I Am In Love with Myself

In the morning, the hospital building was quite lively. The cleaners cleaned the rooms one by one, the nurses pulled the curtains one by one, and the family members walked around to buy food and water.

Jian Yixi was lying on the hospital bed, pulling the corner of An Mu's clothes, poor and pitiful, cautiously, when An Mu frowned, she covered her chest and pretended to be painful. Actually, she didn't pretend, but she didn't want to shout in front of An Mu. When it hurts loudly, she yelled out, and An Mu would feel distressed.

How can An Mu fail to see such a trick?

She was angry and helpless. There was nothing she could do with her. After looking through the memory, she couldn't remember how cunning she was before?

Maybe she was not so cunning, but she was taught to be like this. After all, people would change. From the time she intervened to teach Jian Yixi, Jian Yixi had changed the original life course, and became more and more different. The same way forward.

An Mu thought, after another ten years, Jian Yixi lived until the day she died, which was probably the biggest difference between them. After the age of twenty-eight, she would never be gone again, and Jian Yixi would continue to move forward. Good life development.

By then, she might be able to completely let go of her previous life and live the life she wants.

"Okay, don't tugging, be careful to pull the wound again."

An Mu grabbed Jian Yixi's hand at the corner of her dress and tucked it back into the bed.

Jian Yixi didn't seem to be angry anymore, so she was a little relieved.

"Why did you come here suddenly?"

An Mubai glanced at her, "How did I know that you lied to me again? I said it well at the beginning, but I won't lie to me anymore. It turned out to be just talking."

Jane Yixi bit her lip, and her heart hung again.

——An Mu really looks like a land|thunder at the moment, and it may blow up with a touch. She'd better not talk, she said too many mistakes, and even pretended to be pitiful if she didn't say so.

Jian Yixi lowered her eyes and did not speak, pretending to be pitiful, An Mu looked even more angry.

"Why don't you speak? I used to know how to apologize when I was wrong, but now I have learned to be cold and violent?"

Wanting to cry without tears, Jian Yixi quickly raised her eyes, blinking her red eyes.

"I'm sorry...I'm afraid that the more you say it, the more angry you become..."

It was An Mu who followed up, Jian Yixi's eyes were red, and it was An Mu who was distressed.

Suddenly, An Mu got a little bit of the mentality of being a parent. The child was so angry that she had to say one, two or three. The child really said it, but she felt distressed.

"Well, don't talk about this, you talk less, take a break."

Jian Yixi didn't want to rest.

"It's better to divert your attention when you speak. The more you rest, the more pain you feel."

This is also true.

An Mu had a chat with her every sentence, deliberately avoiding the topic of the college entrance examination, fearing to make her sad again, but she didn't expect to mention it herself.

"I think Maomao is in a good mood, did she do well in the exam?"

"Yes, the first choice should be fine."

"What about you? Have you assessed?"

"Estimated."

"How?"

"It's a bit higher than last year's score, it should be about the same."

In the past few years, the score line has not fluctuated much, and the upper and lower scores have not been wrong.

Jian Yixi smiled, really happy for An Mu.

"I knew you would do it."

An Mu said indifferently: "There is nothing to be happy about, I just got the light from the locals."

"You can't say that. Many local students can't pass the exam. Those who pass the exam are also top-notch students. If you can pass the exam, it means you are still very good."

After a pause, Jian Yixi said again: "Why don't you help me estimate the score, I want to see how much I can score."

An Mu took out the phone and didn’t find out the answer. Jian Yixi suddenly said, “Forget it, I’m overwhelmed. I wrote a mess. When I painted the answer sheet, I painted the wrong position. I didn’t find it until the end. Just wipe it and make it up quickly. I didn’t know if I made it up with the ringtone. It’s really a mess. Except for the language volume, everything else was written with pinch points. I didn’t check it. I must have made a lot of mistakes."

It would be nice to be able to finish writing in that state.

No, it should be said that it would be nice to be able to take the exam.

