Hello Chang’an

 Can you forgive me?

Chang Sui Ning looked down at the woman who was pleading and hoping for a glimmer of redemption.

She believed that Yuchi at this time was sincere, guilty, and even a little pitiful.

But, she shook her head—

"cannot."

Her voice was very soft, but Yuchi's hand holding the corner of her clothes subconsciously stopped shaking and pleading.

"I can die. Everyone dies. However, the world is inherently unfair. The sword should be in my own hands. It is never your turn to decide how I die."

Amidst the sound of rain, the sound still made no waves.

"Anyone who attempts to interfere with my life or death, no matter what the reason, is not even possible for me to forgive."

Yuchi's expression was trembling, and his face turned pale for a moment, as if he had received the calmest yet most terrifying sentence in his life.

She didn't know whether His Highness had withdrawn the corner of his clothes, or whether she was unable to hold on to it.

Her hands slid down to her sides.

Chang Sui Ning crosses the threshold.

She is just a common person who cherishes her life. If she can forgive someone if they want to kill her, then she really does not deserve this chance to live again.

Only she can decide how to use her life.

There were a lot of helplessness in the last life, but in the final analysis, all choices and decisions were her original intentions, and it was she who drew the sword against her in the end.

She was unwilling to die like that, but she had no regrets.

She repaid the man's gift of childbirth, and at the same time fulfilled her true inner voice - she had never regretted sacrificing herself for the land beneath her feet.

She endured the humiliation and kissed Beidi when the country was at its most unstable, in exchange for three years of recuperation and recuperation before being able to fight, and thus gained more than ten years of peace in the north. She gave her life in exchange for this. Cost-effective and worth it.

And if it was true that he was poisoned to death by Jade Chip's cup of tea, and died in such a useless way, then he would really have to live with the ghost in his soul, and he would crawl out of the coffin in the form of a ghost to kill people with a knife.

"Yes...how dare I open my mouth to ask for His Highness's forgiveness." Yuchi sat slumped in the same place, a very sad smile appeared on his face full of tears: "I should have died to apologize, instead of living till now..."

She really regretted it.

As early as when she saw the people His Highness arranged to rescue her, she had already regretted it to the point of despair.

Everyone wants to survive, but it depends on what they give in exchange for life. If the thing used in exchange for life is too large and heavy, this small life will be meaningless and will become a sin that cannot be eliminated.

She's not dead yet because she's crazy.

But everything at this moment, although temporary, is extremely clear.

She shouldn't ask His Highness if he could forgive her. Asking that question was also a sin.

"My maid should not beg His Highness for forgiveness anymore... Being able to see Your Highness again today and being able to tell all this is a gift of relief for my maid."

"After this servant has been cleansed of all his sins, he can serve His Highness again..."

She closed her eyes, quickly sat up, and threw herself at the piano table, trying to hit it with her head.

"Bang!"

Chang Suining kicked up one of the piles of wooden sticks piled beside the door of the wooden house for chopping firewood and making fire. The stick flew towards the jade chips with the sound of wind, and hit her in the crook of her hind leg.

Yuchi fell to the ground and said in a stunned voice: "Why did your highness save me..."

"This matter is not over yet, you may still be useful, so just live like this for now."

Chang Sui Ning fell silent, picked up the umbrella at his feet, held it up and walked into the rain.

In the dark wooden house, Yuchi lay on the ground, sobbing.

As the pot of incense in the corner of the wooden house gradually burned out, she slowly lost consciousness and fell there.

This incense is medicine. After inhaling it, people will gradually fall into coma and will forget some things after waking up. Even if the memory is scattered and unclear - the medicine was given by Shen Sanmao, and it is said that it was one of his methods of deceiving in the past.

But because the medicine was difficult to find and expensive in the Western Market, he was only willing to use it to do some big and profitable business... such as entertaining wealthy guests like Chang Sui Anna and others.

Chang Suining took something that could relieve the fragrance in advance, and there was a veil to block it. When he walked into the rain and was blown by the wind, the feeling of drowsiness disappeared.

She held an umbrella but did not walk out of the bamboo forest. Instead, she sat down in a pavilion in the forest.

"It's Yu Zeng!"

Yuchi's reply seemed to still be in his ears.

Chang Suining held the folded wet umbrella in his hand.

Seeing Ah Zeng again, she had become Chang Suining, and Ah Zeng had also become Yu Changshi, who was in charge of Si Gongtai. Although she was a little surprised by this, she never felt that there was anything wrong with it. On the contrary, she was doing it for Ah Zeng. happy.

The old person in the past was safe and glorious. She can rest in peace as a ghost, but she is also happy to see her as a human being.

As for A-Zeng's current work for the Ming Dynasty, she also felt that it was understandable. A-Zeng was a **** with limited prospects, and facing the new emperor's promotion and promotion, he had no room or need to refuse.

