I Scored Myself A Mate

It took a while for Alex to find Luke. He had searched first for him at the infirmary thinking he would be Mikael but the wounded wolf was alone. He hadn't spoken to him afraid that he would waste time and that the future Alpha would have left. He had a tightness in his chest at the thought of leaving things this way. It wasn't how things were supposed to end, he didn't want that. After all, he had felt so many emotions for Luke and for the first time in his life. He would hate to ruin those memories no matter how few they were. 

Luke in the end had been waiting at the palace entrance. Sitting alone in the cold as the snow slowly fell, snowflake by snowflake on his raven hair, creating a crown. His breath was coming out like puffs of thick mist and he rubbed his palms to make them warm. He had sat on a stair at the entrance, a few decades of them expanding in front of him. 

He immediately noticed Alex when he stood next to him and he raised his head to see him. Placing a palm above his eyes to block out the sun that created a hallo around the elegant elf. 

"You've changed" Luke told him and Alex shrugged his shoulders. He sat next to Luke.

"I think I look better now."

"I liked you better before, when you were Alex."

"I am still Alex." 

"You are not my Alex" Luke said and looked at his hands. Honestly he couldn't bear to watch him. See the familiar face of the boy he had liked, and worried and most of all hurt countless times, now changed into someone he didn't know. A man who had popped out of a fairytale. 

"You knew I wasn't human" Alex told him and Luke nodded as he pushed back the hair from his face. 

"I was freaking out. I…couldn't bear the thought of losing you, of you changing. I knew you had someone else that you loved. I lied about everything."

"You are the worst." Alex said his eyes watering. "Have you got any idea what I went through? All these thoughts? How all the lies broke me more and more every time?" He told him and Luke smiled bitterly. How could he not when he was the cause of it. He had been the reason everything was ruined and sometimes he wondered if their separation was inevitable maybe it would be best if he had cherished the few moments they belonged to each other. Let those feelings of love they felt last more, without having to lie, live a bit more happily. This doubt would never leave his mind. He would always regret his decisions. 

"Do you know how I felt? My whole world turned upside down. From one day to the other I was suddenly gay and with a mate. And above all that I had to find out that my mate which I truly liked and wanted to spent my life with, was not human and he loved someone else. That he would live me one day for him. Then there was my father, brainwashing my every decision making me even more obsessed and stupid. Honestly all I ever wanted was a peaceful life with my mate. I wanted to play soccer and get married, just be happy. Not like my father and when I found you I thought that maybe this dream would be possible. You were bright, cute and kind but soon everything crumbled because I knew I would never attain the love and future I wanted, because you would never be mine. I hated myself wondering why it couldn't be me and in my madness I really wanted to keep you close. I wanted to have someone who would love me. You know my mum and dad are not mates. They always hated each other. I wanted to avoid that. I didn't want to be him but his games ruined me. Alex I…honestly I am sorry but I really liked you" He told him with all the courage he could find in him. He felt so embarrassed admitting how weak he was. How he was at fault for everything. 

"You know; I was planning on beating you up. Swearing at you and kicking you out. How can I do that now." He said and laughed before he laid on the soft snow feeling the cold pierce his skin. "I am sorry too. I didn't know how it was for you but Luke you don't need a destined mate to be happy. You can love without fate deciding it for you" 

"Did you ever like me?" Luke asked him and the boy sat up and looked at him, his green eyes shocked.

"Of course! Are you serious? I had never seen someone as handsome and interesting as you. All these happy moments we had, are precious to me. You meant a lot more than you think." Alex told him and Luke let out a sigh. Everything was so confusing. He didn't know if he should cry. Did he have the right to cry? Feel sad after everything he did? He couldn't stop himself though. He didn't want this goodbye to happen. He still felt the pull and it was horrible. It was as if he had a collar around his neck and every time he was trying to convince himself to get away the collar would choke him, making him beg for air. It was so painful. 

"Thing turned out pretty shitty" he concluded and Alex laughed. "So how do we call you now? Alex, Allias?" 

"For you I think I will always be Alex." 

"I will call you Allias" The young wolf told him. "It is too painful for me to call you Alex. I…I still see him in you and I can't stop thinking of all the dreams I made. I just feel like I was all alone in this" 

"No" Alex told him and the grey eyed boy looked at him. "That is not true. I felt things for you…to some extent a part of me still does so seeing you like this hurts me. I am sorry. That it had to be me. Really. Not because I hate you but because I know that deep down you are kind, you can find happiness I was just a bump in the ride."

"You were so much more honestly." Luke said "Thank you for believing in me. You were the only one who did. You and Mikael. I guess if you want to hit me you can do it now" Luke said and stood up. Alex followed, mimicking his movement and both of them stood at the palace entrance. 

Now the green eyed elf was slightly taller than him, he didn't seem weak and fragile in need of his embrace and protection. He was a mighty king now. A known warrior, he would never need Luke again and if he ever needed someone he had Theseus, the man he really loved. While tears streamed on his face he closed his eyes shut. 

"Do it now, punch me, kick me, take your revenge"

"You know I stepped on your head yesterday, right?" Alex asked him.

"I do but I sense it's not enough. So do it, now." He told him and took a deep breath "But like not full force. I have a feeling you will send me far away if you do that. Do it. I am ready" He said and frowned waiting for the collision. 

He was surprised though. He didn't feel any pain, at least no physical pain. His heart broke though when he felt Alex's soft palms cup his face and his luscious lips touch gently his forehead where he kissed him. He opened his eyes in shock and Alex gave him a warm smile, a smile that could bring spring back and for a second he realized why the elf king was adored by all. He was now in front of him in his full glory and he was mesmerizing. A light in an endless dark.

"I think I am done with the hate and the violence. This is not who I am and you too should take some time for yourself. You are not like your dad but you might become if you don't learn to control yourself. Take it as an advice from someone older. I actually never thought I would say something like that" He joked and Luke placed his palm on top of Alex's. Just for one more second he wanted to prolong this caring touch. He hadn't felt such warmth in a while. Alex did not seem to want to leave. It was the last time they would meet after all. The last time like this. Two broken up lovers who after all didn't share the same path. One day they would meet again as leaders, discussing strategies and treaties and then Luke could not search for his warmth again. He has someone else now. 

Still even though he knew all that he couldn't stop himself. It was an unexplainable attraction that one day could end up being destructive. A force he just couldn't resist no matter how hard he tried to and now that Alex was like this in front of him, dressed in all of his kindness, smiling like this with his warmth surrounding him he felt like he was being even more charmed. Alex was dangerous, Luke always knew it but Allias, he…he was lethal. 

Luke was sure he would get in trouble the moment he brought Alex closer and saw the surprise in his face. He blinked trying to understand but the wolf seemed to be faster than his comprehension. So he took advantage of him one last time. One final time.

He kissed him passionately. His lips crushing to his, his mind going blank as he tasted him again after so long. He could get addicted to this even though it was wrong. The forbidden moments felt the sweetest and for a second he forgot everything as he managed to steal the kiss he so desired. 

A final goodbye to his love with a final kiss.