."

　　 finished? The fragments that should be there are gone?

　　 Huang Si only sighed slightly when he saw this, then closed the book of creation, and did not care about it anymore.

　　 Now, this little thing can't shake him at all.

　　 The improvement of Huang Si by the "blooming" fragment only made him hold on for more than a month.

　　 The mental pressure gradually increases over time.

　　As of April 2020, Huang Si's spirit has reached the critical point of collapse, and if he adds a little more, he will fall into a real mental disorder.

　　 He would look up at the note from time to time every day to make sure that he could get the creation book as soon as possible before he got confused, and then put him back on file.

　　 However, Huang Si said silently in his heart: "Wait a little longer, wait a little longer, my design drawing is not finished yet."

　　 If a psychologist in reality sees Huang Si, he will marvel that this is absolutely impossible. This person is simply a miracle in psychology.

　　Because no one can develop and study with such high intensity when the mental breakdown is approaching. UU reading www.uukanshu.com

　　 But Huang Si did it.

　　 Every time he thinks he is going crazy, he glances at the note, then lowers his head and mutters to himself: "Give me a little more time, just a little bit, this is almost done."

　　 Huang Si's expression became more and more distorted, and his body twitched from time to time. This was a sign that he was about to collapse completely.

　　...

　　 In this case, he survived another two days.

　　 Just when that moment was approaching, Huang Si's face became calm for some unknown reason.

　　 He has completely forgotten the pain, the troubles, and who he is, even the incident of going home.

　　 There is only one thing in his mind, and that is how to design the circuit so that the processor will not be burned out by overheating!

　　 The processor continued to overheat and burn in his hand. Huang Si took the spent processor and threw it to the side window without hesitation.

　　 Suddenly, there was no wind in the window, and a gap was opened just to accommodate the waste of the processor.

　　 The processor brushed through the gap and fell into the darkness outside.

　　 And all this, Huang Si didn't notice. His attention was completely occupied by this **** insoluble processor. He just subconsciously moved the window and opened the window to throw away the waste.

　　 Huang Si didn't notice that his spirit suddenly became more relaxed, he just continued to think about the processor.

　　 In the process, he himself did not notice that his soul strength was rising rapidly.

　　 One after another processor was scrapped in his hands, and then a new one was produced.

　　 In the end, he even forgot to sleep and eat, and his physical and mental exhaustion could no longer interfere with him.