How Can I Get Confused with the Top?

"Maybe I've always been afraid of having an answer, maybe love is quietly spinning in the wind. Leaving and letting go is very short and heavy..."

Chu Zhi's singing expresses despair. Almost in an instant, whether it is the first lyric or the second lyric pulls Jiang Wan's memory back to a movie.

The movie is called "Paper House", which was released two years ago and is a movie about school violence. The heroine is played by a very spiritual little flower. There is a section of screaming after being bullied for a long time. The singing is not much different.

I don't know why Jiang Wan hates "Paper House" so much. She even disparaged the movie in five channels: Douban, Maoyan Movie, TaopiaoPiao, Weibo, and Moments. Ignore it.

Is "Paper House" a good movie? It doesn't really count, at most it is above the pass line, but is the movie a bad movie? Not at all, the heroine's acting skills and the layout of the service are still worthy of praise.

"Trash movie!" Jiang Wan commented on the paper house again after returning to his senses, focusing on the TV, and feeling the silent Kuroshio.

Boundless and broad like the black tide of the sea, Chu Zhi is a swaying boat with no other shore, just as there is no one standing around the stage.

I don't know if it was the lighting director's intention. During the singing process, the band teacher and the choir were not illuminated at all. What the audience saw was only a beam of light in the center of the stage, and everything else was engulfed by the black tide in the auditorium. .

The skeleton of the boat is made of old wood, and the Kuroshio can be washed away by a single wave. Jiang Wan asked in his heart, "Can he finish singing?"

I was scared, absolutely scared. The camera zoomed in, and the singer in the center of the stage was scared.

The elbow of the left hand holding the microphone stand was trembling involuntarily, and the legs were so stretched that he did not dare to move any further.

What is true bravery? Knowing the danger clearly but still daring to face it. Chu Zhi is a brave singer. Just now, his body was just facing the subconscious fear of the Kuroshio, and as the camera pulled up, the expression of fear was also conveyed. out.

When she was in the scene, Jiang Wan didn't know whether it was because she had too strong empathy ability. She completely felt Chu Zhi's despair. The singing seemed to say to everyone: Can you help me? Please save me.

"Okay...a familiar voice." Jiang Wan also had this voice in his brain, a female voice: Could you lend me my textbook, my workbook was thrown away, please help me.

Is it a movie paper house? Jiang Wan's ears were immersed in the singing, and half of his thoughts were separated. Under his contemplation, Jiang Wan couldn't think of a similar plot in the paper house.

Who is the female voice calling for help in your brain? It was a thirteen or fourteen-year-old girl calling for help, her voice remained in her ears, but her face was extremely blurred.

Why does the little girl's face look like when she was a child?

Soon Jiang Wan understood why she hated "Paper House". The female protagonist in the paper house also experienced despair, but she was helped by the same table. Pull it out, and the heroine will get better.

It's all fake. No one came forward. When Jiang Wan was in junior high school, neither his parents nor teachers gave any help. How could there be so many helping hands...

One day in the second day of junior high school, after the death of the grandmother who loved her as a child, the English book she copied the next day was thrown away again by someone who did not know. To be considered a kind classmate, the accurate description of kindness means that he does not bully with others, and behaves like a stranger.

"Can you lend me my textbook, my homework was thrown away, please help me." Jiang Wan said to the classmate.

got rejected.

Indeed, the classmate was not obliged to agree, but being rejected was the last straw that broke Jiang Wan's childhood.

"Hahaha, look, she forgot even her school uniform", "It's called Jiang Wan, does it feel inexplicably appropriate to be called a zombie?", "It's you at the same table, I feel like the sky is over", "You want my birthday party. Are you coming? Just kidding, I didn’t plan to invite you”…

The inferiority complex buried deep in his memory has all been dug up, and these words are not particularly vicious, and some are even said in the form of jokes, but for Jiang Wan, even if she graduated from college, even if she is an adult, even if she is in The work of the law firm is quite good, and it is also a knife mark.

Jiang Wan fell into a dead end of framed self-blame, or was trapped in grief and could not get out.

"There was a ray of light, and at that moment, what was the pain that was so dazzling, your eyes were understanding, why are you reluctant to turn it off? I saw it against the light."

Suddenly, Jiang Wan, who was in the dead end, heard a song very clearly.

It seems that the owner of this voice extended a helping hand to her, and Jiang Wan realized that the singer in the center of the stage, even if he was afraid of the black tide, he still used a small boat to save people, and it was clear that a small boat They will be destroyed in the Kuroshio.

"Facing hope, against the light, the place where I feel love exists is always by my side. Light, you are light."

The end of the song.

A song is only three or four minutes long, which is not long, but for the audience Jiang Wan, she has experienced a long time in her heart.

"Why are you on the verge of collapse, and you have to save people on board, doesn't it sink faster?"

Jiang Wan clearly noticed that Chu Zhi quietly wiped away his tears as if he didn't want people to know. What is the big man crying for? Jiang Wan wanted to make such a mockery in his heart, but he couldn't do it at all.

"Can you share, Mr. Chu, under what circumstances did you write this song? I think it's you who wrote the song."

"I hope that people who listen to my songs, whether they hate me, hate me, or hate me, can be surrounded by light. Similarly, if there is too much expectation in love and life, they can walk against the light. "

After the singing, the host's visit to the singer.

"Idiot, this Chu Zhi is definitely an idiot. I even scolded you on your face, and Nima wants me to be surrounded by light. Where are you from?" After listening to this sentence, Jiang Wan thought in his heart. The tyranny could no longer be suppressed, like a bursting faucet, spraying out.

"Don't you know how to fight back after being bullied? You use the microphone to scold you." Jiang Wan shouted loudly at Chu Zhi on the TV, but the content of the words was more like shouting at herself.

The anger persisted until Chu Zhi announced that he would withdraw from the competition due to physical reasons. Jiang Wancai was like a deflated balloon. He recalled the singing just now.

From beginning to end, Chu Zhi was gentle, and he was telling everyone that "the world is gentle because of you."

Light, you are light.

Jiang Wan recited the lyrics silently. She knew that Chu Zhi sang the lyrics to her.

"I obviously didn't forget about junior high school. I obviously really mind being bullied in junior high school. I was clearly affected. Why do I keep telling myself that I'm okay, I have something to do, they brought me sad memories, and I don't want to Back in junior high school, I hated them."

Casually said this to himself in his heart, the tyranny that Jiang Wan had been suppressing seemed to be gradually dissipating.

Chu Zhi's singing made Jiang Wan forgive herself. The reason why she kept telling herself that she was not affected by school bullying was because she felt that now that I have grown up and am more successful than them, I shouldn't have any problems.

"The people who are bullying on campus, the old lady who apologizes will never forgive, what kind of shit!" Jiang Wan seemed to have resumed his previous scolding.

But it is completely different. In the past, there was a famous saying of a big man, "Evil is evil, and it is said in a high-sounding manner, but it is not anger, bullying, daring, and incapable of taking revenge."

In the past, scolding and scolding was just to express anger, but Jiang Wan's scolding now means "bullies should be scolded".

"The kitten is so cute, why did I want to kick it before, I'm a bitch." After thinking about it, the world felt brighter, Jiang Wan thought about whether to go out and apologize?

After thinking about it or not, I will buy cat food tomorrow to apologize to the kitty. Jiang Wan has more important things today.

She didn't believe it anymore, Chu Zhi was really what the black material said.

key here!