I Scored Myself A Mate

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TA-uT1jE4O4 - Chapter Music

It was a very hesitant knock, Alex could barely hear it and when he allowed the stranger behind his door to come in he realized why. Now cleaned up and in a much better condition Luke was gazing upon him as he laid in his bed, still thinking about his dream. He was confused, he couldn't have found a worse time to appear before him but he tried to conceal that. His anger. It would overflow one day and he knew it, but as the boy with the eyes that mirrored the moon stood before him he took a deep breath and tried to calm down. His look was still cold but his heart was at a crossroad. He was seeing him clearly after quite a while, it almost seemed like years had passed and between them he realized that a huge distance had been created, one that saddened him and seemed endless. 

"I'm sorry if I'm disturbing you but I think that we need to talk." Luke said and Alex scoffed, mocking him. Even bedridden and hurt he didn't want to allow Luke to make him feel little, he shouldn't. 

"What do we have to say? You keep going off on your own and messing things up anyways." He told him and Luke smiled bitterly as his head fell. He was right and that hurt the prideful male. Was there even a chance for him?

"It's a beautiful day outside so why don't I help you…we can visit the garden. I've brought you a coat." He told him and Alex noticed that he was indeed holding a long white coat, with fur on the top. Some animal had definitely been killed for that to be made and he wondered if they knew what synthetic furs were or even cared. 

"I don't think I want to go anywhere with you" 

"I want to talk to you about…what Theseus ordered. I mean I need to tell you the truth, things are not how you think. Julius he…"

"I don't care Luke" He said even though Theseus name was a temptation. When he heard what he had done, of the order that he had given he felt like that ground he so eagerly he believed that he had found was splitting in two beneath his feet. A black hole had been created that pulled him down, swallowed him hole. He had thought that the elven king was different. He remembered that smile he had given him when he stood in front of the hunters, the peace he had brought to his mind so everything crumbled, slowly he wished to be deaf and not hear. No more lies. 

"Please, this is the last time I will come and bother you and if you decide it I will never speak to you again just please let me tell you the things that I wanted." Luke looked at him like a puppy and not like an angry wolf anymore. He was waiting patiently, standing at the door, holding the coat and hoping that he would get to change his mind, give him a chance to say all the things he wanted, even if he had tried to do that once more with more wicked means, by charming him to accept his words. 

"Fine, Help me up. Also, don't waste my time" he said trying to act tough. The moment though Luke's smile lit up his whole face he felt like his heart was melting. He needed to stop going back and forth with his feelings but why was it so hard? Was it his instinct? That mating bond that even if he hated him somehow made Alex desire him? Those feelings were like invisible shackles and as Luke approached him, helping him stand on his feet, holding the coat for him to wear and taking his hand to lead him to the garden he saw an image that he had hoped for when he had met him. 

All he had been wanting was to live peacefully with him, explore the woods in front of the compound together, play soccer and achieve victory. He wanted a normal life with him, he wanted the smiles he never received when he was younger, he wanted happiness but this image was shattered brutally many times. Now it was quiet, early in the morning as he walked the icy halls and he felt that calmness, the heat of Luke's hand spreading on his body.

The garden was beautiful. The snowy scenery made everything a bright white as the sun slowly rose between the rocky mountains. You could see the endless territory and when it stopped, reaching the palace walls. Outside were the elven people. His people and he was their prince. Once upon a time he was their ruler. Had they forgotten about him? What was his story? He wondered as they strolled around. He hadn't told anyone of this secret knowledge of his. He sensed that if anyone found out it would be dangerous. There were snowy paths, the soft fresh snow looking almost like cotton, that led to small gazebo. It had vines wrapped around the white painted wood, and Alex could imagine beautiful flowers growing in the summer, a summer that never came.

Luke led the way, carefully helping him too so he could sit in there, protected by the falling snowflakes. Everything was white around him, the leaves had fallen from the tall trees and there wasn't even the slightest hint of flowers, or even people enjoying this wintery view. 