An Mu turned to the answer and comforted: "That's not necessarily true. Let's estimate it. I will help you pay attention to the school. I don't have to go to Tsinghua University. I was joking with you at the beginning. Those successful people, Not all of them are from Tsinghua University. Two books and three books are actually good."

Jian Yixi shook his head, "No, I only go to Tsinghua University."

An Mu knew that this was her dream in her last life, and also the dream of her and Jian Yixi now.

In her previous life, Wen Qiaoyun was forbidden to repeat her studies. She felt ashamed that she would not be admitted to a good school even if she did, so she never had the opportunity to repeat her studies. In this life, as long as Jian Yixi thought about it, she would give her full support.

"Well, let's not estimate, we only go to Tsinghua University."

Jian Yixi was not happy because of her encouragement, but was even more depressed.

"An Mu, do you think I'm special... overweight and selfish? You can get admitted to Tsinghua University within two years of returning from abroad. I have studied for more than ten years, but still... Can't pass the exam.

Even if you don’t pass the exam, you still have to do it, you have to repeat the exam, and you don’t look at your family’s conditions. A year of delay is a year. My parents are also getting older, and they are still doing this danger every day. The work supports me, and I should work early to help them share the burden. "

An Mu touched her head and said softly: "Many times, dreams and reality are in conflict. If the conflict cannot be overcome, or if it requires too much sacrifice, then give up.

But if it is surpassable and only needs to sacrifice a little bit, then might as well give it a try.

You may indeed need to delay for a year, but if you are admitted to Tsinghua University, it is equivalent to having better protection in the future, and your career plan may rise to a higher level. Your parents’ hard work this year will soon be due to Make up for this change. "

An Mu's stability made Jian Yixi a little better.

She lowered her eyes, the corners of her eyes were reddish, the probing hand grabbed An Mu's hand, without force, she was so embarrassed to seek comfort, and pulled it loosely.

An Muhui held her hand tightly.

Jane Yixi's eye circles were redder, and she sniffed her nose, her voice faintly choked, she still kept her eyes down and didn't look at her, just whispered.

"Actually... I don't have to be Tsinghua... I just think... I am very useless...

You are more beautiful than me, better than my family, and better than my mind. You are good at everything. I can't catch up in my life. The only thing I am better than you is my grades. I don't want to surpass you, I just Want to catch up with you.

I want to go to Tsinghua University with you so that our gap is not so obvious.

I think one day in the future, I can stand in front of your family and friends, proudly say that I am your friend, and will not let you be looked down upon because of me.

You may not know, I'm actually not really stupid, I can't see Chen Han's unpredictable intentions, I just feel panicked when I see her.

I think I'm too far away from her. Your friends are like Chen Han, and Liang Silui. She is also a resident of France. She has a good family background and good experience. I really...I...I'm worse than them. Too much. "

An Mu didn't hold back and said, "Chen Han is no longer my friend now. My friend is you and Maomao. We have no gap."

"I know, we are all candidates now, we can't see the gap, but wait for the future? Your circle of friends is really not at the same level as me. The gap will only get bigger and bigger. It is the only one who can be admitted to Tsinghua University. The way to get to the level with you, I...I must pass the exam, can you understand An Mu?"

An Mu... really didn't quite understand, she didn't think that after two years, Jian Yixi was still so dependent on herself.

She thought that over the past year or so, Jian Yixi’s dependence on her has faded with the passage of time, after all, after so long, Jian Yixi did not show any abnormality. If we don’t meet each other, we can’t rely on each other. Performance?

How could she have imagined that Jian Yixi actually turned this dependent object into Tsinghua University?

But Tsinghua was clearly her dream in her last life, so why did she get involved with herself?

Moreover, although she valued her friends in her previous life, for example, Maomao shared the joys and sorrows with her, and their feelings could not be shaken regardless of their past and present lives, but she was not to the extent that Jian Yixi was always afraid of separation in the future.

She and Maomao have always been in a natural relationship, never considering that far, but they also believe that their friendship can last a lifetime.

