I Scored Myself A Mate

"I don't want to get married! Agh! I wish I could just disappear" Allias shouted in the middle of the woods, hitting his foot on the mud and slashing brown dots everywhere, dirtying his light colored trousers. 

He had ran away. From his mother and his lover who was too mysterious to tell him what is going on and too scared to stay with him. He needed to breathe but as he found himself alone he felt more and more as if he was suffocating. He had so many responsibilities and they were too hard to carry. He knew he could do it with Theseus by his side but he had the tendency to just disappear without a word then return back and look at him with that charming smile of his and Allias would forgive him even he burned his whole palace down. He hated the idea of being a lonesome king. The Wight of his crown would bring him down and the bitter taste of his dreams would poison him as he withered away like an old flower. 

He sighed as always. The weight in his chest always there strong and unbreakable. He kicked one of the old trees right in the middle of its trunk and the sound of it breaking and falling to the ground was almost deafening. 

He grabbed a brunch and began walking while he made lines in the dirt. He could smell orange blossoms and he followed the fresh smell till he reached a small field. Bright orange fruits were on the branches hanging and he grabbed one peeling it carefully.

"So you ran away because you were hungry?" He heard Theseus' familiar voice ask.

"Very funny" the prince snorted as he sat on the grass eating a piece of his orange. "Why are you still here? Don't you have some kind of mysterious mission to save the world? Go along you don't have to look for me. I am completely fine after I made a fool of myself to my mother, the queen defending a love just to get rejected. Funny, I know."

"Allias there are some things that you can't understand."

"I'm pretty sure it's not because I can't. It's just that you won't tell me. But it's fine. I give up. What is the reason of holding on to someone who doesn't want to stay? Have fun traveling the world I will be here being forced in an unwanted marriage." He said and threw the peels of the fruit away. Theseus took a few steps, his dark outfit really standing out in the vivid nature. He screamed Disee from miles away while Allias was the exact opposite. He matched the scenery perfectly, as if he belonged there. He stood in front of him, the young prince raising his head and placing his palm above his eyes to block the sun and be able to see well. 

"Run away with me" Theseus said and Allias chocked on his orange. He began coughing and his face turned a bright red, his eyes almost popping off his head as he searched for air. Theseus crouched and hit his back, waving his head at how hopelessly in love he was with someone who couldn't even swallow properly.

"Are you serious?" The boy asked him and a spark ignited in his eyes.

"I am. I wish I could tell you to run away with me Allias. I wish it was that easy but I can't. I need to become better before I come for you. Believe me. I want to stay."

"There is no time anymore Theseus." Allias said with a bitter smile. "You are always tortured by that thought you know. Of not being good enough. Of not being able to do anything but you don't have to be good enough for everyone, just for me and believe me you are more than that. Oh, how I wished you would understand that so my poor heart would ache less. Because then I would have you by my side," he confessed and caressed his cheek. Allias felt like they would always have moments like this, moments when Theseus fath would crumble and he would question everything but somehow Allias was alright with that. Everyone had their fears and wounds he didn't mind reassuring him every single time. A gentle touch, a kind smile and a caring kiss. No matter what he needed so he would be at peace he would do it and while they were facing each other Theseus would know that Allias could only see him. There was nothing before him and the main character in this play he called his life was him. They were together and he felt that with him the whole world could turn against them and he wouldn't mind. Even when Allias was scared of his responsibilities, of being weak and left alone Theseus would soothe the pain. The same way he did for him. Oh, what an epic way to complete eachothers. Life was not only filled with smiled but tears and screams. They wouldn't silence each other, or try to hide the ugly scars. They would shout together at the edge of the cliff and laugh about the funny marks. Allias was sure that if he stayed they would do that. "Stay." He said and the word was a mere whisper that seemed to hurt Theseus more than it should. It was just letters, after all. Just a word. But why did it sing? Like something was stuck on his heart. 

