I Won't Accept Your Regrets

I promised that I would not blame you for everything, By not being able to promise me love, but no, I couldn’t.

Even if he couldn’t promise me love, he never did the best for me.

Regret and resentment, which I have never had before, crushed my heart.

I grabbed my heart that had one-sided love for so long and shed tears of sorrow that never stopped.

I cried again and again, Oh I cried for so long.

It was when the water all over my body dried up and  I couldn’t even cry anymore. I raised my head from the damp pillow and blanket.

“It’s… already dinner time.”

After how much I cried, my voice was was beginning to sound groggy.

The sky, which was bright when I came back to the palace, turned into darkness.

“Oh, dinner!”

I thought about dinner time with Raymond at a moment’s notice, and I suddenly got up and stopped.

Habit is a scary thing.

I flopped down on the bed with my dizzy head.

Now, there’s nothing I can do with Raymond for dinner.

Maybe I felt something during the rainy season, But I don’t know if it’s almost dinner time for me too.

Now I only have to throw away the habits that have been imbedded in my brain.

It will be hard at first, but bit by bit, I’ll will be with him and will be able to discard all the habits that I am used to.

When I wiped my tears from my face and grabbed my lower abdomen, I felt throbbing pain in my belly.

“Ah…”

The pain rang again for a long time.

“Why…. suddenly, no way.”

I had a bad feeling that my back was too tense.

<‘You shouldn’t be stressed.’>

That’s what the doctor must have said.. I’ve been under so much stress that I can’t forget about the baby for days.

“No, no.”

I wrapped my stomach with both hands.

However, unlike my desperateness, the pain in my belly got worse.

I hurriedly rang the bell on the tabletop.

Sfx: Dingding-

When the bell rang violently, the door opened wide and Helan came in a hurry. She found me grabbing my belly and jumped over to me.

“Your Majesty! What a sudden… I will call the Imperial Physician right now!”

When Helan screamed urgently, I held her arm tightly.

“I can’t do imperial physician!”

“What? Your Majesty! Your face is now white. I need to call a doctor right now.”

“Send a quick call to the Duke Croft and bring the Duke’s Doctor.”

“What? Your Majesty, so the time…”

As Helan was confused, my pain was getting worse.  I stopped talking to Helan.

“It’s time for the Imperial Physician to leave the office anyway. The Duke’s mansion is not far from the palace, so it will be faster……”

Helan’s head shook her head as my urgency passed on to her.

“Yes, Your Majesty, I will send a dispatch to the Duke immediately.”

After one of the maids completed the orders of Helan, she ran to the bed with the help of Helan.

I wanted to protect my belly instinctively, but I couldn’t because I was worried that the maids would notice.

“Her Majesty’s, Is in a cold sweat…Come on, we’re gonna need a doctor.. “

As my breath became rough, Helan’s face was filled with anxiety.

And my anxiety also increased.

Please, please, nothing will happen to the baby.

I can’t lose it twice, God.

I prayed earnestly to Lumen, whom I have given inwardly.
(I’m guessing that Lumen is their God of their Country.)

Perhaps it was because of my prayer, The people of the Duke Croft arrived much earlier than I thought.

“Your Majesty, the Duke of Croft and your Physician are here.”

Instead of me, who had no power to answer, Helan shouted.

“Go ahead and open the door!”

When the door opened, I saw my stiff-faced father running into me.  A serious-looking doctor followed him.

“Your Majesty the Empress! What are you suddenly… Harpen, go ahead and check her condition.”

“Yes, sir.”

For a moment, the doctor tried to look at my body, and I pulled up my remaining power and called the head maid.

“Helan, I want to be treated quietly, so everyone is going back.”

“Your Majesty….”

Helan was looking at me with anxious eyes. As it is her duty to assist the empress in her closest aides, it is natural that she is anxious to step down now.

But I couldn’t let her know I was pregnant.

“It’s an order.”

“….Yes, Your Majesty.”

At the end of the order, Helan eventually took the ladies and left the room.

Only then did I gasp when I saw the door shut tight.

“Your Majesty, Your Majesty the Empress. Why all of a sudden… shouldn’t we call the imperial Physician?”

I hurriedly held my father’s hand and said.

“No, you should not call the Imperial Physician.”

“But your Majesty’s condition is now….”

