I Am In Love with Myself

Just after the needle was pulled out, Jian Yixi woke up. An Mu helped her press the eye of the needle and looked up at Jian Yixi, who was still a little sleepy. Thinking of her promise, she bowed her head and blew through the pressing fingers.

I wanted to say the phrase "I flew away in pain" that my adoptive mother often said, but I couldn't say it.

Without a line, she took two more blows as compensation, and then raised her eyes, only to see Jian Yixi's wry eyes staring at her face without blinking, her eyelashes trembling slightly, as if she hadn't completely escaped from her sleep. Wake up.

An Mu whispered, Jian Yixi raised her eyes subconsciously and met her gaze.

With just one glance, Jian Yixi woke up instantly, like a bear kid who had been caught stealingly, with the obvious shock of being caught, conditioned reflex blinked a few eyes, and quickly turned away from her eyes.

"Uh...in...in...I...I fell asleep just now, are you bored by yourself?"

Jian Yixi's stuttering look was stupid and cute, An Mu's eyes filled with tenderness, only when she was embarrassed to be taken care of, and didn't care, she gently pressed the eye of the needle again, and she felt that she would not bleed anymore. lay down.

"It's not boring, I played with my phone for a while."

"Then, that's good."

Jian Yixi glanced at her again, and the more she looked, the more she realized that An Mu's mouth was so beautiful, especially when she just helped her whistle, her mouth was pouting, and her lips were tender and red, as if they were blooming. The flowers were so inviting to pick them, and looking at them made her very...very...appetite?

Jian Yixi reluctantly found a vocabulary that she thought was appropriate. She didn't dare to read more or think about it, so she quickly changed the subject.

"What time is it now?"

An Mu glanced at the phone.

"Hurry up."

"A little bit?! It's so late?!" Jian Yixi got out of bed, "You must be starving to death? Go, I will ask you to eat..."

Before she could finish her words, Jian Yixi's knees softened and she was dizzy and fell back into the bed.

An Mu frowned and held her hand.

"You slow down, it burned all night, and you didn't eat, and you got up so violently. It's strange that you can get up."

Jian Yixi rubbed her temples annoyedly: "I'm really useless."

"You still need to blame yourself for this kind of thing?"

"I just feel... as if I've been bothering you all the time."

"With this energy and politeness, it's better to save a little more energy so I can help you go back."

An Mu did not help her in hospitalization. First, the hospital environment was noisy and the Internet was chaotic, and the hospitalization might not be peaceful; secondly, when she first came, she only managed to get a needle to reduce her fever, and there was no time to do it. After the fever subsided, there was no need to do it again.

Jian Yixi sat for a while, regaining some strength, An Mu put on her windbreaker, which was put aside, this time Jian Yixi's refusal was invalidated and could only be dressed obediently.

An Mu helped her down slowly and walked slowly. Fortunately, it was on the first floor, and there was no need to squeeze the elevator, so she left the hospital smoothly and hired a taxi.

"Fusheng Garden." An Mu reported the address.

This is the community where An Mu lives, passing by Jian Yixi's villa area.

Jian Yixi didn't think much, and closed his eyes against the wall of the car.

She had burnt too hard before, as if she had been in a hot bath all night, and her whole body was softened. When she closed her eyes, she felt that her eye sockets were sore and her eyelids were floating. She was walking just like stepping on cotton. With Mu supporting, she can really soften to the ground.

"My sister...did you post a v-blog?"

"Sent."

An Mu thought she would ask carefully, or use her mobile phone to read it. After waiting for a long time, Jian Yixi didn't see Jian Yixi continue. With a brake, Jian Yixi's head leaned against the car wall slammed.

The voice wasn't too loud, and Jian Yixi still controlled a little bit, and An Mu glanced at her.

The sun interspersed outside the car window, and the light flickered on her pale little face. The red cheeks under the high heat were long gone. All that was left was the faded mess, even the lips lost their blood, and the dry skin on the lips turned up. She seemed to be mocking her caregiver, not even giving her saliva to the patient, which is really incompetent.

After all, he was once herself. An Mu understood everything only by looking at Jian Yixi.

It's not that Jian Yixi doesn't want to ask, nor does she want to know what her sister has done, but she didn't dare to speak for fear that she could not control her emotions.

This is not the time when she is groggy in the morning when she is burning, but now she is sober and doesn't want to expose too much in front of people.

Jian Yixi's head shook with the car and knocked off the wall again.

An Mu touched her head to her shoulder. Jian Yixi didn't move. What she looked like, Jian Yixi would lean on, obediently like a little cat dozing off.

