If You Want To Flirt, I Will Run Away

Chapter 55:

A winter night ten years ago.

Xia Fangyu was woken up by her mother in the middle of the night.

Because the window was open at night, the wind was loud and it was cold, and it happened to be a frighteningly cold day.

Xia Fangyu opened her eyes and saw her mother's tearful face.

The mother is a woman who is also moved with tears.

Therefore, the moment Xia Fangzhen saw her tears, she began to feel sad.

She was very upset that day, and she didn't know why.

Maybe it was because the mother's expression was too sad that day, or maybe it was too cold that day, in short, her heart seemed to be gripped by the cold wind.

"Mom?" Xia Fangzheng called her mother helplessly.

The woman hugged Xia Fangzheng with great love and pity, "Xia Fangzheng, I can't take it anymore..."

She stroked the hair of seven-year-old Xia Fangyu, loving and tender, but her hands were cold.

"Xia Fangzheng, come with me."

"Go? Mom, it's so dark outside, where are we going?"

The unease was gradually approaching.

The mother did not answer her.

The woman only wore a white off-shoulder dress on a winter night, which looked very cold.

"...Then, what about Dad? Let's just call Dad?" Xia Fangxuan became nervous.

"Dad won't come!" Mother cried out in a heart-wrenching voice.

Xia Fangyu was stunned, her mother had never lost her temper like this before.

The mother shook her head and turned back to a gentle look. She hugged Xia Fangxun tightly, "Dad won't come, come, grab Mommy's hand."

Just like most children in this world will love their parents unconditionally.

Xia Fangzheng also loves her mother and father for granted.

Trust unconditionally.

Unconditionally want to be dependent.

Unconditionally want to give them their favorite things.

She loves her mother with all her heart.

What a gentle person her mother was.

Gentle and virtuous, elegant and beautiful, she is everything to herself.

Xia Fangyu once thought that for the sake of his mother, it wouldn't matter even if he gave all of himself.

However, when the mother took Xia Fangxun's hand to the rooftop.

Looking at the dark bottom of the building, the seven-year-old Xia Fangyu's scalp felt numb for a moment.

"...Mom?" She swallowed.

On weekdays, she looked out at the lake in the distance, the planes flying overhead, and the white and brown birds.

But that day, when I looked down, it was a completely different scene.

—Ah, so dark, so deep.

Like a shark's belly.

Xia Fangzhen couldn't help but take a few steps back with trembling teeth, her hand pulled back stubbornly, and stopped her mother's footsteps.

"Mom, do you want to go further?"

"yes."

"But, there is no road ahead!"

The woman looked at her sadly, "Xia Fangzheng, don't you like your mother?"

Xia Fangyu shook his head and shed tears.

I like it, I like it.

But, but ah.

"Mom loves you." The woman hugged her tightly and stood with her on the edge of the rooftop.

Xia Fangyu shivered and kept shaking his head, not knowing what to say, so scared that he cried.

"Don't be afraid, you won't be afraid with your mother, right?"

Xia Fangyu still kept shaking his head, the cold wind of winter hit Xia Fangyu's tender skin and ears.

As if a sharp knife was about to pierce her heart.

So cold, so dark, so painful...

"Mom, why?"

"You are my child, we shed the same blood, Xia Fangyu..."

"Families are going to die together."

The word 'death' reverberated violently in Xia Fangxun's heart, and she stepped back in fear.

"But I don't want to die..." Xia Fangzheng sobbed, helplessly begging her mother.

"...But mom can't do it anymore," the woman pulled her while weeping. "You love mom, don't you? Do you want to separate from mom?"

Xia Fangyu shook her head one after another, and pushed her mother's hand away.

The mother still did not let her go.

"Xia Fangzheng, don't abandon your mother, okay? Even you?"

Her hand kept pulling Xia Fangyu to the edge.

Xia Fangzheng was frightened, she struggled to bite her mother's palm like a beast.

As if biting out blood and biting out bones, biting desperately.

The mother cried, in pain, and took her hand away.

Xia Fangxun ran back and forth in a tumultuous manner. She looked at her mother's hands with trembling all over her body. She clearly liked her mother's gentle hands so much.

Those hands can play the most wonderful notes in the world and make the most delicious dishes in the world.

But she was bitten by blood, biting out a tooth mark, and biting it so painfully.

Xia Fangzheng, who was still a child, did not want to die.

She cried and roared out of life, "I will never go down!"

"I'm not going to die with my mother! If my mother is going, just go alone!"

The beautiful woman's eyes flowed with crystal tears.

"Xia Fangyu? Don't you want your mother? Don't you love me?"

Depressed tone.

Xia Fangzheng knew that she shouldn't have said that, but she could only be sorry and sorry, and looked into her mother's eyes with guilt and guilt, because her teeth were chattering and she couldn't say a word again.

The woman looked at Xia Fangzheng with a desperate look on her face, "Xia Fangzheng——"

"—you will be like me one day."

"..."

"--no one will like us, it's all in vain in the end."

Saying that, her body fell backward without any hesitation.

Xia Fangyu felt that her limbs could not move, she trembled and ran to the place where her mother stood just now and looked down.

A pitch black. Tall and black.

Xia Fangyu felt dizzy for a while.

Not long after, there was a loud noise downstairs...

Xia Fangzheng took a breath.

"At the time of my mother, there was something wrong with this place..."

Xia Fangzheng pointed to his head, "She is taking medicine."

