I Won't Accept Your Regrets

By the time the dressing was over, I listened to the compliments the maids were giving to me.

The maids had spoken to me in an excited voice.

“it’s too beautiful. Today’s dress goes very well with your Majesty.”

“Yes, it really shines really brightly.”

“If your Emperor sees you, he’ll will be amazed by Her Majesty’s beauty.”

The maids were talking to me in an excited voice, perhaps because it’s been a long time since they’ve dressed me up splendidly.

When I saw such ladies, I laughed happily at my mouth.

“Yes, everyone did a great job. As you say, I hope His Majesty will like it too.”

“Your Majesty, of course he will.This dress is a gift from His Majesty. “

Helan told me as if it were natural, but I only smiled lightly.

“I can’t make His Majesty wait for too long, so I’m going to go out.”

I left the room quickly. As I went down the middle steps of the empress’ palace, I could see Raymond’s back standing in the palace lobby.

“Raymond.”

Raymond turned around at my call.

His heart began pounding when he saw her dressed perfectly in a black lotus dress with a golden line symbolizing the emperor.

He, who looked at me quietly with an ebony gaze, came to me.

The moment I saw his lips open, I swallowed a tense breath.

I wonder if he remembers this dress.

When my heart was beating fast with unknown emotions, whether it was expectation or anxiety, an innocent low voice dug into my ear.

“Empress, the party has already begun, so it’s good to hurry up.”

At the end of the remark, he reached out his hand to me as if he were telling me to grab it quickly.

The expectation that thrilled my heart fell to the floor.

I didn’t expect much from Raymond, but like a fool, why did I still have expectations?

I would have smiled casually even if I had been turned away as usual, but today didn’t get any better.

Is it because of her, Lize? I wanted to find at least a little link between me and him.

I looked at him again just in case, but I couldn’t find any response from the dark gaze.

‘Yes, not contempt as always’ he was just looking at me with a heartless look.

Ray, you should have tried to recognize me for once.

For the first time, that familiar indifference made me feel something of my feelings for him have collapsed.
(Yess! Dump his a**! I’ll wholeheartedly support you!)

“Empress? What’s the matter?”

When I looked at his hand without saying anything, Raymond called me again.

I slowly raised my head and faced him.

As I looked at his eyes, which cannot be said to be warm, I smiled quietly as usual.

“Nothing, Your Majesty. We’ve got to go.

I took Raymond’s hand. After staring at me for a moment, he soon walked with me into the carriage.

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After Shios, the Marquis’s mansion was shining with bright lights all under the dark sky.
(Shios is a place, I think it’s a town in/by the capital…)

It seemed that this mansion was brightly lit at this time, the first time after Lizzena left seven years ago.

“Everyone, arise.”

The nobles rose slowly to the emperor’s command.

And he was attracted to a girl with a blonde who shone brightly than the brilliant light.

Lize Nacios.

With a beautiful figure that hasn’t changed a bit from seven years ago, She was looking at us.

No, Raymond, to be exact.

At that moment Raymond’s gaze turned to her, Lize. The eyes of the two people caught each other at the ball.

I held my hands tight as they looked at each other.

Lize and Raymond didn’t break up because they wanted too, they had too.

How do they feel about each other, who broke up when their love for each other was deep and now reunited after seven years?

I didn’t dare to imagine.

I couldn’t look at Raymond staring at her, so I looked down.

When I was looking at the floor where the lighting was so dull, but I could see the hem of a pale azure dress approaching us.

“Your Majesty the Emperor, Your Majesty the Empress. Thank you very much for coming to my return party.”

Lize’s soft voice rang my ears.  I slowly raised my head, facing her in front of me.

She had a smile on her face directed at me. In the past, that gentle smile that had always been shown whenever she was with Raymond.

If my personality was bad, I wouldn’t have felt so uncomfortable.

But she had never been rude to me in the past, and she was looking at me and smiling with a gentle smile as it was 7 years ago.

Although it was her choice, she left for the West for her family. Now, she has finally returned to her homeland, but she can’t even stand by the man she loved.

So how is it that you can still smile at me?

Even the aristocrats are seeing Lize giving me a compassionate gaze.

I felt it since I stepped into the hall.

The eyes of many aristocrats were focused on us.  And altogether, Lize was staring at me.

Perhaps for them now, In this moment I’m the villain in this relationship.

Because there was no one in the Empire who didn’t know about Raymond and Lize’s love.

When the former Crown Prince roaringly trampled on Raymond, Lize embraced him. She was a beautiful angel who saved the abandoned prince.
(Uhh no? Ellie was there before her!)

Raymond and Lize’s  love was so famous that a poet sang a song by dramatizing a passage of their mournful love.

When I faced reality as if I had gone back to the past, I felt my throat tightened.

Then, I heard Raymond’s low voice speaking to her.

“Lize, I’m glad to return to our country looking healthy.”

“Yes, thank you. Your Majesty.”

“…..”

Now that the Emperor had given his luck first, I, the Empress, had to say good words of virtue to her.

I should have… …but my voice didn’t come out as if It was blocked.

All the eyes on us, on me, It felt like they were the ones blocking my throat.

At the moment, silence flowed, and Lize and Raymond’s eyes turned to me.

Raymond opened his lips first.

“Empress?”

You need to be mindful.

I pressed my heart that wanted to run away and finally opened my lips.

“….Yes, Your Majesty.”

“Are you okay?”

I felt something was wrong with Raymond’s black eyes.

I drew a light smile at him.

“Yes, it’s okay. And I congratulate you, Lizzena, for your safe return to your home country. I hope you will forget all the past and live a new life.”

Even If I seemed like a villain to them, I couldn’t change the past.

And now it was I who stood beside Raymond.

So, I had no choice but to see if her heart for Raymond was still valid.

Lize, her eyes stared at me. She opened her mouth a little slowly, perhaps knowing the hidden meaning of my words.

“…Thank you for the welcome. Your Majesty.”

Lize went out and thanked me, Raymond, who was looking at her with a deep gaze said,

“Lize, Since we have seen you, The Empress and I will go back. If we are in the party hall for a long time, the main person of the party will change today.”

But Raymond stared at her in shame not wanting leave.

And soon my red lips were opened again.

“Lize. I sincerely congratulate you for coming back.”

The carelessness I had always had for her was not a long statement.

With the low echo of sincerity, I clasped my hands tightly.

Let’s hold it in. We can go back soon. If you go back to the palace, everything will be back in place.

I thought about leaving this place and just wanted to suppress the sad feelings overflowing me.

“Empress, let’s go back.”

As soon as I rushed to put my hand on his hand, Lize’s voice caught Raymond.

Raymond didn’t open his mouth right away. In a heavy silence I wanted him to turn away from her.

Raymond’s hands were still holding mine. If I kept holding his hand, will you leave here with me?

But my selfish expectations soon broke down.

“….Tell me.”

Lize, looking at my trembling eyes, Raymond took back the hand that was holding mine.

I couldn’t bear to hold his hand, which was going away.

“Your Majesty, in fact, I did not return to the empire alone.”

What does that mean…?

I forgot my sorrow and turned my head to Lize.

Lize I was looking at Raymond with a tense face.

Raymond, like me, raised his straight eyebrows as if he didn’t understand what she meant.

“What do you mean?”

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“Your Majesty, there is someone you must meet.”
(SH*T NOOO!)

My trembling voice, my instinctive fire, echoed all over my body at that moment.

At that moment, the door on one side of the party hall opened and the servant walked into the center of the hall holding a little child.
(😭😭😭)

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End of Chapter 004