Hold My Hand, Don't Let Me Go

Warning: the contents of this chapter may be triggering to some. It contains shades of su*cide so if you're not comfortable with that, please skip this chapter. Thank you and have a nice day :).

"Samantha, why have you became like this?" Jonathan said with his arms wrapped around Yasmin's waist while his eyes are looking at me with contempt and disgust.

Everyone inside the party stared at me like a circus clown.

Oh, how the proud heiress fell. Some were laughing while some looked at me as if saying I deserved the nightmare that I'm currently living. Everyone's eyes are glued to me. However, all I can see is him, all I can think about is Jonathan.

He hates me... I know he does... and I deserves it. I do.

I love him so much that I did all the things I thought I could never do just to have him back. I lost to my jealousy and envy.

I just couldn't stand seeing him with another that isn't me, and because of my selfish wish, even my family got affected. My father got imprisoned, my brother died and I'm about to lose my mother. I don't know what to do anymore. I lost everything I had just because I wanted to have him back and I'm at my lowest right now and I hate myself for still longing for him after all that happened.

Maybe... Maybe he'll still pity me, even just a bit. Maybe if I beg, he would reach out his hand to me. Just maybe... he'll have the heart to help me.

Without thinking much about anything. I went down on both my knees, I heard everyone gasped in surprise but my ears became deaf to whatever they may say. I have to do this... Jiu Chen is my final salvation.

With tears falling down my cheeks and my whole body trembling in the cold, I spoke.

"Nathan please... This is the last thing I'll ever ask of you, please... please save my mother. After this, I promise I would never appear in front of you ever again. You can hate me all you want, but my mother... please help her live..." I beg, with my head down and my eyes blurs from the continuous tears that I could no longer control.

The murmurs of everyone got louder and it took a while before Jonathan said anything. My heart was beating so fast while I waited for his response.

"Alright. I'll help you." He said, that made me so happy. I immediately raise my head to show my gratefulness, however, his face that are the cruelest they've ever been greeted me. I froze to my spot and unknowingly engraved his face to my mind.

"However, I want you completely out of my life. Whether you leave this city or you go to a place far away, I don't care. I just don't want to see your face ever again." Jonathan coldly said. Then, without even waiting for my reply, he left with Yasmin in his arms.

Soon, other guest also lost interest and went inside the establishment where Jonathan and Yasmin's engagement party is going to be held.

When everyone is already gone, I stood up and left.

I walked for an hour until I got to Zhou Enterprise's old building. The place that used to be bustling with people is now as quiet as a town filled with ghosts. I went inside and climb the stairs until I got to the rooftop. I went to edge and stared at the scenery beneath me. As I was doing so, I heard my phone rings. It was from the hospital where my mother is admitted, I answered the call immediately.

"Ms. Samantha Zhou, Congratulations! your mother's hospital fee has been settled and we are now preparing to perform the surgery on her. We are calling you to ask for your approval to perform the operation on her." the doctor on the other side of the phone said. I release a breath of relief as tears immediately fell from my eyes.

"Yes, please do whatever it takes to save my mother." I replied, he told me some more information before the call ended.

I felt like a huge thorn on my throat has been removed. At least before I leave, I made one thing right.

Then, I stood at the edge of the highest building of the Zhou Enterprise. There's no more fear in my eyes. I just feel tired, weak and completely done.

If someone asks me what I regret doing the most in this life, I can only think of one thing...

I close my eyes and recalls Jonathan's cruel face when he sent me away. My last wish would probably be to at least see that warm smile that he use to show whenever he sees me. However, that wish is impossible. This is now the end.

I smiled one last time and took my final step.