Heartburn

"Your Majesty, the spies are here to report, this time... I failed again." Before the palace servants who served tea were retired, Lu Yun, the commander of the Weiyuan Army, said anxiously, his annoyance was not concealed-this recklessness Woman, if she doesn't get rid of this irritable temper, how can I rest assured to entrust the important task?

...It's really a piece of dead wood.

"Huh?" I stopped the Zhu Bi who was editing the chapter, smiled and raised my eyes, looking at her indifferently, but I was relieved in my heart. There was a sense of loss, but Tai Ban was thankful that she was safe and sound--but I didn't dare to think about it. Teach anyone to know, even I have to hide it from myself.

I am the emperor, the supreme one in this world.

I can only have all the people in my heart, and I can't fall in love with one person alone, let alone be merciful to her and break big plans.

Besides, that person is not only the same as me, but a woman, she is also my half-sister...sister.

"If you count this group, you have lost nearly a hundred people, right?" The question was my other confidant. The secretary and the supervisor were thinking again; compared to her colleague Lu Yun, she was more calm, and there were quite a few people. The city mansion is something you can rely on.

"It's not far away." Lu Yun frowned, and the cow drank a large cup of Biluochun. He knocked the tea cup on the case "bang", and said gruffly, "But the spies also said, they and their party Dead to death, scattered and scattered, there are only seven or eight guards who are with that person. I will send another group of dead men to rush Minger. I don't believe I can't take them down!"

"No need." I didn't care about Yuqian's guilt of impropriety with her. I just grabbed the disgust in my eyes, raised the pen and approved the word "read", as if to say casually.

"Your Majesty!" She looked at me in astonishment, her expression unwilling, "As long as we give the humble post one more chance, the humble post must..."

"I said - no, it must," I saw the same expression on Fang Yousi's face, but I didn't know it. The cold voice interrupted Lu Yun's persistent persistence, "From now on. No one is allowed to move her without my permission."

"Your Majesty..." Lu Yun wanted to persuade him again, but Fang Yousi grabbed his official robe and shook his head at her.

——Oh, she winks.

I smiled soothingly at the two of them: "Get out."

"Yes." Seeing that Lu Yun was still a little sad, Fang Yousi reluctantly grabbed her by the collar and dragged her away, but it made me laugh, and the innocence towards her also faded a bit.

After they left, I put the Zhubi down, leaned back on the back of the chair, rubbed the top of the sore nose, and sighed silently.

When thinking of seeing her farewell, her stubborn and lost eyes made me feel sour, and I couldn't help but think back to the past.

Different from her dignified status as the maternal daughter of the palace, my father was supported by ordinary court servants; and few people know that before entering the palace, father was once a famous young chivalry in the world. His martial arts were mediocre. The ability to poison is superb.

When he went to a martial arts festival that year, he ran into the noble lady in a white suit of fish and dragon. At that time, she was the mother of the elder daughter. She fell in love at first sight and refused to marry him.

For her, he did not hesitate to buy the housekeeper in the palace, and after many twists and turns, he went into the palace and worked as an ordinary palace attendant, hoping to take another look at the mother emperor.

After that, I followed the opportunity to fascinate the mother emperor, and it was a good thing to give birth to me.

So, he became a noble monarch as he wished.

At first, the mother emperor didn't pay attention to him, and he didn't care about it. He always firmly believed that he would move the other side. Even if the mother emperor married the emperor's husband, he was not discouraged.

But one day, he came back angrily. After closing the door, he smashed his favorite set of head noodles and a set of tea sets. They were rewarded by the mother emperor. On weekdays, the baby had to be like something. He smashed it without hesitation, showing that he was really angry.

After holding back all the attendants, he didn't explain, he just hugged me and cried.

I have never seen my father behave like this. Even when the imperial husband gave birth to a daughter, he was alone in tears and sadness silently.

Vaguely aware of the problem, I kept asking, and he slowly said to me: "Qing'er, I only know how stupid I am today! I love your mother, and I do my best to commit myself to her. , I thought that I got what I wanted, but I never thought that everyone in this harem was a blindfold that she used to protect that person. Everything I did was meaningless. The only people she loved from the beginning to the end were the royal husband’s relatives. General Sikongxiu! It's a woman, a woman! I'm not reconciled! I'm not reconciled!"

