I Cant Miss !!!

Sandra first-person speaker:

The next day I had slept and woke up thinking about everything that happened with me and Eazy yesterday. I had tossed and turned all night long and wasn't able to sleep well. I decided to ask my parents about this since I've never really been in a serious relationship and this was the first time that I truly enjoyed being with a man.

This is the same guy that had paid for all the expenses for my family trip and had even gone out of his comfort zone to visit my country. My whole family knows him including the ones in Cuba, with the love that I have for him getting in the way of my pride. I really needed to talk to somebody to get this off my chest.

In the morning before I went to school to I had approached my parents and told them about the situation they were shocked to hear about everything that had happened and didn't even blame Eazy for it. They told me that it was not his fault at all and everything happens for a reason. Just because this happened in an accident he shouldn't neglect that woman and the child and that I shouldn't be too selfish.

They said I should try to work things out with him because he's a good man and he's also going places and will be able to take care of me in the future as I work on my own dreams. I agreed to them but deep down inside I didn't feel too good about Eazy with that crazy girl Ivy so I decided to keep thinking on it and I had even prayed to God to give me answers, but he never responded back.

During school time I avoided him even when he tried to chase me down I told him to just leave me alone for now because I'm still thinking about it. He reassured me that he would still treat me the same and he would one day marry me if I choose to stick with him this made me tear up a little because I've always wanted a white wedding and saw in movies how beautiful it was without even knowing the drama that came with it.

I went through all my classes absent-mindedly. I know I needed to focus because I was in my senior year but on that day I was just totally out of it, even during track practice after school I didn't have the energy to run so the coach even had to send me home to get some rest. I talked to my parents some more and I finally came to a decision and that decision was to move on with my life. I have college coming up and I don't want to be worrying about somebody else's child or getting distracted by another woman.

Some of my family members back home in Cuba were depending on me to be successful in order to help them out. I contacted Eazy to come to pick me up for dinner, we went to Burger King since I didn't want to make it any fancy outing since I knew it was a breakup. Eazy had a bad feeling about this because normally if we're going to celebrate something we would go to a fancy restaurant, but we came to a fast food joint.

I also felt sad that I was losing Eazy because I gave him my all even my virginity but my pride wouldn't let me be with him maybe in the future if we cross paths again, but until now it's best that we go our separate ways. After leaving the restaurant he dropped me off at home and I told my parents everything that happened. They were not too happy with me for a few weeks but eventually got over it.

I knew that everything that had happened wasn't his fault but it was hard accepting the hard facts that were there and somehow I even blamed myself for what had happened because if I had taken care of him well all that wouldn't have happened so this started to affect my daily life but I decided to push through it even though my grades started to drop and my performance at track wasn't as good I pushed through until I was able to graduate and get into a good college where in the future who knows what would happen

End of Sandra POV