I Swear I Won't Bother You Again!

"It's been a while! This is how I eat with onee-sama."

I see.

Mary Jun smiled happily with Nikoniko and raised her mouth sharply. I don't know if I can call it a smile, but fortunately, a beautifully arranged face can cover up a little unnatural. There was no comparison with eating alone, and in an appetite that fell even further than when four people, including my father, were surrounding the table, all I had to do was slice the bread I had in my hand into bite-size pieces. I know the cooking in the corner will get cold, but if I pass through my throat now, it will definitely flow backwards without swallowing.

"Are you coming home after studying today?

"Yeah, the tests are getting closer, so we have to do our best!

"Don't push me, okay? Take a good break."

"Thank you. Everything's fine around here! Yuran, you'll notice and tell me."

"Nh...."

And in the name of Yuran he hardened himself. It's not surprising, it's not shocked, it's almost a conditional reflex. When the name of a valued person comes out of a person who is unconscious, it makes them surprised and anxious. I know Mary Jun has no intention of doing that, but sometimes people do harm easily. I don't want to imagine if Yuran has any bad thoughts, or if he has an unexpected conversation... either.

I was convinced that Yuran would be fine for no reason, but it was also true that a small envy had sprouted.

(I haven't been able to talk at all lately....)

Even yesterday, I couldn't see him, and I couldn't get the impression of a little Iméchen. Basically I was talking about lunch or after-school, but now they're both buried. Especially Yuran, in addition to her study group with Mary Jun, was there an impulse on the original size of her face or with a different opponent every time she saw it?

After the test, I can talk a lot. Yuran has never broken a promise with Violet, so even such a trivial promise will surely come true. Even if you know it, the number of days up to that point is grudging and doesn't accumulate.

I didn't want to disturb him if I could, and if I could only speak a word or two during a short break, I wouldn't visit the classroom during the break.

(I just want to see a little... just my face)

Whirlpool anxiety is fading much less than yesterday. The Elephant who is laughing in front of her now doesn't feel as oppressive as yesterday. To call her mother, she was young and loving, and enjoyed eating with her sisters in the same tone as she looked.

I even think yesterday's fear was illusory. It seems like it was all a bad dream.

What sticks is Marine's spicy expression. A trembling body. A plea to be careful. I complain that everything was not a dream. Violet had never seen Marine so scared and frightened, like a baby. Marine's presence retains her optimism. Remember your anxiety and never let go of your heart shield.

Fear and vigilance, unfamiliar, without substance.

At a time like this, at a time like this, I want to meet someone.

(I think I'll just go for a minute....)

You don't have to talk, just laugh. I think there is a place where you can feel safe, no matter how anxious you are. Besides, even if I can't today, I might be able to make plans with my free time. With that in mind, I put a piece of bread in my mouth that was much smaller than a sip.

"Violet will be home early today, won't she?

"Nh... eh?

"You promised yesterday, didn't you? Let's have a tea party."

I managed to swallow a piece of bread that was about to clog my throat and remember Elephant's promise. When she left yesterday, I wonder if that was a promise if she just said it and didn't listen to the answer. I completely forgot because I was swallowed by fear, and it's not strange to think of it as a kind of social resignation.

"You two? That's good, I want to have tea with onee-sama too!

"Mary has a study party, right? Besides, Violet has been working hard lately without even going out to dinner, so I appreciate the effort."

Look at me, there was a flaming light hidden behind Elephant's eyes. I saw it yesterday, and now it's lurking, the big snake's eye. It is the ruler that will seal our thoughts and actions in an instant.

I'm looking forward to it. Come home soon.

"Ha, ha, ha, ha"

Something you can't resist, even if you feel the difficulty of breathing, like you're choking your throat. Elephant, who was satisfied with his nodding, turned away from Violet and hammered her daughter, who spoke with joy. It became easier to breathe like the lungs that had been crucified were gradually released, but you realized that the hand holding the shield was slightly wet.

All I could do was push my trembling body to stop and watch the interaction between parents and children that looked much more like sisters than I did.