Although she was occasionally arrogant, she was not so selfish as to think that her former subordinates should stand motionless for her as a dead person. It was like being a widow and being buried, decadent, bitter, and unrealistic.

Moreover, A Zeng and the others were not aware of the estrangement between her and Empress Ming. The matter between mother and daughter was not enough to be humane. In their eyes, that was the empress she had protected—

Therefore, it is not wrong that Azeng now has a new owner.

But if the poisoning of Jade Chips really happened through his hands, if he already had a new master at that time and betrayed her, that would be unforgivable.

Chang Suining looked at the raindrops falling like lines outside the pavilion.

Back then, Jade Chip's actions were to survive, so what was A Zeng doing?

If it is true that a new owner is chosen, who is the new owner?

In other words, is it really Empress Ming that he is loyal to now?

And all of this is worthy of further investigation only on the premise that what happened back then was indeed his doing—

There may not be anything fishy about that letter.

If the other party wants to persuade Yuchi, he should also consider the mistakes that occur in human nature. Yuchi is not a born traitor. He will betray her because of a thought, or he may choose to present the letter to her in a thought. In front of you, if this is the case, the other party's intention and identity will be completely exposed -

Even if the possibility of the latter is smaller, would the person who did it really not think of this possibility?

She didn't blindly trust someone from her old department, but she couldn't just fall into the anger and shame of being betrayed and lose her mind.

At present, the clues are limited and only rely on Yuchi's words. If you want to confirm it, you need more evidence.

Before that, she had secretly inquired about the officials who went to Beidi with her, including Wu Xi, the **** in charge, and others, all of whom were no longer alive.

Jade Chip is the only one still alive.

But at the moment, she obviously does not have the conditions to question Yu Zeng face to face. If she is not careful, she may die for the second time soon.

The verification can only be done slowly for the time being.

She is indeed still far away from having the power to confront all this head-on.

Chang Sui Ning stood up holding an umbrella.

But she will do it.

As Cui Jing said, she can't afford Zhan Xiu yet, but she can try to get something else first.

This process is the only way to accumulate strength. This time, she will always remind herself to walk more steadily.

The girl raised her hand and took off her veil. She wore white clothes stained with rain and mist, and walked out of the bamboo forest alone with an umbrella.

…

The next day, Chang Suining told Chang Yan to send an available person to Zhuangzi to supervise the affairs of the farm for her on the surface, but secretly to guard the jade chips.

Chang's blade responds.

…

In the afternoon, Chang Suining returned to Xingningfang.

The next day it was sunny and I went to the Imperial College.

This time is different from the previous return to the Imperial College. With the fermentation of the Climbing Tailou incident, almost everyone in the academy now knows Chang Sui Ning.

However, since Chang Suining only studied and fished at Qiao Jijiu's residence, the students did not have much chance to meet the rumored Madam Chang.

Recently, Qiao Yubai found that more and more classmates came to visit him. Many of them came yesterday and came again today. Let's say they were visiting him. The first of the ten sentences was to ask about his injury, and the remaining nine were The whole sentence was about asking him about Ning Ning.

Some of the most shameless ones even came here for ten days in a row and sat there for so long each time that they almost had the words "I'm sitting here today waiting to meet Mrs. Chang by chance" engraved on their faces.

On the eleventh day, Qiao Yubai returned to the library to continue his studies.

Many classmates gathered around - "Hey, Yubai, why are you back so soon? Why don't you take a little more rest?"

"..." Qiao Yubai always felt that the "eh" sound would be more suitable if replaced by "ahem".

After returning to the academy, the number of people surrounding him increased every day.

Qiao Yubai did not resist this, and even enjoyed it.

After all, she was his sister, a blessing that no one else could even imagine.

Who would think that his sister is too good?

Cui Lang has also been inquiring about things related to Chang Suining recently, but what he is focusing on is Chang Suining's preferences. Although he already has a standard answer in his mind, he doesn't think much about Chang Suining's preference for beating people. It's so easy to get what you want.

After inquiring about some useless information with Qiao Yubai, Cui Lang returned home on vacation and heard that his eldest brother had just come back to visit his grandfather. Cui Lang temporarily took a handful of the passing dog's head and hurriedly recited: "Jianghu, please help." , borrow the courage to use" the mysterious spell, and ran to find his elder brother.

The big yellow dog, whose head was messed up, stood there, staring blankly at the young man in pink clothes who left quickly.

When Cui Lang came outside his grandfather's study, he saw his elder brother standing in the corridor talking to his sister Cui Tang.

Cui Lang was stunned for a moment, but relaxed a little. He stepped forward and saluted his elder brother seriously. In order to ease the tension, he had nothing to say, "A Tang, why are you here?"

"My mother prayed for a peace charm in the temple yesterday, and I specially sent it to my eldest brother."

