He Lived Like You

    The familiar handwriting made Jiang Huan subconsciously hold his breath, and he turned over the back of the card extremely stiffly.

    'Jiang Huan, happy birthday, we will meet again soon. ’

    'Shen Shanwu'

    Shen Shanwu

    Shen Shanwu

    Shen Shanwu

    Shen Shanwu

    Shen ShanwuShen Shanwu

    Shen Shan Wu Shen Shan Wu Shen Shan Wu Shen Shan Wu Shen Shan Wu Shen Shan Wu Shen Shan Wu…

    Jiang Huan's eyes were fixed on the name, and he traced it over and over again, and sketched it over and over again. Until he didn't know these three words, until he was suffocated by hypoxia because he forgot to breathe for a long time.

    He propped up the bedside table with one hand, panting like a fish out of water. Jiang Huan felt as if he was really drunk, and the sky was spinning in the fog, perhaps because of a cup of turbid rice wine, or perhaps because of the name that burned his heart.

    Is it true? Jiang Huan didn't even dare to believe it easily. He had fantasized about this scene countless times and dreamed about it countless times. pain.

    Others do not know the existence of Shen Shanwu, and those who know do not dare or make such a joke with him. This year is not his special age. If Shen Shanwu asked other mutants to give him birthday gifts before he died, then he shouldn't suddenly appear this year after so many years.

    Critically, the card said 'We will meet again soon. ’

    If Shen Shanwu hadn't personally sent him the eternal flower, why would he need to add such a sentence?

    Jiang Huan used all kinds of reasons to analyze and try to believe that Shen Shanwu was still alive, but as long as he didn't see Shen Shanwu with his own eyes, he would never let go of his heart.

    When she just learned of Shen Shanwu's death, Jiang Huan always imagined that maybe the next second Gong Wei would knock on his door in surprise, telling him that Shen Shanwu was still alive.

    On his birthday that year, he pushed everything aside and came to the basement where Shen Shanwu had been waiting for him for a day and a night, and also sat for a day and a night.

    When he finally couldn't hold back his tiredness, before his consciousness disappeared, Jiang Huan wondered if he would wake up this time and be carried to the bed by Shen Shanwu as he had done countless times before. Well, while the other party was lying beside him wickedly pretending to be asleep, he was waiting to open his eyes suddenly to startle him.

    He was hungry, thirsty and tired, and really couldn't hold on. Shen Shanwu, you have always been soft-hearted, why did you insist on not showing up this time?

    I don't know how long it took, Jiang Huan woke up from the freezing cold, he opened his dry eyes, and in front of him was the empty basement, he was still sitting alone on a chair, his body had been damaged for a long time The same position was extremely stiff, and the shoulders and thighs were numb and painful.

    Suddenly, there was a sound from the door, Jiang Huan stood up nervously and expectantly, but Lu Jingzhi looked at him with concern and concern.

    Since that day, Jiang Huan has worn Shen Shanwu's nameplate around his neck and hid it in his collar, just like his extravagant hopes and fantasies, and has kept his mouth shut since then.

      Crying, or, at least, smiling, the guy was as motionless as a sculpture, except for a short breath at the beginning.

    Shen Shanwu thought that Jiang Huan was going to sit at the head of the bed all night, and the other party finally made a move. Jiang Huan solemnly picked up the eternal flower and locked it into the desk into the bottom drawer, and tucked the card into the protective ID bag he always carried with him.

    After doing this series of things, Jiang Huan noticed the cake and thermos on the table, Shen Shanwu quietly pricked up his ears, heard Jiang Huan open the cake carton, and then the sound of chewing , I heard him unscrew the lid of the pot again, and the teaspoon turned around in the soup, but in the end, it was still tightly closed without touching it.

     Chicken soup tomorrow morning! Shen Shanwu secretly rejoiced without conscience.

    The gift was sent out, and the information was passed on to Jiang Huan, Shen Shanwu was finally able to let go of the heart that hung him all night, and could sleep comfortably. It's a pity that Jiang Huan has grown up completely. He no longer loves to cry and laugh like he did when he was a child, and his emotions are restrained and rarely exposed.

    But Jiang Huan was obviously not sleepy, he turned around the bed twice, not knowing what to think, suddenly stepped forward and whispered to Jiang Tong, Shen Shanwu felt that he was like this The volume was simply not enough to wake the 'sleeping' child, so he didn't move.

    Jiang Huan fell silent again after shouting. After a while, he hurriedly opened the door again, but after standing at the door for a while, he sighed again, closed the door and returned to the bed.

    Shen Shanwu: "..." Brother, can you sleep? Are all drunkards as excited as you are?

    He felt that Jiang Huan tucked the quilt for him, trimmed his hair, and after a long time, scratched the tip of his nose with his fingertips.

    Not finished yet? !

