I just reborn, how come I become a scumbag?

Xu Anruo followed and walked a few more steps behind.

He frowned and pondered, and then he found that Cheng Xuanyu seemed to have an ostrich mentality.

She was always avoiding.

Even to put it bluntly, she was a bit self-deceiving!

Once she realized that Xu Anruo would say something she didn't want to hear, she would not let Xu Anruo speak.

When she found that Xu Anruo was following her, she would speed up her pace and stay away from Xu Anruo.

Then every time she came back to Xu Anruo as if nothing had happened, and treated what had happened before as if it had never happened.

But.

How could this be possible?

The problem will never disappear automatically just because it is avoided.

So the more she did this, the more Xu Anruo made up his mind to talk it out thoroughly.

This is good for both of them.

With this in mind.

Xu Anruo followed with a few big steps.

But she found that Cheng Xuanyu had stopped and stood there sideways.

Xu Anruo was stunned for a moment, looked over, and found that it was the entrance of the kindergarten they attended when they were young.

But it closed down a few years ago and has been abandoned.

Cheng Xuanyu stood for a while and walked inside.

There was a small door open there. When she walked to the door, she looked back at Xu Anruo, her eyes slightly red, but she smiled.

Then she walked in through the small door without saying anything.

Xu Anruo could only follow her footsteps.

The kindergarten still looked like it was when she was a child, but it was much more broken. There was a masonry elephant slide on the small flat ground in front of the building, which was the childhood memory of everyone who had read here.

Cheng Xuanyu walked to the elephant slide, squatted down, and seemed to be looking for something on the elephant's hind legs.

After a while, she excitedly shouted to Xu Anruo:

"Xu Anruo, come and see!"

"What?"

Xu Anruo walked over.

Following Cheng Xuanyu's finger, he saw two rows of characters carved on the inside of the elephant's hind leg.

The first row was "Xu Anruo".

The second row was just the character "Yu".

Xu Anruo then remembered that he had carved these characters himself.

After carving his own name, he found that the first two characters of Cheng Xuanyu had too many strokes, so he got stupid. Cheng Xuanyu said that he could just carve the character "Yu".

Damn, it's a good thing she said that at the time.

Otherwise, with this elephant leg cast in concrete, Xu Anruo would slowly drive himself crazy with the pencil sharpener he used back then.

But Xu Anruo didn't say anything. After taking a look, he stood up.

Cheng Xuanyu was still squatting there, with her back to Xu Anruo, and her bun looked very nice.

Then she said:

"Xu Anruo."

"I seem to be particularly afraid of going to unfamiliar places since I was a child."

"When I first went to kindergarten, then to elementary school, moved, went to junior high school and high school, it has always been like this. Every time I was very uncomfortable and sad."

"I thought it would be better when I grow up..."

"But I went to my aunt's house in Lucheng before, and I was very sad after just one day. It seemed that I couldn't be happy at all, as if..."

When Cheng Xuanyu said this, her voice was low and weak, with a bit of self-mockery.

Xu Anruo didn't want to listen anymore, so she was about to speak.

But as soon as she spoke, she was stopped by Cheng Xuanyu:

"Xu Anruo!"

"Listen, listen to me finish what I say, okay?"

Xu Anruo didn't say anything.

After a while, Cheng Xuanyu said again:

"I knew you when I was very young. You were there when I was in kindergarten, and you were there when I was in elementary school, junior high school, and high school..."

"I will be gone when we move!"

"But when we moved, I was about to cry. You told me that it was okay. I would come to you when I was sad. You would not move away. You, you would always be there."

Cheng Xuanyu's voice suddenly choked up.

Alas!

Xu Anruo sighed.

He reached into his pocket and found that there was no cigarette.

At this time, Cheng Xuanyu called out:

"Xu Anruo?"

"Huh?"

"When I first went to kindergarten, I cried so hard. You asked me to hold your hand, and then I stopped crying. Do you remember?"

After Cheng Xuanyu finished speaking, he squatted there, and then turned around to look at Xu Anruo.

His eyes were already wet and red, but he tried to force a smile. As his eyelashes moved, two bean-sized tears rolled down.

Xu Anruo's heart trembled.

He closed his eyes and clenched his teeth.

Then he turned his face to the side.

"Cheng Xuanyu, don't do this." Xu Anruo said.

"Xu Anruo, you, you don't do this either, okay?" Cheng Xuanyu cried.

Xu Anruo took another deep breath.

He thought for a moment and said:

"You know what? I had a dream. In the dream, we... IWe have our own lives, and everything is fine."

"Xu Anruo, why do you say that?"

"Cheng Xuanyu, escaping won't solve the problem."

"I, I don't understand, what dream? If it was a dream, then I, I have had many, many dreams that are the opposite of yours..."

Alas!

Xu Anruo was passive again.

He couldn't say that it was you, Cheng Xuanyu, who let me down in that dream.

With Cheng Xuanyu's current state, she didn't believe it, and she wouldn't admit it.

But Xu Anruo really felt that everything could not go back.

He was more or less resentful.

It was as if there was a thorn in his heart.

Xu Anruo couldn't think of any way to pull out this thorn.

He has such a bad temper.

When it's good, everything is good, passionate and crazy.

When it's not good, I feel it's not worth it and it's unnecessary. I'm more cruel than anyone else to cut it off!

After making a decision in his previous life, he didn't pay attention to any dynamics of Cheng Xuanyu.

Even if he drank too much and felt cheap, he would grit his teeth and suppress it.

But Xu Anruo didn't expect that he would be reborn.

When the 18-year-old Cheng Xuanyu stood in front of him again, dazzling and eye-catching .

He had resentment, but he really didn't have any anger.

He had failed in his previous life, so he just accepted it.

So Xu Anruo made up his mind that the sooner it was, the sooner it was over, and he would not disturb Cheng Xuanyu's future life.

The sentence "I let you fly and hurt my back" was self-deprecating, but also sincere, and it was Xu Anruo's character.

But he didn't expect it.

The eighteen-year-old Cheng Xuanyu was so ignorant.

Over and over again, step by step, he forced her to Xu Anruo had to tear his face off.

He took a deep breath.

Xu Anruo turned his head.

Cheng Xuanyu was still squatting there, facing the back leg of the elephant-leg slide with their names engraved on it, but she just buried her head, and her thin body twitched.

She seemed to be crying very hard and very sad, but she tried hard not to cry out loud.

After a moment of silence, Xu Anruo spoke in a light voice:

"Cheng Xuanyu, I don't like you anymore, let's just leave it like this."