Is it really because...her family conditions put Jian Yixi under pressure?

But... Is it right to make friends now? Can't the rich have friends from ordinary family backgrounds?

Is there something wrong with her teaching method? Or is Jian Yixi too insecure? Or... Is there any other reason she doesn't know?

It's been more than a year, and it was when Jian Yixi was most frustrated. Once she turned on her emotions, she couldn't stop. Jian Yixi held her hand, resisted the tears that didn't know how long, and whispered.

"Actually, I... Actually, it's not that I really don't care about my parents, nor is it stubborn and self-reliant. I...I just want to be your lifelong friend.

I don’t want to wait for one day in the future, when the gap between us will become so big that we will really not be of the same level, and there will be no common topics at all. It will really drift away. At that time, even if I want to cross over to chase you, I can’t cross it Passed.

I...I'm really...I'm really afraid of losing you. I'm afraid that one day, I suddenly turned my head and found that you are no longer there, just like...just like the winter vacation of the second year of high school, you are gone. , Left me and transferred.

This is a transfer, what about next time? What will it be next time?

It will only take me a year and a half, or even two and a half years to catch up with you just by transferring to another school. I don't know how long it will take me next time. "

Hearing what she said, An Mu suddenly didn't know what to say.

Jian Yixi's life trajectory has changed since two years ago, and his thoughts are also slowly changing. It is normal that An Mu's unexpected mood changes occasionally occur.

An Mu sighed slightly: "If you are doing it for me, then there is no need to go to Tsinghua University. As I said just now, two books and three books are actually not bad. The important thing is not which school you go to, but your ability is important. University is just a place for you to learn theoretical knowledge. I believe that according to your abilities, you can start your own company without having to work for others. In that way, it doesn’t really matter whether you focus on your capital."

"Again……"

"What's coming again?"

Jian Yixi bit her lower lip and looked at her with a tilted head. The little Liwor with the corner of her lips dented a little because of the force of her lips. Tears flashed in her eyes, looking at her unspeakable grievance.

"I found you stupid."

"I'm not saying you are stupid, you have more twists and turns in your mind than anyone else, you..."

An Mu interrupted: "I don't think this is complimenting me."

Seeing her stern face, Jane Yixi raised her neck subconsciously to explain, but she immediately pulled her wounds, and her newly opened mouth was immediately distorted in pain.

"Be careful!"

An Mu couldn't help, so she could only watch her hurt, hoping that she would come over soon.

Fortunately, Jian Yixi quickly eased over and breathed a sigh of relief: "I'm not trying to connotate you. I say that you are stupid. I mean that you look smart and clever and eloquent. In fact, the closer you are. The more arrogant you are in front of people, the less you can speak."

——I said so much as soon as I caught my breath, so I can’t talk about it slowly?

An Mu took a piece of paper to help her dip her into the thin sweat that hurt her forehead.

"How did you come to the conclusion?"

"For example, when I went to celebrate your birthday, you cracked and slapped me, if I hadn't pointed it out bluntly, you wouldn't have noticed my grievance at all."

That said, it seems to be true.

Jian Yixi went on to accuse: "I have said my grievances. Let you comfort me. If you say a hug, you can hug, one, and the next, and the comfort will be the same. If it hurts me, I will be full of comfort and comfort. Just one sentence, weigh the difference yourself."

An Mu blinked and threw the sweat wipes into the trash with a blank face. She really didn't know what expression to put on.

In her previous life, there were few close people around her. The only Xie Maomao also had a boyfriend, and it was impossible to always be with her. She did not have much experience in contact with close people, and was not very good at comforting others.

But this is not the reason why she is violent at Jian Yixi, just like she had never been violent at Xie Maomao in her previous life, she usually doesn’t violent friends. Jian Yixi is different. Jian Yixi is herself in her eyes. The child’s self can also be roughly equal to... your own child?

Although it doesn't mean that, but it's the same.