The wolf swept off the snow from the bench and signaled him to sit while he stood standing. He appreciated the though and rested there. He had taken too many steps already and was feeling weak. Alex was protected by the cold through his coat. It was heavy but incredibly soft and he almost felt like he was shielded by everything around him. The one problem was that the edges of the fur at the top made his neck a bit itchy above his bandages and he had no way of scratching it so he tried very hard to ignore it.

"You were meaning to leave me that day" Luke began saying. "Without a word"

"I told you, many times. I warned you. I asked for your attention, for you to hear me out but you never did."

"So did you stop caring for me? Is that it?" Luke asked him and the boy sighed. This is not what they were supposed to be talking about. He had spoken about some truth. Something that Alex needed to know. 

"You said you wanted to tell me something about Theseus" Luke looked at him offended. He couldn't believe how he just overlooked his question that was referring to their relationship and asked him about another man. Why did he care so much to know about Theseus that he didn't want to answer him? In reality it wasn't only that, it wasn't only that he was interested in Theseus it was also that he was confused, he didn't know what he should answer. 

"Why do you care about him?" Luke asked raising his tone. 

"You said about some truth something I needed to know."

"We need to talk about us now. Don't you get it? We are mates!" Luke shouted and immediately took a step back rubbing his face. He was getting out of control again. "Why do you always do this to me? Making me lose my temper."

"What?"

"This is all your fault. Our relationship ending up like this. If you had just listened to me then…" Alex was not surprised by his words. He had realized how he was by now. When he was being backed in a corner, when things did not go his way he would always blame others. But even if he knew it, it still irritated him and seriously he couldn't take much more. If he could get up and punch him, he would have done it already.

"Oh fuck you! How dare tell me this is my fault? You lying in front of my face was my fault? You being an egotistic bastard was my fault too? You brought me here for what? To blame me?! I always wanted to have a good relationship with you, I wanted you! I could only see you even if we faced so many hardships but when I called out to you, when I needed to talk to you, you chose yourself, every time."

He was creating that hate in him again and the peace he had acquired when they just walked in the winter silence vanished. He was bringing back the need for destruction that deep anguish in him that Alex despised feeling. 

"Don't try to pin this on me. I did everything. Everything I believed was right for you, to make you happy!" Luke shouted and his hands moved manically in the air. 

Alex tried to get up. He wanted to leave, he didn't want to be a part of this conversation any more. He didn't want to be a part of this relationship either. He just wanted to go away, somewhere far away and stop hurting. 

He was too weak, he slipped and almost fell until Luke caught him, wrapping his strong arms around him and bringing him close, he took a deep breath as he closed his eyes. He was still holding him but Alex did not feel good, he didn't want to be touched right now, his wounds hurt and he just wanted to run away, he felt like Luke was suffocating him just by being here and once more after a while he felt that pain on his chest again. 

"Ouch" he mumbled and frowned.

"Are you alright?" Luke asked him

"No let me go"

"No, I don't want you to leave me again" He said grasping him with a stronger grip. Alex began twisting and turning hoping he could set himself free but obviously Luke was stronger than him. Obviously, he was at a disadvantage…again.

"Let go of me!"

"No! Calm down."

"I did not intend to leave you Luke! I did. I DID LEAVE YOU!" Alex screamed at his eyes getting blurry. This feeling of someone placing his palm on your lips and silencing you. The feeling of being restrained, the feeling of being touched against his will was petrifying. He felt like his heart would stop and for some despicable reason it felt…familiar. "Let me go!"

He screamed again and again but Luke simply pushed him on the bench, hovering on top of him, restraining him not only with his hands but with his legs too.

"Alex listen to me." He commanded him with a growl and Alex felt like he was going to die, he was scared. He whined and began shaking filled with fear.

"Please, let me go" he begged but Luke wasn't listening.

"He told you to let him go…or are you too stupid to understand basic words?" Someone said.