"At that time, if I hadn't said that, she probably wouldn't have jumped."

"Maybe, she's still alive..."

"She is really a nice and gentle person, but something was wrong that day..."

"I...was the last straw that broke her."

"...If I had kept her, said I loved her, or said I didn't want her to go, she wouldn't have left, that kind of illness, I should have told her right away, and comforted her right away, but I said something I shouldn't have said. ."

"From that day on, I couldn't go to high places, and I couldn't dream. I always dreamed about that day, and when I woke up in the middle of the night, I seemed to hear noises."

Xia Fangyu added, "...It's the kind of sound that people fall."

"As soon as you get to a high place, you seem to see that night's mother."

"Mr. Xia, are you always trying to be brave when you usually take the elevator?"

"..." Xia Fangxun's head pressed against Qin Rou's forehead, "Do I look like a normal person?"

"That's why the curtains are closed in this room?"

Xia Fangzheng glanced at Qin Rou, "Well."

"I have such a disease, it's not surprising that a mental violence is actually happening. You may also know that I caused one when I was a freshman in high school, so I'm actually a veritable dangerous person-"

"Mr. Xia, what kind of child were you when you were young?" Qin Rou suddenly interrupted Xia Fangyu.

She didn't seem to care what danger Xia Fangxuan would bring her.

"...When I was young?" Xia Fangyu didn't expect that she would ask this.

"I guess, were you a very rigid child when you were young?" Qin Rou giggled.

"To the children in the same kindergarten, 'How can you talk when you eat? I have to tell the teacher!' 'You have to wash your hands for seven steps to go to the toilet, and you only took six steps'..."

"Are you such a troublesome child?"

Isn't that just snitching?

Xia Fangyu looked at Qin Rou with some dissatisfaction, "I can't say trouble... I abide by these rules."

Qin Rou looked at Xia Fangxing with schadenfreude.

"It's just that I haven't had any friends since kindergarten, and I haven't made a snitch."

Qin Rou laughed quiveringly, "Have you lost any friends since here!?"

Xia Fangyu gave Qin Rou a dissatisfied look, "...Don't take other people's sad things as jokes."

"Oh, then I won't laugh anymore, darling, our teacher Xia is so pitiful," Qin Rou patted Xia Fangxun's head, "then will your mother come to the kindergarten to pick you up?"

"Ok."

"Oh, how do you usually get home?"

Xia Fangyu's ears turned a little red, "...My mother usually takes my hand home."

"It feels so cute," Qin Rou squinted her eyes and smiled, "Come on, Teacher Xia, take out your hand!"

"..." Xia Fangxun didn't move, she was very hesitant to see Qin Rou's movements.

Does Qin Rou want to treat her as a kindergarten child?

"Hurry up, hurry up, Teacher Xia." Qin Rou urged.

Some Xia Fangxuan, who couldn't bear it, could only put his hands in Qin Rou's hands.

"Did your mother hold your hand like this?" Qin Rou held Xia Fangxun's hand with a smile.

"Yeah." Xia Fangyu nodded with a blushing face.

Qin Rou got out of her arms and lay shoulder to shoulder with her, "Does it feel like 'mum' is holding your hand?"

"..." Xia Fangyu felt that Qin Rou was taking advantage of herself.

The two held hands and did not speak for a long time.

Xia Fangyu thought that Qin Rou was asleep, but Qin Rou slowly shook her hand.

"I didn't blame you, Xia Fangxuan." Her voice became very intellectual, with a gentle and elegant look that was different from her usual.

"..." Xia Fangyu's pupils trembled.

"At that time, there was nothing my mother could do."

"...Sorry for making you miserable for so long."

"But don't suffer any longer, Xia Fangyu."

Qin Rou's palms were cold, but Xia Fangyu felt as if there was a warmth coming over.

"Mom wants you to live well and live well with your mother's sake."

"Because mom likes you the most, Xia Fangyu." Qin Rou said and clasped Xia Fangyu's hand tightly.

In an instant, the shadows of Qin Rou's mother overlapped...

The shadow that once made her miserable every night seemed to be speaking soft words to her.

Xia Fangyu looked at Qin Rou with a swaying gaze, "..."

Her throat rolled carefully.

Why is Qin Rou so keen every time at this time?

Why is it so easy to say what you want to hear at times like this?

"..." Xia Fangzheng held back her tears and looked at Qin Rou with a pretense of ease, "You haven't seen her at all, how could you possibly know what she thinks?"

"She hates me—"

"I know," Qin Rou said firmly, "I just know."

"Mr. Xia's mother is Miss Aixia's, isn't she?"

"..."

"So she will definitely forgive you."

"She will definitely say this, she will definitely say it exactly like me..." Qin Rou's voice was very gentle, "I believe your mother, Teacher Xia, she is a gentle person, right?"

"..."

"...So Mr. Xia's mother won't blame Mr. Xia." Qin Rou stretched out her hand and patted Xia Fangyu's head.

"It's not your fault what happened that day."

"You were just a child at that time, Teacher Xia."

"How can you ask children to do things that adults can't do?"

"Qin Rou..." Xia Fangzhen took a breath.

Qin Rou hugged Xia Fangyu and patted her on the back, "So, don't worry about it, Xia Fangyu."

"You are different now than you were then..."

"You are an adult, so you must know that there are many things that you can't do, right?"

Qin Rou kisses Xia Fangyu.

"Right?"

"..."