Thinking about it this way, she is indeed like a parent, always involuntarily ignoring Jian Yixi's feelings and only imposing her own ideas.

"You just said it's coming again. Did I say something wrong again?"

Jian Yixi nodded slightly, "It's not wrong, it's just a bit sad. You said it last time. I was not feeling well at the time, but I was not angry with you. I was angry with myself. You said two books and three books. It’s not bad, it makes me feel like I’m really bad, I’m so stupid and stupid, I don’t seem to be able to catch up with you all my life, especially now that I’m like this, it seems to prove that I’m really stupid."

In this way...it seems to be a bit inappropriate...

An Mu lowered her eyes and blinked unnaturally, her blushing lips pursed and pursed, and said: "Then...I...I apologize to you. I really think that two books and three books are nothing, so I will Then, I...no other meaning."

When has Jian Yixi seen An Mu's cute expression like this?

She couldn't help but swallowed, trying to squeeze An Mu's face, but was afraid that An Mu would be angry. She curled up her fingers and did not dare to stretch it out. Even if An Mu is not angry and there are others in the ward, she can only take this The little thoughts are pressed in the bottom of my heart, and I will act when there are only two of them.

"Why do you apologize? It was originally my glass heart, so I don't care about others. You have to be careful when you say something to your own people. How tired is that?

I just want to say that in the future, if we are dissatisfied with the other party or have any grievances in our hearts, just say it directly, don't hide it, and be open and honest will last longer. "

Only then did An Mu understand the original intent of her complaint, and couldn't help but slap her.

"Are you embarrassed to say? Didn't you hide it from me about the hospitalization?"

"Ah...this...I...I want to talk about your transfer! Can you stop talking about crooked topics? No matter what, you can't suddenly disappear. Let's say it."

"It's been more than a year since the transfer, let's start with the nearest one. The hospitalization, and the previous beating of my deskmate, don't you hide it from me?"

Jian Yixi sighed, she could never talk about An Mu.

But it doesn't matter, she has a trick.

"Ohhhhhhhhhhh!"

"What's the matter? You're tugging again? You're slower."

Jian Yixi took the opportunity to turn her head, "You don't count."

"What's wrong with me?"

"You said that if I hurt, you will help me to blow. I am so painful now, and I haven't seen you help me to blow."

As soon as this was said, the aunt next to the bed turned her head and looked at Jian Yixi subconsciously.

Jian Yixi looked at An Mu with his back, but did not notice the aunt's eyes that care for the mentally retarded.

In front of the people in the room, An Mu was a little uncomfortable, but Jian Xi Qiyi's gaze could not ignore it. She didn't care to refute her original saying that "inject injections to help her blow", but lowered her voice. : "Someone, don't make trouble."

Jane Yixi flattened her mouth and felt terribly wronged.

"Just know you lied to me..."

It is said that sickness is the most vulnerable time for a person. It seems to be true. Although Jian Yixi is not sick or injured, the truth is the same. When she is uncomfortable, she really wants to behave like a coquettish woman.

An Mu had never been acted like a baby before, except for Jian Yixi, she found that she really had no choice but to act like a baby.

"Okay, well, it doesn't hurt to blow or blow."

An Mu leaned over and blew through her short sleeves.

Jian Yixi raised her arm again, revealing the bruises on the inside of her arm.

"It hurts here too."

The insertion injury is not serious, it has scabs, but Jian Yixi's skin is too white, especially the inner side of the arm is even more white, and the edge of the abrasion is extraordinarily bright red, which looks shocking.

Jian Yixi had been shrinking that arm before, and the injury was on the inner side. An Mu didn't notice it. At this moment, she couldn't help but frowned.

"This wound is so fresh, isn't it the same as the car accident, right?"

"I came out after the last test. I was so dizzy. I almost rolled down the stairs. I hurriedly pulled on the handrail of the stairs. But my arm was weak and I rubbed it down."

After speaking, Jane flattened her mouth with Xi, her eyes sparkling.

"It hurts, blowing."

