I Scored Myself A Mate

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Alexander was anxious. As another day came he couldn't stop thinking about Luke and what he is going through. He didn't want to be a nuisance; he didn't want to be repetitive but he just wanted to know what would happen between them. He was aware that this probably wasn't the best time, that the chaos that was surrounding the new Alpha was much more important but no matter how hard he tried he just couldn't himself from knocking on Luke's door that morning. His fist gently touched the polished wood twice, the sound being haste, hesitant as his worries held him back. At first he got no answer and after taking a deep breath he knocked again, this time with confidence, chest slightly puffed as he wanted to show how sure he was of himself. 

Hearing Luke's deep voice behind that door though, calling him in almost paralyzed him. He placed his palm on the doorknob and twisted the cold metal slowly before he peaked inside. Their eyes met and Luke smiled, as he saw him, shy with a pair of blushed cheeks. He was sitting on his father's chair, his arms on the desk as he held a piece of yellow paper. He actually had a pen resting on his left ear and a smudge of blue ink on his nose. He seemed slightly overwhelmed by the paperwork, his body hidden by the piles of paper but at the same time he looked quite handsome. This kind of appearance, that intellectual aura wasn't something the young wolf had witnessed a lot while he was on the wolf's side. Luke had always been characterized as impulsive and hot headed so now seeing him in a proper office, doing work like that was very surprising. 

Since the older man noticed that Alexander was standing behind the door, simply looking at him lost in thought he snapped his fingers in front of him to grab him out of his day dreaming. The green eyed boy blinked once before his lips parted. He suddenly felt embarrassed standing there like a creep and he awkwardly walked inside, closing carefully the door as he didn't want to make that much noise. 

"Good morning." Luke said and Alexander smiled. 

"Good morning. How have you been?" he asked him and the wolf sighed, a bitter smile on his face before he rubbed his forehead, creating a red patch from the friction. His reaction was enough for Alexander to know that things were not good. His problem was though that things were never good. He just couldn't find the chance to begin this kind of conversation and every time something would happen. He needed to care for himself once, his feelings and his pained heart even if he angered Luke. 

"Bad. Mostly. Tired and angry. I don't know everything is just a mess and I am simply exhausted." Luke told him honestly and Alexander took a seat on the armchair in front of the desk. The light of the morning sun was passing through the open windows and drawn curtains and a ray landed on his seat, making it warm. He tried to smile, hoping that could somehow comfort Luke but he couldn't. He felt bad, guilty even for wanting to bring that up at that moment. "But why are you here? It's really early. You could've slept a bit more actually." He said and Alexander nodded. The truth was he hadn't slept all night. He had been thinking and sitting on his desk, writing possible speeches, trying to find a way to express himself in a good way. He took another deep breath as he felt like he would suffocate. The room began seeming too small. 

"Luke I…I need to talk to you about something" he mumbled and the Alpha tilted his head to the side. His voice came out as a really low whisper and the Alpha had to think about what Alexander had said twice to put the words together. Once he had understood he frowned. He looked at the boy noticing that he was pale. His eyes had big dark circles underneath them and he seemed slightly tired. His shoulders were slumped while he was playing nervously with the end of his shirt. 

"Is everything alright? Have you been feeling unwell? You can talk to me you know." He said and with his hand he stopped him from making those nervous movements. He took his cold hand in his and smiled, wanting to encourage him into opening up his heart. Alexander looked around at the messy desk. Adam had left everything behind, Luke was alone with almost no guidance and e instead of shutting up and standing at his side as his support he wanted to ask for more, he wished to get answers. He was the one who had said he was fine by staying simply at his side but now things had changed, Luke had kissed him. They had shared a kiss and if they hadn't been interrupted by Mikael that day maybe things would have evolved even more. He had the right to know, he felt like he was walking in a pitch black corridor, his hands in the air as he desperately followed just the sound of Luke's voice and every time the voice would change the spot they came from. It was an endless maze that he couldn't get out of because he was blind. 

"I am sorry. I know that now is not the best time, I know that things are difficult but I need to know. Luke, what will happen with us? What are we? Can you please tell me? I feel so insecure like this." Alexander said and looked at him in the eyes. He bit his lip, anxious as he watched Luke's expression change really fast. He had been gentle, willing to hear his troubles, holding his hand but the moment their relationship took the spotlight he became cold, distant and he stopped their physical contact, leaving Alexander's hand alone on the cold desk, his warmth gone. 

"Alexander, you know that things are complicated now. You said it yourself so why would you ask me something like that now? I don't have the time to think about this. Please" he said and he sounded like he was fed up with him. His stare was strict, stating that he didn't want to continue this situation any further. 

"Then when will it be a good time? There is always something, always a problem so…"

"Well I am sorry that my life is so problematic!" Luke told him annoyed. 

"That's not what I meant!" Alexander shouted and stood up. He had his hands in fists on his sides, trying to stop himself from saying things he didn't mean but his heart was aching. Every time he would get rejected by Luke he would hear another crack being created. The sound was haunting and he couldn't help but wonder when would his heart shutter completely. Then he would be left with nothing. "All I am saying is that I would wish to know where we stand. I like you Luke, I like you a lot and I want to be by your side. Do you feel the same about me? Be honest. Tell me what you want. We need to make things clear. I can't deal with all that back and forth, it's hurtful." He said mustering all the courage he had. Luke's expression was scary, his grey eyes had turned cloudy and his muscles had gotten tense. Alexander had finally found the strength to talk about this topic, he couldn't back down now. 

"Weren't you the one who said that would be by my side no matter what? Did you lie? Why would you pressure me like this when you know I can't be in a relationship at the moment it's honestly really…"

"We kissed!" Alexander shouted. "I kissed you and you kissed me back, you told me that you liked me, that you need me but you still deny to be with me. What am I then? Am I a person you just randomly ask for when you are alone? Kissing someone…"

"It was just a fucking kiss! I didn't propose to you Alexander. Seriously grow up!" Luke shouted, interrupting him and the younger boy gasped. Really he never believed that Luke would say something like that. He made him feel stupid and immature, as if he was paying too much attention to every single one of Luke's actions. Like he was some kind of obsessed teen with a crush on him. 

"You are a piece of shit!" Alexander screamed at him and his eyes began changing their color. The green shade slowly disappeared and his eyes started shining a gold shimmer. Luke's eyes widened and he raised his arms in defense. He took a few steps towards him but Alexander avoided him. His breathing had turned ratchet as his blood begin to flow faster on his body. 

"Alexander calm down" Luke told him in a calm manner but the boy simply scoffed. Sharp claws had slowly began growing on his fingertips and Luke eyed them carefully. This whole thing was going terribly wrong. "Listen to me…"

"Listen to you?" Alexander ask, his voice now sounding more like a growl. "About what?  Listen to your insults or how much of a fool you think I am? Fuck you Luke, fuck your selfishness and fuck your stupid stereotypes. Fuck everything about you!" Alexander shouted and the man tried once more to approach him. Alexander annoyed growled at him and when Luke tried to grab him he raised his arm, slashing his face with his claws. Luke whined, touching his cut open cheek as blood flowed everywhere on his palm. "I…Luke…I…" he mumbled in shock. 

"Alexander."

"No! Get away from me." He shouted as his body slowly began shifting. The alpha gave him a worried look as the boy rushed towards the door. 

"Wait!" Luke called out but he had already disappeared. He was holding his wounded cheek, feeling the piercing pain of the ripped flesh, the blood dumping his clothes and plopping loudly on the floor in huge beams. He sighed and rushed to his office phone. 

Alexander was out there, shifting alone while the council was in the building. This was terrible.