I was surprised at the truth of what he said, and I was more worried about his body; the hideous color on his face made people feel uneasy, as if something crazy was brewing.

In the panic, I had no choice but to try my best to comfort him.

After calming down, he said three things to me:

I gave your mother emperor medicine.

You have to sit in that position.

Never fall in love with a woman.

At that time, I was only a year old, so naturally I didn't understand my father's obsession and sudden change, but only agreed with his promise, but I didn't approve of everything he said in my heart.

Until that day, I watched him deliver the medicated cakes to the banquet, and offered them to everyone without changing his face. I also tasted a large piece of it myself, but I was not allowed to touch it.

The dim sum is said to be a folk craftsmanship, added with nourishing and nourishing medicinal materials, it is very precious.

The mother emperor liked it very much, and father often sent snacks in person; and for the godmother to let go of suspicion, he would accompany him to eat most of it every time...as time passed, he collapsed first.

I persuaded him to ignore it, but on the other hand, with a gloomy expression on my face, I couldn't disclose the matter; on the other hand, he hugged me and cried, forcing me to swear that I would never follow the footsteps of the mother queen.

I had to hug him softly, but my heart became cold and hard.

After half a year, he went, and before he died, he stubbornly held my hand, and when I nodded solemnly, he let go.

After that, I carried the heavy burden left by him on my shoulders, learned to be cautious, learned to pretend, but I could no longer find a reason to be happy.

After my father left, the mother emperor took me by my side and raised me with her, who lost her father in childhood; since then, I went in and out, ate and slept together, almost inseparable.

She is like a little tail, always following me, unable to get rid of it; always running around with short legs, "sister" long and "sister" screaming shortly, noisy and troublesome; but her voice is so Luanuo, with a sweet smile, showing a row of small white teeth like grains of rice, holding my arm swaying, so well-behaved... Why do you hate it?

I find that my feelings for her are closer than I don't hate it.

It's strange to say that she is a tyrannical person who doesn't care about anyone except the mother, but she is not afraid of the sky, but if she doesn't see me for half an hour, she will cry loudly, and will not listen to anyone's advice.

There was no way, I had to take her by my side and stay with me easily.

But no one knows, if I haven't seen her for so long, I will be so flustered and helpless, as if the sky is about to fall.

She loves to cling to me, rely on me, why am I not like this?

Just quietly converging this mind, never taught people to see the clues.

And my contradictory and tangled attitude towards her began when I was ten years old when the mother emperor made a word unintentionally.

She said: "Han'er, all the people in the world will be your people from now on, you treat them like the mother, you know?"

I still remember the silly child’s answer. She pouted, half-doubt, half-coquettishly: “Why! Han'er shouldn’t be nice to irrelevant people! Han'er will only treat the mother and the emperor in this life. Well, no one else can match it!"

The mother emperor laughed helplessly and spoiled, but my heart sank-listening to this, the mother emperor's heart's reserve was afraid that it would be passed on to her.

I don’t understand—regardless of my intellectual talent and temperament, I am far more confident than her. Why does the mother prefer her to be the prince?

Is it just for the identity of the imperial concubine?

Or...because she is the niece of the mother's beloved one.

My father's face of paranoia and despair appeared uncontrollably before his death.

On the second day, I quietly recruited my father’s most trusted palace attendant during his lifetime, and ordered him to continue the task of prescribing medicine; because this prescription is really rare, and the amount of medicine administered is extremely well controlled, even the imperial physician who diagnoses the Ping-Ping pulse Be kept in the dark, know nothing.

As the days passed, the mother emperor gradually lingered on the sick bed, and her body became weaker... I was afraid that she was too young to survive, so I softly ordered the palace attendant to stop the medicine.

Anyway, just make the appearance that she is weak and unsuitable for storage, and it is not really going to hurt her.