Jian Yixi didn't dare to ask, so she took the initiative to say it.

"Your sister posted a V blog, and I also posted it. Not only me, Qi Liran posted it, Lu Yuexin posted it, and two other girls who participated in the sneak shots also posted it. Now even Chen Han is standing up to help you. You don't have to worry about anything."

Jian Yixi didn't open her eyes. From An Mu's angle, she could only see that the tip of her eyelashes quivered, and her dry skinned lips squeezed out a calm tone.

"Qi Liran? Lu Yuexin? Why?"

"This is a long story. In short, I contacted Wu Shutao's family and persuaded them first, and they came forward to persuade Wu Shutao, who was just beginning to serve his sentence.

Wu Shutao is the so-called robber who smashed Qi Liran's head. He is still very young, in his early twenties, and has not graduated from college. His family told him all of what your sister had done.

In the past two months or so, Wu Shutao himself has actually regretted it very much. His family did not take much effort to persuade him to testify against your sister.

His family gave me his dictation recordings, and also used Wu Shutao's cell phone to let me intercept the chat records. With these, I went to Qi Liran and convinced her to speak for herself and for her lost college entrance examination.

Qi Liran hates your sister, and Lu Yuexin hates your sister. When Qi Liran and I found them together, they were originally reluctant to cooperate. After all, it was me who caused the problem to drop out of school and punish them.

But they are not fools. Of course they will not let it go with such a good opportunity for whitewashing and revenge.

Especially, they hate your sister more than me.

The alliance was easily established, with solid evidence in hand. Even if your parents helped your sister find the navy, they couldn't control Chen Han's tens of millions of real fans, and there were so many fans who turned into black.

The most important thing is that the more navy, the more intense the rebound, the greater the momentum created, and the more beneficial to you. "

My home was not far from the hospital, and I arrived when I was talking. No foreign vehicles were allowed in the community. An Mu got off the car and explained the situation to the security guard. He also registered his name, address and phone number, and was finally allowed to let him go.

Jian Yixi only reacted at this moment. He opened his eyes and looked at the strange community outside the car window. There were phoenix trees passing by in his eyes, and said in surprise: "Won't you take me home first? I remember it was passing by. Correct."

Hospital→Villa area→Fusheng Garden.

This is the right order. Why didn't An Mu pass by the villa area and didn't call her to get off?

The taxi drove all the way downstairs to An Mu. An Mu got out of the car first, then walked around the car to help her down, and entered the apartment building together.

At noon, the owners either went to work or school or ate and slept at home. The corridors were empty, with echoes of footsteps.

Waiting for the elevator, An Mu helped her and said, "Why go home? Your mother is in the hospital, your father is at work, and the nanny listens to your mother's instructions to prepare food and drink for your sister. Where can I take care of you?"

Jane Yixi lowered her eyes and smiled faintly, lightly and bitterly.

"But that's my home, I always have to go back."

—That may not be true.

Back home, An Mu opened the water dispenser, added a cup of warm water to moisturize her lips first, then turned on the phone and ordered takeaway.

"I have used the liquid for three days, and I have to lose tomorrow. It depends on the situation the day after tomorrow. If it doesn't work, ask for leave."

An Mu's apartment is not big or small. Two bedrooms and one living room are just right. It is enough to live in a family of three. Unlike the Jane's villa, it is too big and empty instead of a home.

Jian Yixi said: "On Monday the day after tomorrow, I still have to hand in an inspection notice to criticize or something. I am afraid it is not easy to ask for leave. Besides, I feel much better now. I should have no problem sleeping overnight."

"It depends on the situation then."

After Jian Yixin passed, the living room fell into a weird silence.

There is only one sofa. An Mu sits on this side of the sofa gracefully with her legs folded, and Jian Yixi sits on the other side with her knees close together. The two are alone like this for the first time, and they don’t know what to say for a while. .

It will take a while for the takeaway to arrive. An Mu glanced at Jian Yixi's half-empty glass, then took it and put it on the coffee table.

"You lie down and rest for a while. When the meal comes, eat the meal and then go to bed and sleep well."

Jian Yixi was pushed down by her, and the slippers she had just changed fell on the floor tiles twice. An Mu returned to the room and took out a thin blanket, and put it on her body for the time being.

"Don't really fall asleep, just keep your eyes closed for a while."

Jian Yixi grinned, her weak smile couldn't bring out the faint little pear vortex.

"Forget it, I will definitely fall asleep as soon as I close my eyes, lend me your cell phone, and I will call home."

An Mu's cell phone was handed over.

Jian Yixi didn't evade her either, so she lay on her side, her arms pressed out of the thin blanket, recalling her mother's number and dialing it.

