I'm a Walking Disaster With My Unwanted Virginity

Our wet bodies touched. Though the plasma ball in my hand was burning brightly, it wasn't enough to dry ourselves instantly. 

We were drying at a rapid pace though.

Marg was right next to me, and our bodies were touching a lot more than I wanted. My breathing had become a bit rapid and my heart rate was high: it was climbing by every second. If it kept up like this, I was damn sure, something bad was about to happen. 

So as a responsible guy, I had to do the right thing. "Say, I think this is good enough. Let's get clothed and leave."

Marg stared at me, a bit disappointed. We were under Merin's jacket. This was a big jacket and it was made out of black leather. So it was warm if nothing else.

"You know, I don't think I'm quite dry yet." She sat down on my lap and removed her underwear without a second of delay. Her chest was already drawing a lot of my attention and now even the stuff down there?

Oh boy.                                                               

'What is this sensation?' My mind went blank. 

I could feel a lot more than just her thighs on my thighs. Her bare bottom and even that… She turned around and pressed herself against my chest. 

"You-you-yoiyu-"I couldn't even form a sentence anymore.

I was a very sensible guy. I was rational and I was also not shy. But this, this whole situation was messed up. And it was making my rationality go out the drain.

Just the feeling alone was enough to make my blood pump way harder than it was necessary. 

"If you don't remove yours, you might catch a cold." Her sultry tone and expression were alluring in a way that I didn't think was even possible. 

But I hesitated. 'If I go down this route, there's no going back. I don't have any means to take responsibility and-'

Before even my mind could attempt to correct my ways, her hand slid down my downstairs. My underwear was removed and as the bare Lil-Helio rose up, she smiled. And her lips came ever so close to mine. 

She held my face. "Do you not like me? Does my body not excite you?"

I didn't dislike her, and I certainly found her exciting: my rising Excalibur was the proof of that. But I didn't know her. And I didn't know why she was doing this.

But more importantly, was I mature enough to take responsibility for this. "I don't think we should do this. I mean, I can't take responsibility and I don't have money to-"

"You don't have to." She didn't let me finish and slide her tongue down my throat. 

My self-control wasn't infinite. I kissed her back. Our tongues rolled, slipped, and fought for dominance. I'd like to say, I won. 

Self-control? What was that again?

"I warned you." I sure did. I put out the plasma ball but it wasn't cold anymore. 

In fact, I was burning up. 

I grabbed her chest gently and played. 

"Ah, cold." 

I guess my hands were too cold for her, so I warmed them up a bit with my blood reactions.

I received moans instead of complaints.

Her hands however were both playing with the Lil-Helio. 

I had no idea how this should have gone and I didn't have any experience either, but one thing was for sure, I couldn't look away: and I couldn't stop my hands. And the kissing didn't stop either. 

Now granted, hers wasn't that big, but it was enough. 

"Not satisfied?" As my cream oozed out of her fingers, she stared directly in my soul. I guess she was speaking for herself while asking me the question. 

'You want to continue?' I guess it was evident at this point. 

Lil-Helio rose up again without a doubt. Meaning, I was good to go too. 

"Well," I grabbed her tight, kissed her, and by the time we were done caressing each other, both of us were more than just turned on.  "I don't have protection."

"Me neither."

She kissed me harder. 

It was almost as though a storm was blowing outside. But the gusts of wind never reached us, as we were more than just burning up at this point. I was even sweating and panting. 

'Glad I can form a barrier.' I had no idea if it was even possible or not, but it sure didn't stop me from trying. 

But Marg wasn't letting me go anytime soon. "I want you." She was on top of me. And though I knew better to not go in her like this, there was no stopping this now. "I want you now, 'She whispered into my ears and bit me. 

For a second it spooked the hell out of me, but it also ignited something. 

I couldn't stop. 

No, I didn't want to stop.

What was happening to me?

Was this, really me?

I didn't know, but I wanted this. And I wanted this bad. 

And with solid determination, I touched her there: this was my first time touching this place. It was a mystery to me till this day, but today, I finally felt it. She was wet, and my fingers were sticky. And yet, I couldn't stop. I played with her for a minute, until I finally entered her. 

I couldn't control my urges anymore. 