    Shen Shanwu frowned, turned his back to Jiang Huan, and did not want to be molested by him again. Jiang Huan really didn't get so mad that he fiddled with Jiang Tong back to tease him again. He stood by the bed for a while, and suddenly remembered that he hadn't showered yet. After a rustling sound of rummaging through clothes, there was the sound of water in the bathroom.

    Shen Shanwu breathed a sigh of relief, it was peaceful.

    In order to save water resources, most people choose to scrub to clean their bodies.

    In five minutes, Jiang Huan finished bathing, Shen Shanwu lay on the bed bored, waiting for him to come over with steam, but after waiting for a long time, he didn't hear any movement from the bathroom.

    What's wrong? Shen Shanwu turned his body back again in a daze, thinking about whether to pretend to want to go to the toilet and go into the bathroom to take a look, but Jiang Huan was so drunk that he fell asleep naked in the bathroom.

    At this moment, Shen Shanwu suddenly heard a murmur, hoarse and husky, coming from a distance in the bathroom, carrying krypton **** and silt beyond words, as if trying his best want to say something.

    "Brother..."

    Huh? Shen Shanwu couldn't help opening half of his eyes, and rolled his eyes curiously, but just as he was about to prop up his head and look through the gap in the bathroom door that could never be closed, another hoarse male call came, accompanied by There was another strange, sticky sound following his name.

    Shen Shanwu is a 31-year-old adult male. Although his drowsiness index plummeted after the mutation, he still recognized the regular noise in the bathroom for the first time. What is it caused by.

    "Shenshanwu..."

      Wu took everything into his mind exactly.

    As the matter was about to come to an end, Jiang Huan speeded up, and the calls in his mouth were also full of tricks, brother, brother, brother Shanwu, Shanwu, Shen Shanwu... none of them Don't roll over from the tip of his hot tongue, and then iron it in Shen Shanwu's heart.

    Shen Shanwu lay rigidly on the bed, his pupils shrunk to the limit, all the meanings were too obvious, and he couldn't deceive himself to find a second explanation.

    Jiang Huan read his name and did that kind of thing. Throughout the ages, there has been only one emotion that allows a person to call out another person's name in this situation.

    Impossible. Shen Shanwu was so shocked that he almost couldn't control his fangs, and when his tongue was cut and the smell of blood filled his mouth, he regained some sense.

    Jiang Huan...like him?

    Jiang Huan's affection for him is not a simple brotherhood... but a ** love?

    Shen Shanwu quickly recalled the past moments of the two of them. Jiang Huan has always been very dependent on him, and their physical contact has always been frequent and intimate. Shen Shanwu dares to say that he has always In the end, there is absolutely no other charming thoughts, and Jiang Huan...

    No wonder he always sleeps with his arms around him! No wonder that after being tortured by bone pain a few times and passed out, his lips were wet when he woke up. Jiang Huan explained that he had given him water when he saw his lips were dry and peeled. What kind of water would he need to feed a mutant?

    No, Jiang Huan was only fifteen years old at that time, did he already think that way?

    Am I being nice to him? I wasn't nice to him at all back then? How did he like me? How did he awaken his sexuality? Why does he like me? What did I do to make him like me?

    Shen Shanwu's heart trembled uncontrollably, and he had no sleepiness.

    If he insists on recalling his experiences, Shen Shanwu can only think of one past event. For Jiang Huan, it is definitely not a good memory.

    In the past, Jiang Huan was frail and afraid of hardships. The key was to be innocent and indifferent. When he was obedient, he was fine.

    Shen Shanwu admires Jiang Huan's mother very much at times like this, and has to admit that this great woman is much more powerful than him, at least Shen Shanwu has no ability to make his child third in the end of the world Years later, I still think about dark chocolate cranberry cookies.

    Once, Shen Shanwu worked in a small human shelter that looked like a bad place for Jiang Huan's food for the next three days.

      Tong, if it's true that yin/light shines, all the young and the old will take it all, and I won't let one go.

    Shen Shanwu noticed at a glance that this old /yin/stick had the kind of thoughts on Jiang Huan. This shit, get the food without causing trouble and leave.

    The task assigned to him is to perform under the scorching sun at noon. Generally, the harder the conditions, the more attractive the reward. Huan, ask him to go out in the sun with himself.

    But at this moment, the little boss rubbed his hands thiefly, and said with a calm face that the child can't be busy anyway, and the sun is so hot outside, I'm afraid it will heat the child It's bad, let's do it, he kindly let this doll sit in his office for an afternoon, and was willing to provide sweet water to drink.

    Jiang Huan's ears softened all of a sudden, he looked at the hot summer day outside, and saw the water with sugar in the hands of the little boss, tired and greedy, so pitifully begged Shen Shanwu asked him to stay here.

    Shen Shanwu couldn't believe his ears, this old man really wanted to hang a big-character poster on the wall, Jiang Huan could still say such a thing.