The phone rang a lot before connecting, and Wen Qiaoyun's voice was impatient through the phone.

"Hello. Who is this?"

"Mom, it's..."

After only two words, Wen Qiaoyun exploded the pot, and An Mu could hear the hysterical soprano inside so far away. Although he could not hear what was said, he could see the last trace of blood on Jian Yixi’s face. It fades quickly, and you know that it is definitely not a good thing.

Jian Yixi tried to explain: "I have a fever and I just finished the infusion, so..."

"No, Mom, I didn't mean to...I..."

"I didn't find those people, I didn't want to embarrass the family, I..."

"Mom, listen to me first, I actually..."

"Don't worry, she..."

Every sentence was interrupted at the beginning, and she was not given a chance to finish.

Jian Yixi raised her arms to block her eyes, she couldn't see the expression on her face, she could only see her biting her lower lip, giving up arguing, holding back listening to the mad bombing from the phone, trying to wait for Wen Qiaoyun to vent. Look for another opportunity to speak.

It's a pity that she couldn't wait for that opportunity in the end. Wen Qiaoyun cursed happily and hung up the phone. From beginning to end, she didn't listen to Jian Yixi's answer about her condition. Obviously, she didn't ask at all.

After hanging up the phone for a long time, Jian Yixi still covered her ears, and the arm covering her eyes was blocked for a while before she rubbed it away. His half-dangling eyes could vaguely see the redness at the end of her eyes.

Jian Yixi sat up and shook her phone: "Can I make another call?"

Jian Yixi didn't even think about it this time, and skillfully dialed the number of her adoptive mother.

Toot—

The adoptive mother picked up quickly, and there was a noisy road on the opposite side.

"Hello? Xixi?"

Jian Yixi was three years old when she lost that year. Although she could not tell the names of her parents, she knew that she was Xixi. The adoptive parents gave her the name Meng Xi based on this.

"This is not my phone number, how do you know it's me?"

"Hurt! Do you have to think about it? We are the only one in Weicheng. When I saw it said Weicheng, I knew it must be my daughter!"

Jian Yixi propped a leg, elbows on her knees, palms on her forehead, and she trembled silently, pretending to be a brisk voice: "Where are you? So noisy? How about working with dad on the street? "

"Yeah! Business is good today. Several people are looking for your dad! I have discussed with your dad. We have saved some money for more than two years. When we go back, you will be admitted to college, where will you take the exam and where will we go to rent a house? We will leave you. Come closer, stay with you for four years. When you get married and have a baby, we will...not look for you. We have traveled with us."

The old couple can’t have children, and their favorite is children. During the New Year, she also joked to get her to get married after graduating from college and give them a granddaughter to hug them. Now they worry about the emotions of Jane’s family and dare not even look at it. .

Jane Yixi propped her forehead and closed her eyes tightly. The broken hair obscured her expression, but she couldn't stop her few unnoticeable trills.

"Traveling? That's great. Now the video is so convenient. Send me the video if you miss me."

"Eh! Good! How are you over there? Why is there something wrong with your voice?"

"I just woke up from a nap."

"Oh, okay, good over there, that private school is not cheap, it must be better than what we teach here. You have worked hard for two years. When you are admitted to college, you will at least have a little protection in this life. No matter how rich the Jane’s family is, you will be better. You have to be able to do it. You can’t relax just because you have money at home, you know?"

"Huh? What's the matter?"

"I...I miss you, okay if I go to see you?"

The adoptive mother’s laughter suddenly calmed down, and it took him a long time to squeeze out: "Mom missed you too, but you just went, and you will come back to see us right away. Your parents must be uncomfortable. Mom is afraid they will give you a look. …you…"

The adoptive mother's voice choked, fearing that she would hear it out, and deliberately yelled loudly: "Oh no, I can't tell you, your dad is still climbing on the telephone pole, and he expects me to hand him something and the ladder, so be it. , Contact again and hang up."

The adoptive mother hung up the phone in a hurry, but Jian Yixi still heard the moment when she hung up, there was a sobbing uncontrollable over there.

Jane Yixi hugged her knees for a long time before she raised her head and handed the phone back, smiling hard.

"My mother...the adoptive mothers are working. They know a lot. They do everything, welding advertising shelves, installing windows, laying tarpaulins to prevent leakage... They make money with their own hands, I never think they I'm inferior, and I don't think they make me look up. I...I don't understand why my parents say that they taught me badly?"

Jian Yixi was still smiling, as if she wouldn't be able to speak unless she laughed.

An Mu took the phone, put it on the coffee table, beckoned and motioned for her to come over.