"Ah." She let out a pained cry but her smile didn't waver. "So big…" She kissed me. "You are my first."

"So, are you?" And I never thought, my first would go down like this. 

"You have no idea how happy that makes me." Though tears streamed down her cheeks she smiled and as we hugged, kissed, and moved our hips- which was very hard to do- life became more and more of a bliss. 

And the bliss just kept on escalating. With every movement, it just kept on adding up. My hips burned and my whole body lighted up. It was almost as though nothing in the world mattered anymore. 

I was close, I was very close. 

Never in a million years did I thought I'd be doing this under Merin's jacket and our own clothes. Seriously, what was wrong with us?

"Ahhh…" Marg screamed and moaned haphazardly as she squeezed the hell out of me. I guess she was more turned on than I thought. I reached my peak right after her. 

And as the blessed feeling slowly passed we just lied there hugging each other, kissing as we went. 

***

But eventually, the bliss came to an end, and as both of us sat down together, shoulder to shoulder, I stared at the icy stone wall and a thought ran down my mind. 'What the hell have I done?'

Not only did I do this, but I also did it without using any protection. In the heat of the moment, I kind of got ahead of myself. 

Marg's head was resting on my shoulder. She was still completely bare and so was I. I cleared some strands of hair from her face and took a good look. Her eyes were closed and she had a smile. She looked even more beautiful than before. Was she asleep?

Here I was, shivering from this severe cold and feeling like all the life from my hips was drained, and she was sleeping so peacefully? Honestly, I was a bit jealous. And yet, I couldn't fault her. 

I sighed. Small clouds of air formed. 'I better take responsibility, I guess.' 

I wrapped my arms around her, and the clothes, around us. This place was a good insulator, and we generated enough heat for both of us, so it wasn't that bad. 

***

I yawned and woke up. 

I felt strangely good. My back was a bit sore but I felt great. 

'What is this!' I felt like I could take on the whole world: I sure didn't want to though. 

I looked around and Marg wasn't here. And I for sure knew last night wasn't a dream. 

But seriously, couldn't she have at least taken me back?

I sighed and looked around. I was kind of still wrapped in my own shirt. "Achoo!"

I guess we shouldn't have done this out here. 'Too late now.'

It didn't feel like a cold. It'd probably just go away, well, probably. 

I picked up my things and took a good look for stains. 

There were none. And then I remembered. 'Oh yeah, I did it bare.' Not to mention, I never actually pulled out either. I let out another sigh. 

'Why am I so stupid?' I didn't know. I sure wanted to know though. 

But what about the first time when she literally squeezed me with her hands. 'Ah, that did feel good.' I jolted my head away from the memories. This wasn't time to be thinking of those. 

I stretched a little and though I didn't know what time this was, I was confident it couldn't have been more than eight. So I had enough time. 

I jogged my way through the blizzard. 

This was the perfect opportunity for a good jog. And I needed the exercise anyway. 

'Better thank Merin extra for this Jacket.' I was in a very, very good mood. 

***

I reached the academy gates fairly soon. At least, sooner than I thought. No one was here. I guess people were still only getting up. I yawned and continued jogging. 

I didn't see many students out. This didn't bode well for me. 

And with every step, my eyes kind of twitched. 

By the time I reached the dorm, I realized a fatal flaw in my deduction. 

It wasn't that there were no students out, rather it was that everyone was in the classes. 'No wonder it didn't feel as cold as last night.'

I got to my room at exactly 11.20: Merin wasn't here. I took a shower, ate some broccoli- I still had plenty- and ran for the class. 

If I hurried, I could still, at least make it for the 3rd class of the day. 

And I did make it. 

"Why are you late?"

And then I had a ten-minute debate with the teacher about how I got lost in the snowy fields yesterday and why I didn't have a Holo. Did this teacher really have time to debate this instead?

But in the end, he did let me in and I took my seat. 

I looked back, but Marg wasn't here. 

'Tell me, I didn't overdo it, did I?'

I didn't know why, but suddenly I felt a lot more self-conscious than I should have been.

'Calm down… calm down… Deep breaths…' She could have just gotten out for the ladies' room anyway. 

I was definitely, not calm. 

Classes eventually ended, but Marg never showed up.