An Mu felt distressed and angered, "Are you Xiaotai Jing possessed?"

"Um... blowing."

She still "huh"?

"I haven't seen it for more than a year, and the thickness of my face has also grown?"

Jian Yixi held up her arms persistently, in a posture that she would not let go if she didn't blow her.

An Mu looked around and looked at other family members and patients. Everyone was laughing. It wasn't malicious, because she probably thought it was funny that the little girl acted like a baby.

An Mu pursed her lips uncomfortably, fearing that she had been holding it like this and then pulling at the wound, she had to bow her head and blow.

"Blow, it doesn't hurt anymore."

"And here."

Jian Yixi pointed to the corner of her eye again.

"What's wrong here?"

The corners of the eyes are slightly red, but it is not an injury.

Jian Yixi said frankly: "It's getting angry."

"Is getting angry too?" An Mu was speechless.

-Count, why not count? It's hard to be cheeky and act like a baby, don't you want enough one at a time, thanks?

Jian Yixi also feels that her face has grown thicker.

Reluctantly, An Mu leaned over her eyes and blew again, fearing that it would be uncomfortable to blow into her eyes, so she acted.

After blowing up, she found that Jian Yixi's eyes were stunned, and her gaze seemed to be on her own mouth.

Shouted and didn't respond.

An Mu shouted again: "Jian Yixi? What's the matter?"

Only then did Jian Yixi return to his senses, her cheeks dizzy suspiciously.

"That...no, nothing."

This child is weird.

An Mu didn't think much about it. The adoptive mother came in, walking with wind, and said as she walked: "I wanted to come earlier. Who knew that I had missed the bus twice. I had known that I had just taken a taxi."

Taking a bus, but renting it costs a dozen yuan. The adoptive mother is used to it carefully, and An Mu can understand it. Moreover, it is estimated that Jian Yixi’s medical expenses are paid by the adoptive mother first, and it is not known whether the driver who caused the accident has been contacted.

An Mu said "It's okay" and then let go.

There is an adoptive mother, and it is not her turn to take care of her, and the adoptive mother will definitely not let her do it.

Jian Yixi lay and couldn't move. The adoptive mother made millet porridge. She took a thick straw and let Jian Yixi **** and drink directly. The adoptive mother took a dish and fed a steamed bun from time to time.

The foster mother turned to An Mu while holding the lunch box and said: "You go back and rest quickly, there is still food for you in the pot."

An Mu shook his head, "I won't go back. My aunt has to make lunch for lunch."

The adoptive mother said: "I won't do it at noon. I will buy something to feed her. I will go back in the afternoon and cook some chicken soup. I will not leave if it is delivered at night. If you can rest at home at night, you should also go back to Beijing tomorrow? Don't let the family worry about it."

"I won't go back." An Mu pressed the railing at the end of the bed and said, "I have finished the exam, and I have nothing to do. I'll stay with the bed here, and my aunt will deliver the food."

The adoptive mother's eyes rounded, "How can that work?"

An Mu smiled and said, "Why not? The nursing care is light, there is almost no work, but the food delivery is different. You have to buy, make, and run around. The most tiring, my aunt is going to be exhausted. ."

"No matter how tired I am, it should be you..."

"I should too, we are friends."

The adoptive mother was indeed a bit unable to make a move by herself, so seeing An Mu insisted, she didn't say more.

"Then you don't go home...then go out and have some good morning, I'll bring it to you if I know it."

"It's okay, I just want to drink tofu nao, it should be sold across the hospital."

An Mu went out for dinner and called the house by the way. After talking about the situation, An Mu was shocked when she heard that Jian Yixi had been in a car accident, and asked her to help a little bit, so she didn't rush back.

When An Mu left, there were only patients and family members in the ward, but when he came back, nurses and doctors were blocked.

The doctor is reprimanding Jian Yixi: "They all said that they had just had an operation, and waited two days before getting out of bed, what toilet are you going to?!"

The author has something to say: two in one

I'll quickly write another chapter