Jane Yixi raised her head and grabbed the tears that she could not hold back, and forced her back, before kneeling and crawling and leaning over.

Before she finished speaking, An Mu suddenly hugged her, just like when she left Shunyi and came to Weicheng twelve years ago when her adoptive mother suddenly hugged her at the station.

Until now, An Mu clearly remembers the temperature in her foster mother's arms, and I believe that the sixteen-year-old herself remembers it better.

At this time, a thousand words are not worth a hug.

"They are not ashamed, and you are not bad."

The soft body in his arms was stiff, and it took him a long time to relax, and the voice he spoke again brought an uncontrollable choke.

"I... I don't know how it became like this... Obviously... A few days ago, my parents said that they had been looking for me for many years, saying that they missed me very much, that they would compensate me well in the future, and that they would be good to me, but... But why did it happen in the blink of an eye? Am I so unpleasant?"

"Who said that? I like it very much, and Maomao likes it too."

"You...like me? Not only the foster parents, but you also like me. It seems...I am not that bad either..."

Jian Yixi leaned against An Mu's arms, as if suddenly losing all his strength, pressing almost her entire weight, pressing An Mu back against the armrest of the sofa, making her back a little painful.

An Mu didn't move, enduring back pain, quietly listening to Jian Yixi's depression all night.

"My mother said that I deliberately opposed my sister and wanted to embarrass the family. I don't know how she came to such a ridiculous conclusion?

Am I not Jane’s family myself? Am I embarrassing my family? Is my brain abnormal?

My mother also said, **** immortal, **** immortal is forced to be like this now, what does this mean? Do you mean I should die?

I know she is angry, and I also know that my sister’s suicide makes her very distressed, but I still feel uncomfortable, I actually want to try, if I also commit suicide, will she be as nervous as my sister? Nervous me? "

An Mu pushed her shoulders and pushed her away, frowned and looked at her, saying every word: "Nothing is more important than life, and no one is worthy of you to die for her. Don't even think about it. miss you."

An Mu knows herself, she knows that she can't give up her life easily anyway, but she still doesn't want to hear such words from her mouth.

-Can you sacrifice for your adoptive parents and die for Jane's family? Not even just talking casually!

Jian Yixi's small face was as pale as paper, and the circles under her eyes became more and more horribly red, and her tears were hanging in her eyes, and it seemed that she couldn't hold it anymore.

She opened her eyes desperately to keep the tears from rolling out, and still smiled and said: "I know, I won't be so stupid. If I am gone, my adoptive parents should be so sad."

"Don't laugh if you don't want to laugh, it's ugly."

Jian Yixi touched her face, "Is it really ugly?"

"Ugly."

The corner of Jian Yixi's mouth pulled higher, and her smile really didn't look good. This time before An Mu reached out and hugged her, she suddenly hooked An Mu's neck and buried her head in An Mu's neck.

She didn't speak, only hugged An Mu tightly, her thin body trembled slightly, she was still tolerant at first, and then she couldn't help crying loudly. The warm tears soaked through her shoulders, and soaked An Mu's dust for many years Memory.

If there was such a person that I could rely on back then, maybe I wouldn't lose sight of the truth and would only want to please Jane's family.

No one is really stupid, many times they just lack an opportunity to face reality cruelly.

After eating the takeaway, Jian Yixi slept in An Mu's double bed, and only woke up until the dark night, but was woken up by An Mu's cell phone bell.

Jian Yixi yawned and got out of the bed. Her body was already refreshed a lot. When she walked to the living room, there was no shadow of An Mu. There was only a little warm gleam from the bathroom glass door and the vague sound of water splashing.

An Mu is taking a bath.

Jian Yixi picked up the phone and looked at it. It was not someone else who was beating on the screen, it turned out to be a number she was familiar with.

It's Wen Qiaoyun, her mother!

Did she finally remember caring about her?

Jian Yixi's eyes were filled with surprises in an instant, and quickly pressed the answer button.

"mom!"

"Where are you?!"

An irritable voice rushed to his ears, instantly extinguishing Jian Yixi's joy, and her voice also chilled.

"I'm at a friend's house."

"Which friend? It's not that An Mu, right?"

Jian Yixi, who is not good at lying, hesitated and told the truth.

"Heh! Hehe... You are really good! Jian Yixi! You will return to me right now... Wait, which house is her house? I'll pick you up!"

The author has something to say: Fat chapter!

Thank you Xiaohan for not being cute~ I have candy today~ Luoyao is so good~ Befaai Enterprise~ Little cuties are supporting Yiqi~~mua! (*╯3╰)