Chapter 3: (40) I want to go next to the little demon

When I realized it,
It was a clear fingertip that broke before it came true.

Without pointing at anyone
I look at my nails as if to avoid them
I kept chasing only one dream
She was a shy girl.

《Watashi》 (TL Note: Me used for females, not that i know a lot tho lol)
The girl’s name is Aikyo.
When in history did that happen?
It’s moldy and mossy
If she were a person, she’d be a mummy.
They say you can’t come back to life after you’ve been mummified.
It’s one of those impossible things.
Don’t you get it yet?
It’s one of those impossible things,
Just like that.

《God on the other side》
Such a thing,
I can’t stand it when you say that.
After all, a woman should be pretty and respectful
Isn’t that right?

The girl I’m in love with
Rejection of my only dream
I still did my best,
A protest that I think I took care of
God’s pityfying smile on the other side.

Anger.
I swallowed it with a whoosh and came back.

But still…
No voice.
I’m depressed.
I thought of her
I’m stained to the core
I hate myself,
I hate myself more than I hated the coward that I am,
I was overwhelmingly in love with her.
I wanted to do anything for her.
I thought.

Was it bad that I fell in love with her?

『And then there is a story that makes you pity her』

It’s not that time spent in silence.
It’s not a guarantee of success.
Only the 「right shining future」
I always keep thinking of her sudden death
After all, it was too easy.
It’s so unreasonable, and I felt despair in the true sense of the word
It chokes me.

I don’t care if it’s too late.
No matter what you do to me, I’ll smile, smile, smile and show my respect
No matter how many times I have to make myself look bad
I’ve decided to ask you to do this one thing for me
I’ll make sure you’re heard, no matter what.

「Bring her back to life」
「Please」

Whoever spits in the sky
He who spits in the sky swallows what he spits
「Once you’ve become a mummy, you can’t revive」
That was my dare that day.

When I realized it,
It was a clear fingertip that broke before it came true.

No one was touched by that finger.
Only the nails, like cherry petals, come into view.
Somebody forgot to eat for a long time.
With the eyes of a mad love in a pool of light rain
Someone forgot to eat for a very long time and kept staring at the dream that he wanted to come true, and the tiny nails
With a look that said 「If you fall in love, you lose.」

I’m done.
It’s over.
I’m not going to let God grow any longer.
I’m ready to step on the tail of misfortune.
No matter what comes back to me, it’s okay.
Longing, compassion, and innocent smiles.
I’ll hold on to them as if they were tied up to my heart.
I won’t let anyone tell me what to do.

However
Now, perhaps the cutest demon in the world beyond.
The only thing that matters is how you feel about it.
That’s the only thing I care about───

Can I go next to you, please?