Even now, she shouted and shouted in the eyes of her father, who seemed to be calling the Imperial Physician.

“I’m pregnant. But the sun of the empire… doesn’t even have to know.”

“….!”

I said to my father, who held her belly dearly and couldn’t continue his speech in astonishment.

“I will be leaving His Majesty.”

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Same time.

Raymond, who was about to head to the dinner room a little later today, narrowed his eyes from a message from the Empress’ palace.

“What?”

The sharp voice of Raymond shook the servant’s shoulders a little.

“That said….Her Majesty will not coming to dinner today.”

“Today too?”

“Yes, Your Majesty.”

In the atmosphere with Raymond, the servant bowed deeply as if he had sinned.

But Raymond couldn’t see or say anything else now.

She’s not coming today.

After marriage, Ellie never broke her promise.

Yesterday he understood that she would feel ill, so he passed it lightly.

But it didn’t make sense to not come today.  It wasn’t like Ellie.

What’s going on.

Raymond turned his eyes to the trembling servant.

“Is there any other news from the Empress Palace?”

“Yes, Your Majesty, there was no other news.”

“What happened to the Empress’ Palace?”

As Raymond continued to ask, embarrassment stood on the faces of the attendants.

It was because Raymond had never paid such attention to Her Majesty.

Raymond, however, seemed unable to feel their strange behavior, pressed his eyes with impatience.

“I haven’t heard from them…. But, “

“But?”

“The Empress came to see you earlier this afternoon, and she turned away instead of meeting you.”
(Snitch!…lmao I understand it’s his duty)

“You said she was in my palace? When do you mean?”

“That was when you were with Lizzena.”

“…I see”

Though he answered with an indifferent voice, Raymond’s heart thumped as soon as he heard what he had said.

He was worried that Ellie would have seen him with Lize.

Why would I… Why?

It was ridiculous for him to feel anxious, but his face had already hardened.

“Your Majesty, shall I prepare your meals in the room?”

The servant carefully asked him.

“No, need.”

“Your Majesty, didn’t you have lunch today, I’m afraid you’ll get sick.”

“Don’t worry. There’s no way I’m going to fall like this. And now I feel like I’m going to get indigestion anyway.”

From the moment I heard that Ellie had been in the palace, I felt like my stomach had been crushed by a rock.

I couldn’t figure out why, but my chest was uncomfortable.

“Then would you like to go to the room?”

To the room…

Raymond turned his eyes to the window at the servant’s words.

Raymond looked at the silver palace and slowly moved his red lips.

“I will go to the Empress Palace.”

“Yes, Your Majesty.”

In a hurry, the pace toward the Empress Palace was accelerated.

However, as Empress Palace got closer, Raymond’s pace slowed.

And when he found something, his steps stopped completely.

Raymond narrowed his eyes to the wagon standing in front of the Empress Palace.

“That sentence…”

It was the crest of the Croft Duke, Ellie’s family.

Why is the Duke suddenly here at this late hour?

“Was the Duke not able to come to dinner?”

When I thought of it, my strange anxiety quickly subsided.

“Shall we return to the Sun Palace? Your Majesty.”

The attendant asked, In case he was misunderstanding Raymond’s will to stop.

“No. I’ll have a look at the Duke Of Croft while I’m here.”

Unlike before, Raymond walked to the empress’ palace with a lighter tone.

However, his light heart was short.

“You can’t go in now.”

It was because the Duke came down and stopped his visit as soon as he entered the palace.

“Duke, are you blocking my way?”

It was a great sin against the law to stand in the way of the emperor. If it had been someone else, he would have been taken away by knights for immediate disposal.

However, Duke Croft was the first public figure in his reign and Ellie’s father, so Raymond raised his hand to stop the knight.

But his dark eyes were colder than the fresh night air.

The Duke repeated the same thing to Raymond with an unshakable face.

“The Empress is not in good shape. So, Your Majesty, please come back later.”

“I should take a closer look at the Empress because she’s sick, Duke. I’m the Empress’ husband.”

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“Her husband….”

The Duke murmured low, but it wasn’t enough to be heard by Raymond.

Raymond’s face hardened coldly by the sarcastic murmur.
(Oop- The duke thought…Do Daddy!!! Wooo!)

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End of Chapter 009
Team Daddy for the way!
Who else is worried for Ellie? 😭