At the age of seventeen, the mother emperor finally couldn't make it through, and she passed away; I hurried ahead of everyone, dropped her will, and secretly executed a group of elderly people around her, and planted them in the palace. To his confidant.

She did not realize that she had missed the throne of the supreme under heaven, but she was sobbing in my arms, mourning the departure of the mother emperor, like a wounded little beast, seeking comfort from the only warmth—I have in my heart Ashamed, but I really like the feeling of being relied on by her.

It's as if I am the only one here.

She never concealed her emotions, and I also knew that her feelings for me were not simple sisterhood; I was happy in my heart, but I couldn't accept it, let alone show a half-shake--but I also couldn't bear to refuse.

I chose to be ambiguous, if it is to be away, withdraw and leave when she gets too close; and be gentle and considerate when she is frustrated.

Seeing her getting more mad and gloomy day by day, my heart hurts so much, and there is a trace of pain to the extreme pleasure in Piansheng-at least I and her have an inextricable bond, even if they are torturing each other, what I care about most is each other. .

I finally sat on the throne as I wished, but what I did not expect was that the mother emperor had already made arrangements before she was alive. Not only did she send her closest guard, Yan Ke, to be her steward, she also commanded the three armies. The tiger charm is hidden in a place where no one can find it.

The old school in the DPRK also criticized me for my succession, and the clan’s clan members even heard the voice of "Lidi", and my throne was not stable.

At this time, my support confidant offered strategies and taught me to take the opportunity to remove the competitor who had the greatest impact on me.

Father's face was crossed in my mind again, and I was so deceitful, I actually agreed...I would regret it again, but it was too late.

That time, she almost went there, and even the best doctors were helpless; however, a few days later, news came that she was getting better—I couldn’t tell how I felt, but was alone in the study the night I got the news. Sit all night.

In the early morning of the next day, the palace attendant came to call the door, and I wiped my face in a daze, only to feel the coldness of my hand.

Actually, I never really wanted to kill her, but I still indulged my aides to trick her again and again, even deliberately or unintentionally guided the public opinion in the DPRK, corrupted her reputation, and taught her to be deceived by thousands of people. In the eyes of the aides, this is certainly due to political considerations to weaken her competitiveness against the throne; but only I know that breaking her wings, teaching her that she can never escape from my side, That is my real purpose.

I swear to myself that this is the last time I will strike at her. If I fail again, it is God's will-God's will cannot be violated.

I don't want to hurt her, and I won't hurt her again.

Soon after Lu Yun and Fang Yousi left, my teacher Fu Yunchong walked in.

She is my most steadfast supporter, and also one of my great reliance on the court.

I respect her very much-although sometimes, her stubbornness and inhumanity make me hate it.

"Your Majesty, after the King Ling comes back, there will be a few months later, she will give a Shao Li." She took a sip of tea, and then said solemnly to me.

"I know... what good strategy does the teacher have?" To pass the ritual means that I can formally Nafran, and a powerful foreign family is bound to pose a greater threat to my status and give political opponents an opportunity to take advantage of it. ——As long as there are married sons in the family, they will not let go of this opportunity to climb to the top of Lingwang.

"The eldest son of the veteran, he is seventeen and has not yet been married." She smiled slightly, with confidence in her eyes.

"...I understand." I nodded, trying my best to keep the modest and gentle smile on my face, but the anger in my heart rose from wave to wave, almost turning into flames and burning all my sanity.

After she flicked her sleeves and fluttered away, I couldn't help but squeeze out the tea cup at hand.

——In order to sit on the throne, I forced myself to marry someone I didn't like; now, I want to give her a marriage and force her to marry someone I don't like... What's the point of sitting on such a throne?

Oh, what's the point!

Father, I never dare to forget the three words you once said to me.

The mother emperor died, and I became the emperor... But I couldn't do the last thing you said.

If my cruelty is inherited from you, then what I got from the mother emperor is probably the Kwong family’s preference for women... This is more like a destiny, and it is destined that I will fall in love with someone who shouldn’t. Beloved person.

And my love, bound by layer after layer of thorns, has withered and exhausted in the distortion and deceit of the sky, and there is no redemption—I want to love her, but I am not qualified.