I Scored Myself A Mate

Is there a possibility to love someone more than yourself? To kneel in front of them and give your everything just to earn a gaze from a pair of a seductive eyes? To Theseus this was his reality. Every step, every single thought reminded him that he existed to serve, he had been given a life and a purpose from a man, a king that shone so brightly, smiled so purely and spoke of peace with such passion that his own darkness somehow seemed to disappear. Theseus couldn't even breathe at the thought of losing him and when it happened, when that nightmare became true his whole world crumble, it got destroyed, as if it was a sandcastle hit by the raging waves. 

From the moment he had seen Allias, from the very first second he knew he would never be able to take his eyes away. Not in that obsessive, destructive way. In the way of always being worried, afraid of losing his only love. Theseus sometimes wished he could look away, find peace for a second and not be tortured by the distance that he felt between them. His eyes, purple, like an amethyst always followed him, always looked out for him just to make sure he wouldn't disappear again. But even now, that he could follow the powerful king with his eyes, now that he was always on his side, slept and woke up with him he still felt that there was something missing. No matter how many times he talked about it, no matter what he did Allias to him was getting further and further away.

His love, the one bearing a bloody crown, the one with a broken nation resting in his palm wished to bear his pain all alone. Hidden away in some kind of dark corner of his smile while he gifted him hidden smiles. That was why Theseus couldn't find peace, because he was aware that behind his back, behind the I'm alright Allias was melting, like an old candle. Once he would be happy, a fleeting moment of joy while the next he would whither like a forgotten flower and no matter what he did he wouldn't come to life, only momentarily just to ease the general's pain, short as the lifespan of a butterfly. 

The king right now was withering. Right in front of his eyes, laid on the dirty forest. Sweating and panting he groaned, mumbling something and Theseus could only run towards him as his heart fluttered with immense worry. His love, once again had hidden himself just so he could feel this pain all alone, a pain Theseus wasn't even aware of. 

"Allias!" he called out and the man looked at him. He smiled faintly, his eyes half opened. That smile hurt him, the lie that created it was poisonous, darkening his heart. "What happened?" he asked him. 

"I am fine, it's just that I am a bit exhausted, Ares' driving did not help much." He mumbled, his voice coming out almost like a whisper. 

"Allias, exhaustion does not do this, tell me. What's wrong? What happened?" he asked again, hoping that the more he pressured him the more he could reach to getting an answer. He watched his lover like this, placing his palm on his forehead to realize he was burning up in a high fever and he couldn't help but feel angry. Talk to me! He screamed on his mind, please, count on me. I want to support you. It was the same issue all over again. 

"I'm not lying my love. Just sit here, next to me and let's rest for a bit. We will have to leave soon. I can't wait to have Mark back." He said and patted the ground next to him. Theseus did not obey though. He simply remained crouching in front of him, examining him with his eyes, trying to find out what's wrong with him. 

"Allias please, tell me what's causing this? If I don't know I can't help you. Elves don't get sick like this. Be honest with me. We've talked about this so many times, I…I can't do anything if you don't tell me." He said and Allias smiled. He slowly raised his arm and caressed his cheek. 

The king wished to hide it. Everything. Every bit that could worry his tired lover. He looked at him, realizing somehow he had ended up keeping so many secrets, unaware of the ones Theseus kept. He had used his powers, he had asked Asmodeus to ruin the valley, he had killed one of the sisters and he had ended up being cursed. Which one of these could he say to worry Theseus the least?

"I am telling you the truth" he said and the general sighed. He had a frown on his face. Wrinkles forming in between his eyebrows, his eyes fell in front of his forehead, covering up the anger in his eyes. "But now that I am thinking about it, I suppose I might have eaten something bad back at the troll camp. One of the foods had a weird taste." He blatantly lied and Theseus stared at him filled with disappointment. 

"Really? Is this where we've come to? Lying in front of each other's faces like this? Food poisoning?  Was that the best thing you could tell me to get rid of me?" Theseus told him, raising his tone as he stood up. Allias looked at him, trying to think of something to ease his anger, slowly the pain on his hand seemed to subside and his senses returned. It came like a wave, a crushing pain only to leave him after he had suffered enough. He didn't feel the dryness in his throat for now and his vision improved slowly. He could see his lover clearly, the disappointment and the pain in his eyes. He was aware he was being lied to.  His heart felt the truth and Allias knew the pain he was causing. It was still better though, he knew Theseus very well, so well that he could predict his reaction. The chaos and the anger, he could see it. 

"It's not like that Theseus. I am already feeling better." He said and supported himself on his arm. He got up slowly, wanting to show him that now he was fine but that made the elf general even more suspicious, even more angry. "I am telling you. It was just exhaustion. I am still not perfectly used to my old body, and my powers are slightly weird, there is a lot." 

"Allias. This doesn't make sense. You know that right? One second you're perfectly fine then you look like you're dying to be fine immediately. I am not stupid dammit. Have you not realized that I am always looking at you? I have eyes only for you. I know when there is something fucking wrong. Get it through you thick skull. I know. I know that you are lying to me like I am some kind of idiot!" he said angrily and punched the tree trunk behind him. Allias sighed, his chest rising witnessing his behavior. This was exactly what he didn't want to experience but as it seemed he had to no matter what happened, no matter what he said Theseus would always get angry with him. 

"You know what? How do you expect me to tell you things when the first thing you do is get angry at me?" Allias asked him, raising his tone too. "I don't want to burden you? Is that such a bad thing? I don't know anymore. Everything is getting shittier by the day and I want you for once to be happy and not think about me! Is that so stupid of me? But no, no matter what you will get furious and start punching things because it is not going your way. I can do it too!" Allias shouted and kicked the tree he used for rest. The round of the trunk cracking was heard and slowly the tree was cut in half, falling to the ground with a loud bang. "Do I feel better now? Hell no."

"I am always getting mad? Are you insane? Allias I have supported you through everything. Every stupid thing you've done, all your depressive episodes, the killing oh and do not let me start about you cheating on me!" Theseus exploded. "I have showed so much patience to your childish tantrums, your soul searching and every shit you had on your mind that I will not sit here and listen to you judge me like that. I have always, always tried to be next to you, to lessen your burden but you keep rejecting me. I am calm, I am always calm!" he shouted and Allias laughed, watching how calm he was right now. 

"You're calm? You're calm? Then be calm at this. I used my powers." He said and Theseus' eyes widened in shock. "Not only that but I also killed one of the sisters, yes I turned that bitch to dust and it felt good. Then she cursed me" he revealed and ripped the sleeve of his shirt, showing him the curse mark on his arm. "How calm are you from one to ten right now?" he asked him but Theseus didn't answer. 

"You idiotic fucker…" the general mumbled and rushed towards him aggressively.