"I am scared Allias" Theseus said and tears left his lilac eyes. "I am scared that I will make you unhappy. That you will end up doing things for me and I will be useless." 

"Is your love for me useless?" Allias asked him.

"No."

"Then please. I am such a fool for begging. You have a king pleading for you to stay. I am sick of my cold bed and the way my sheets lose your smell. I am sick of waking up to an empty room and an empty heart so I am begging you if you truly love me don't let me get married." Allias said and Theseus grasped with his fists a full of grass. He was frustrated with himself and he felt his fingernails dig into his pale skin as he fought with his fear. 

"I love you Allias, more than myself, more than anyone."

"Then..." 

"But I can't hold you back. You are meant to rule. To lead and I am just an obstacle. The girl your mother has found..."

"Don't say anything else. Please stop." Allias said and placed his palms in front of his face to stop himself from wailing loudly. "Just leave" he told him with his eyes closed tightly as he tried not to show his tears. 

"Please try to understand me. Our worlds are different and I honestly want to be with you more than anyone but I ....do I deserve it?" He said ending his sentence in a very important question and Allias opened his eyes. "Do I deserve it? The way I am?"

"I don't know what else to say to you. How else to show you that I do not care who you are. I do not care about your status, your money or your name. To me you're Theseus, the attractive man I met in an alley when I tried to run away from my eighteenth birthday. To me you are the charming man that danced with me under the moonlight on my nineteenth birthday and gifted me his heart. To me you are so much more than just a name and for that I am in so much pain Theseus. I do not want to part with you."

"I don't want to either but I can't stay. I am sorry. I don't feel like I can. You won't be happy with me like this." 

"Then what if I wait?" Allias asked him and Theseus looked at him dumbfounded. "What if I wait more? As long as it takes but promise me that you will come to me. Back to me always and I will be the only one who has your heart. Swear to me you will never love someone else in your journeys and that you will dream of me the same way I do. Promise me that you will return to me and that one day we will make this palace our home. We will wake up from the bright sun and let the warm wind in from the balcony. Promise me that you will take me dancing again and that we will train together and read. Swear to me that you will think of me and write to me. Swear that you will not leave me and I will wait. For as long as it takes like the fool I am." 

"I swear. I promise. I will always love you and come back to you until the day we are ready. Both of us. I am sorry for loving you this much, for hurting you this much. I am sorry I couldn't stop thinking of you when I met you and came like a storm into your life. Sorry that I cannot let go. Sorry" Theseus apologized as he held Allias' hands. The boy gave him a bitter smile and he stood up, dusting off some dirt from his pants and wiping his salty tears.

"I guess this is another goodbye."

"Yes but I will come back."

"Goodbye Theseus ." Allias told him as he watched him disappear. He became a thick smoke that thickened more and more until he was never there. Maybe he was really some kind of illusion to satisfy Allias loneliness. Maybe he wasn't real, how could he be. Those lips, those eyes. The daily long hair and perfect body. The soothing voice and that warmth of his embrace. How could a love like this be real and not have a happy ending? He wondered and tended his hand to where Theseus stood. Again he was alone. He felt a ripping pain on his chest. He let out a scream as he fell down on his knees grasping at his shirt.

"No! Don't go!" Allias shouted as he woke up drenched in sweat. He looked at his shaking hands and then like a crazy person he stared around him. Where was Theseus? He wondered and he stood up heading towards the door. 

"Theseus?" He screamed at the corridor and he couldn't recognise his own voice. He touched his neck confused. 

"What are you doing?" A guard told him that stood outside of his room. "Get dressed you have to appear at the throne room. It's morning."

Right. It was punishment day.

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Hello hope you enjoyed this chapter!

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Thanks for reading! I hope I am giving a clear image of Theseus'and Allias' relationship throughout these flashbacks. I really want to show the strong bonds that sometimes might bring us to someone and how our fears can hurt not only us but the ones we love. Even when we are thinking of the best.