    "Follow me." At that time, he was full of anger, and could not help but try to figure out others with the greatest malice. He even thought uglyly whether Jiang Huan did it on purpose. He actually knew everything, but he made up his mind to use his body to exchange his comfort for the afternoon.

    "Brother... I'm really tired, I don't want to move, it's so hot outside..."

    Shen Shanwu was silent for a moment and said okay.

    Shen Shanwu followed the foreman outside the door who took him to the workplace for two steps, and suddenly stopped at a turning corner. The foreman noticed his stop and urged him unhappily He came quickly, everyone else was waiting for you, while Shen Shanwu stopped in place, counting the numbers silently in his heart.

    In a few seconds, Jiang Huan's terrified cry came from not far away.

    The subcontractor was stunned for a moment, the expression on his face was disgusting for the little boss, but more of a satire of Shen Shanwu. He wasn't doing well, but when he saw that others were worse than him, he felt very comfortable.

    "You found out? You didn't find out before the door was locked. It's useless to find out now." The guy used this trick to deceive a lot of people, but it's not just your idiot brother, don't go over and shout at the door, I tell you, the more you call this pervert, the more excited he gets..."

    Before he finished speaking, Shen Shanwu opened his eyes, turned back to the office, kicked the door directly, and kicked the anti-theft door with a thickness of decimeters to create a big hole , the foreman instantly softened his legs and collapsed to the ground like a loach.

    Shen Shanwu kicked again without looking back, and the security door suddenly collapsed with countless screws and patches, and flew directly out for half a meter, and then fell to the ground with a bang, even inlaid with The cement wall tiles around the door were broken and collapsed a lot.

    He was like a killing god, full of evil spirits, and silently walked into the door. The sugar water in the door was spilled on the ground, the tables and chairs were tilted, Jiang Huan was full of tears, and he was holding a dagger that Shen Shanwu had given him before. The rest of the place is fine.

    The little boss didn't have time to fasten the zipper of his trousers, he was shaking and holding the corner of the wall, as if he wanted to call someone, but couldn't say a word, Shen Shanwu took off his sunglasses, He did not shy away from his pair of black and red zombie pupils.

    The smell of excrement and urine filled the room immediately, and the man became incontinent. Shen Shanwu was too lazy to talk nonsense to this person who was wasting air when he was alive. He took the dagger from Jiang Huan's hand, killed the perverted life with one knife, and then put the blood-stained dagger back into Jiang Huan's hand. He went back into the room and rummaged around. With his excellent sense of smell, he found a lot of hidden food for him, enough for Jiang Huan to eat for half a month.

    Shen Shanwu's commotion was too great, and soon a group of people gathered outside the door. Under Wu's sharp black nails and pupil color, he was terrified and did not dare to take a half step forward.

    Jiang Huan burst into tears, just like a small water faucet, shivering while wiping the blood on the dagger, Shen Shanwu completely ignored the people outside the door, only He yelled at Jiang Huan with a headache and told him to shut up.

    "I asked you to come with me, how dare you not obey... Will you dare not follow me next time?"

    "..." Jiang Huan cried again, "I don't dare... Brother, I will follow you wherever you go!"

    Jiang Huan really fulfilled this sentence very well. For a long time, he was almost inseparable from Shen Shanwu, even when he went to the toilet.

    After a while, Shen Shanwu was also afraid that the child would really leave a psychological shadow, so he took the initiative to chat with him about this, and wanted to enlighten him.

    Jiang Huan's mentality is still strong, he quickly relaxed in the conversation, and curiously nestled in Shen Shanwu's arms and asked: "But I'm a boy, I'm not a girl, there is no such place. , the pervert is clearly a man, why would he miss that me?"

    "In this world, men will not only like women, but also men, and women will also do the same. This is called homosexuality. Your parents are heterosexual. In addition, there are bisexuals. I like men and I like women.”

    "Gay." Jiang Huan repeated in surprise, "I haven't read it in books."

    "You read too little."

    Jiang Huan nodded, "It would be great if there was no such thing as the end of the world. I only looked at a small cabinet of books at home..."

    After a while, Jiang Huan asked again, "Brother, are you heterosexual, gay, or bisexual?"

    Shen Shanwu paused and told the truth, "I'm gay, I like men."

    "!!" Jiang Huan immediately brightened his eyes as if he had discovered a new world, "Then do you like me?"

    Shen Shanwu: "…"

    Shen Shanwu: "Like a man doesn't mean he likes a man."

    "Who do you like, brother? You have a girl... No, do you have a boyfriend?"

    "Had."

    "Who is he? Where is he?"

    "Dead."

    "...how miserable."

    "No, I'm glad."

    “…”

    The author has something to say:  Let’s be honest, after reading these rare words, no matter how ambiguous the atmosphere is, it becomes academic. Thank you to the little angel who voted for me or irrigated nutrient solution during 2020-09-0501:29:16~2020-09-0601:59:00~

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