If I Disobey the Duke

Far Away (2)

It was unclear how the meeting ended.

He explained something else, but she couldn’t understand it, and the meeting ended in a strange atmosphere.

When she woke up, she found herself on the bed.

How did I get back to the bedroom…? Vlad…

“Lily.”

She glanced to the side where her husband’s voice came from. Right. She came with him

Vlad stood with one arm on the bedpost.

The light from the chandelier was blocked by his body, casting a long shadow on Lily’s face.

His face was hard to see.

“Before going to the glass greenhouse. I received a request for support from Ataka. It cannot be delayed any longer.”

“You didn’t say that at all in the greenhouse. Especially… when we stayed together for so long.”

It felt like pieces of glass were piercing her.

A living nightmare.

Was there a woman who could keep calm when her husband was going to such a dangerous place?

“The decision was made today. There was no time to discuss it.”

Her countless thoughts and emotions sprung up, causing Lily to flinch. “But if you had told me when the request for support came, I would have prepared with you, and I would have tried to figure out a way so that you wouldn’t have to go…”

“To minimize casualties, it is efficient for me to go myself.”

As if there was a barrier, he was emotionless.

All kinds of feelings quarreled in the water, and eventually, the greatest emotion splashed out.

She felt too gloomy to be angry and annoyed…

She was sad.

Worried, angry, and sad.

There were a lot of soldiers in the territory but yet the two of them in particular would join the mission!

It would take two weeks just to come back from the Ataka.

It couldn’t be. So, for at least a month… No, until when would the mission end?

I knew nothing at all.

“The fact that I got a request for support… Why didn’t you tell me that? Even on the day the request came, we were together.”

As if asking the obvious, his forehead narrowed slightly. “There is no need to share things that have not been confirmed.”

Uncertain information aggravated confusion, and confusion tended to lead to fear and disorder.

Had he said it beforehand, she would have been anxious all the way through until the moment the decision was made.

There was no reason for her to waste her time on her unnecessary worries.

The process of contemplating until the conclusion was also quite exhausting. There was no need for two people to suffer for nothing, and it was better for him, who had always done it alone.

“…”Lily’s breath caught in her throat, as if she was grabbed by her collar.

It felt like a swarm of ants came in and bit her. Every breath she took stung.

“I am your wife. To say that there is no need to share…”

Her thoughts suddenly stopped.

Yes, I am just a wife.

Taking care of the estate in place of the vacancy of the lord, warming the bed to give birth to an heir.

She was just a woman who would fulfill such duties and roles.

What kind of qualifications did she have to ask for more…?

It was sad

It was as if he had even put a needle into her chest.

Sadness filled the corners of her eyes. The tip of her nose was getting stuffy, so Lily lowered her head.

Yeah. Who cared about whom?

She had always felt this way. She should’ve gotten used to it, but…

“Lily.”

He called me so I should face him.

When their eyes met, it seemed that unsightly tears would flow down.

He knelt before her. “If you are doing what you said in the meeting… Time will pass quickly. You have a natural talent for this, and you will do very well.”

Why is he so experienced?

It was like a spell that Lily could never match.

Right.

He willingly gave up his deserving position. At the very least, she would have to fulfil the responsibilities he gave her.

She couldn’t believe she was making him calm her down when he was going on a mission.

How long are you going to whine? Are you going to make him worry about you even during the mission?

She struggled to press down another vicious whisper that echoed within herself.

“Even the knights… Please, please give the order again… ask some of the knights to come along. It’s impossible for two people to go on such a dangerous mission. I know that. Please.”

“If you can take responsibility for the things in your life, you should be willing to accept them. I don’t die easily either, so it’s better if I go too.” He covered Lily’s small cheek with a large hand. “Didn’t you also say that you feel safe when I’m here?”

“That’s because you are the lord… Going out alone is different. To a place where I can’t even send a letter to properly, even if you’re hurt, there’s no way to know…”

She wouldn’t even know if he was dead, and she might have to wait several months.

The hairs all over her body stood at the terrible imagination that made her want to retch.

“If you ever die, I will…”

Fear that an accident would happen gripped her head.