I Am With You Forever

The rays of the sunshine lights my eyes to rub it and wake my upper body in the bed,I sighed after looking at the window where birds chirping heard outside,I turned to my right escaping my legs from the blanket placing on the floor.My shirtless upper body only to be seen by only me not with her was anew for me.

In the past she would always cuddle with me,play with me,sleep with me in this room of mine and now it's looking empty and lonely without her.

She touches my eight packed abs everyday blushing in the morning sun and say good morning with a sweet innocent smile.

My eyes filled with tears holding back and this is the eight time I've been missing it and when I turned back to reality, a tear has already fallen from my eyes down to my cheeks.

I rubbed my eyes and wipe the the tears I was about drop then turned the door walking to the bathroom downstairs.

I brushed my teeth first,second cleaned my face and dry it off with a towel.

Then goes to the kitchen were the refrigerator is there,I took the meat and put the pan to the shellane...after a putting the oil and waited for minutes, I also heated some water to boil then I put the meat in the pan where the oil is bubbling a little.

Meal has prepared after even though it was meat,milk and some rice last night for this morning.Even though it's from last night I didn't want to waste it,I eated the food,washed the dishes into the sink then goes upstairs to my room and put some clothes.

White shirt,black coating,black pants and black shoes... typically is this some suit for a funeral? I guess so...I turned the door then locked it.

I drove with my Lamborghini way to the graveyard where Serah is sleeping deeply.

In the way to the graveyard I pass by to buy some flower bouquet to the shop with candles and match in the other one next to it.

\"I'm sorry... I'll be there soon\"gritting my teeth.

I didn't get to go to her burial because the pain was so great that i passed out never accepting that she's dead, I'm such a jerk right?I couldn't even come to her burial...I go out of the car with the flowers,candles and match and as I got closer the more my heart stings like it's pierced with hundreds of needles by the minute I got closer.

Putting the flowers to her grave and lighting the candles, I couldn't help but have like a river flow in my cheeks with sadness in my face.

I bended down in Japanese sitting style letting my tears fell to my thighs.

\"W-why did this happen to you?\" I asked as I sobbed.

\"If i just protected you to the last minute of your life i couldn't be more happier and yet this happened\"I said.

The wind gushed gently on me,like someone is holding my body gently wiping my tears off my face.

The clouds were dark as if the heavens weee mourning with me, it was gloomy and somewhat made me feel more saddened.

Droplets of rain began to shower this graveyard with me not moving an inch looking at my beloved's grave.

But what could i do?I didn't visit her burial to the last minute, I failed as a man to protect my woman...I just gritted my teeth, clenching my fists hard.

The candles fire died in this rain as i remembered what happened like candle she also died in a blink of an eye.

I heard footsteps coming closer behind me ,she was her mother.Wearing a black dress with black umbrella.

\"You're late child\"she sadly said.

\"Ma'am I-I\"

Widened my eyes for a surprise thay she was here and

before I could speak she stopped my words that is about to come out of my mouth.

\"It's okay, it's not your fault ...what would be the point if i angrily said words to you like why didn't you protect my daughter?you are a man right?...No that wasn't it because I knew you cared for her and treated her nicely...\"

\"I'm truely am sorry... I'm a failure a son and a man.\"

She covered her mouth letting tears escape as she holds the umbrella letting an unbalanced through her feet leaving her to just cry and sobbed.

The droplets of the rain stopped after that the sun showed upon us,the wind gently gushed again.

It was like a familiar feeling that's why her mom stopped crying.

\"No your not a failure Zane and I know that in my heart.\"

I smiled back to her when she said words pulling her with a hug.

'Thank you Ma'am\".

\"I continued to speak\"Would you like a lift to go home Ma'am?\"I asked.

She nodded as she folds the umbrella and goes to the car and formally let her in the front passenger seat while i in the driver's seat.

As I looked back far away and drove off, I see a girl in a white robe and a hat used for summer.I couldn't see clearly and when she uttered I couldn't hear her voice,but I lip read.

I widened my eyes in shock by what she said turning my towards to Serah's mom and looked back she was already gone.

It says \"I'll be back\"

I'll be back?What does that mean?that person just smiled and was too far away so I can't see her face.