"??" Cui Lang felt aggrieved and hesitated to speak.

He usually does all the adventures, but when it’s time to give gifts, it’s Ah Tang!

Eating alone openly, right?

Even if you take him with you!

Thinking of the days when he worked as a bull for his grandma, Cui Lang felt aggrieved for himself - grandma knew that her son's life was also his life.

"Eldest brother, just accept it..." Cui Tang handed over the peace talisman, and there was a nervousness in his voice that was rarely seen on weekdays.

As long as she and Cui Lang could remember, they had rarely seen their eldest brother. After his eldest brother joined the army, it was even more difficult to meet him once, let alone to be close to him.

The eldest brother has a distant and cold temperament, and there is a deep gap between him and his father. In my mother's words, it is really a crime for my father to cause trouble alone, and the three of them will suffer as well.

And after the surprise discovery that the second brother got drunk and hugged the eldest brother's thigh in public, but it was said that the eldest brother did not kick the second brother away, the mother became more courageous, and that's why she took the bold step of giving the peace amulet today. move.

But whether the eldest brother will accept it or not is hard to say.

Knowing the source of the confidence behind his mother's daring to send the peace talisman, Cui Lang became even more angry. This was half of the country he had given to his mother, but she had crossed the river and demolished the bridge.

But...will the eldest brother pick it up?

Cui Lang quietly paid attention to his eldest brother's hand hanging by his side.

The eldest brother's hands are big and beautiful. They are not fairer and weaker than the writing hands of many of Cui's children, but they make people feel more reliable.

After a moment, the big hand stretched out and took the peace charm under the mottled afternoon sun.

"Thank you." Cui Jing said.

Cui Tang and Cui Lang were both overjoyed. Although they tried their best to suppress it, the joy still overflowed from the corners of their eyes and mouths.

Cui Lang looked up to the sky and shed tears of relief in his heart. The half of his country that he had risked his life to gain was indeed secure!

Because Cui Jing accepted the peace talisman, the atmosphere around him became much more relaxed.

Cui Lang also had the courage to ask: "...Eldest brother is more familiar with Mrs. Chang. Do you know what Mrs. Chang likes?"

Cui Jing looked at him and asked instead of answering: "Why do you want to ask about her family's preferences as a girl?"

Cui Lang felt inexplicably uneasy, and his voice became softer: "Brother, I want to be my teacher and learn how to play polo with Madam Chang."

Having said that, raising your eyelids to secretly look at your elder brother shouldn't be an unforgivable thought, right?

Cui Jing said "oh".

Cui Lang was careful: "Eldest brother, do you think it's inappropriate?"

Cui Jing: "No."

Cui Lang smiled: "Then..."

Cui Jing looked at him: "You asked her about her preferences to prepare for the apprenticeship ceremony?"

Cui Lang nodded like garlic.

Cui Jing thought for a while and wanted to say "she likes to eat chestnuts", but when it came to her mouth, she didn't say it for some reason. It felt a bit like she didn't want to share some secrets with others, but... she likes to eat chestnuts, what's the point? A private secret?

This feeling was a bit inexplicable, and Cui Jing quickly classified it as "it is not appropriate to discuss a girl's personal preferences with her younger brother at home" -

He then thought about it seriously and finally said: "If you want to learn from the Chang family, why not just follow the usual practice."

Convention?

"What's the routine that elder brother said?"

On the way back, Cui Lang asked Cui Tang.

As for why he didn't just ask the question directly in front of his eldest brother - the eldest brother had already told him the answer. If he still didn't understand, wouldn't it mean that he was not very smart?

"It should be the practice when the eldest brother wanted to become a disciple of General Chang." Cui Tang said.

Cui Lang's scalp felt chilly when he heard this.

The eldest brother's original method of becoming a disciple was to send him to his door and be beaten!

He doesn't have the courage to sacrifice half his life to become a disciple!

Cui Lang shook his head repeatedly and said with a dry smile: "If you think about it carefully, I don't really want to learn this Juju..."

"No, brother wants to learn." Cui Tangxiao looked at the second brother slightly: "I think my mother will also approve of brother."

The mother wanted to take them to join her eldest brother's great cause. One of the plans called the shortcut was to get as close as possible to Mrs. Chang and make friends with her.

Sure enough, when Mrs. Lu learned about this that day, she persuaded her son hard and softly.

The next day, Cui Lang borrowed courage from his dog before going out. Once he returned to the Imperial Academy, he went to find Chang Sui Ning and mustered up the courage to explain his intention to become a disciple.

But Mrs. Chang's reaction was beyond his expectation.

Cui Lang: My son’s life is also my life (this sentence is inspired by the previous chapter comment of a lovely book friend hahahaha)

I wish you all a happy Women’s Day, may you all be free, independent, happy, comfortable and fulfilled~