I’m Here To Find My Missing Companion

“You’re a warm-hearted person.”

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Derwin, whose expression changed seriously, said as he adjusted his posture.

“Lady. That…”

After hesitating for a while, he continued.

“Do you really think you’re a dragon?”

There was silence again. But this time it wasn’t long.

“I don’t think I was a dragon, I am a dragon. As it’s true that I’m your companion.”

Derwin expected it, but it’s worse than he thought.

Derwin sighed inside. The woman looked very confident.

“But Lady hasn’t been able to prove herself to be a dragon.”

“Because I’m a Hatchling. Anyway, you don’t even know what a Hatchling is.”

“I know that Dragon’s infancy is called Hatchling. It’s common sense related to the widely known knowledge about dragons. Lady must have mistaken herself after reading stories about dragons.”

From Chanelica’s point of view, it may be a shocking story as if waking up from a dream. But she was not agitated. Rather, he asked Derwin with a calm face.

“So you never thought that every word I said was true from the moment I first said I was a dragon until now?”

“Lady, you may think what you think right now is true. But…”

Derwin thought about how far to say. The woman in front of him now is not a normal person. It was necessary to soothe the Lady by saying euphemisms so that they would be as shocked as possible.

“How come you didn’t deny it? Why are you now claiming that you’re not a dragon and that I can’t be one? Without saying it from the start.”

The uncomfortable questions continued, but contrary to Derwin’s expectations, Chanelica did not get angry or have seizures.

It was strange. Just looking at Chanelica’s reaction, it seemed that she knew something was wrong. Feeling like she’s drying herself up at her pace. This was similar to the feeling he received when they had dinner together last time.

“Did you feel sorry for me?” Chanelica asked with a light smile to Derwin, who was unable to answer.

‘In this situation, how can she be laughing…?’

“Maybe if I hadn’t doubted your memory, you would have always tuned in to my rhythm.”

Chanelic’s a strange woman. Even though she knew Derwin was treating her like a crazy person, she still smiled. It’s not a laugh, but a really light and pleasant smile.

“You’re a warm-hearted person.”

Derwin stiffened his entire body as Chanelica smiled brilliantly with her eyes half closed.

Chanelica, whom Derwin has seen so far, was a person who felt a stronger impression of an immature girl than a woman.

But at that moment, the depth of the heart of the woman named Chanelica seemed very deep. 

It may be considered an innocent idea of a child who doesn’t know the world, but Derwin didn’t think of it a little. He doesn’t know why she’s saying it with all her heart, but he can be sure.

“It would be nice if the personality I saw resembles only half of what it is now.”

However, the depth of Chanelica’s heart was not important now. Derwin felt more frustrated by the following words. This is because she still seemed to have no intention of denying that he and she were Dragons.

“I’m going to ask for all the doctors.”

“Is there someone who can cure my mental illness?”

There was a faint smile mixed in with the straightforward question.

“…That’s right, so in the meantime relax in the mansion and get treatment. You don’t have to feel pressured.”

“People in the mansion says I’m not allowed to go out because I am your fiancee, but was that actually the reason why?”

“I won’t say no. You have a lot of eyes, so don’t go outside while you’re being treated.”

“You’re saying you’ll lock me up.”

“I ask for your understanding.”

“What if I have to go outside?”

“You asked me to stay here because you had nowhere to go. I accepted it, so I’ll accept your request to the extent that I can accept it.”

There was silence. Chanelica looked quietly at Derwin without blinking, and soon got up.

“No, it’s okay. I don’t need a doctor or treatment.”

***

Sigh.

The next morning, Chanelica, who stepped out of the mansion, sighed deeply. After some distance from the mansion, she looked back once.

That color is still empty.

It’s her second time seeing it, but the evaluation is consistent.

If someone would build a mansion like that while ignoring the surrounding environment, why are they calling themselves a human being?

But it was different from the first time she saw it. Now when she looks at the color of the mansion, he’s “human” black eyes come to mind as if they are in front of her.

“I’ll be back in a year.”

Chanelica comforted herself. As soon as she opened her eyes that morning, she came out of the mansion without saying a word.

The conversation with Derwin last night ended with Chanelica coming out of the Cartel mansion.

Derwin advised Chanelica to think carefully about where to go, but Chanelica couldn’t. It was because she had anxiety that he might change his mind and lock her in the mansion.

She trudged and walked. There is no destination. She just walked as much as she could and watched the people passing by one by one.

‘This isn’t bad either.’

One reason Chanelica decided to come out of the Cartel mansion was that.

“I can’t be locked up again.”

For 199 years, she has been stuck on Spitzer Island, too, and has spent frustrating and boring days because it is dangerous. Even though there was a year before becoming a holy dragon, considering the secret act, it was the worst situation for her to stay only in the mansion.

It was very shocking that Derwin was playing with lost memory. She just couldn’t understand why they were “playing” in that state. However, it was impossible to hold and ask someone who lost their memory.

Memories.

‘Come to think of it, it was the same with Chanelica that lost her memory. What’s a little different is that he even forgot the essence of Dragon itself and that at least she remembers that she was a god.’

Anyway, Derwin was in a state of strong belief that he was a human being. In that state, it was natural to think strangely of the person who was talking about a dragon. Nevertheless, he pretended to believe in Chanelica and listened to her demands and even thought of treating her. It gave her a small impression.

“Pfft. It reminds me of that time.”

‘Is it true that we’re the same?’

Chanelica was even more moved because his behavior was completely different from the first day she met him as a dragon and the first day she met him as a human being.

‘If she plays with lost memories, can personality change?’

“But the results are the same.”

A smile formed around the mouth of Chanelica. It was only different when it was the first reaction, but it was the same that protected her as a result. And the feeling of being safe was always pleasant.

Being trapped, on the other hand, was a different story. Derwin, who believes he is human, saw her as a spirit box, and he forbade her from leaving the house. She had no way of proving she was a dragon, so the only thing she could do was flee.

It was, however, difficult to leave the house without anything. Chanelica noticed the small brown bag she was holding in her left hand.

‘I’ll come back in a year and pay you back. Could you lend me some money?’

Chanelica asked Derwin last night to lend her enough money to treat her for a day. He said it was originally money to spend on treating her, so it doesn’t matter if she takes it without borrowing it.

“I’ll make sure to pay you back. And please pretend that you didn’t hear everything about the dragon that I said. I’ll never say that I’m your fiancee, either.”

Chanelica thought that she should treat and appreciate him as a human being since he thinks he is a human being. If he had played while knowing that he was the Dragon Lord, she would not have declared that she would pay back the money to his companion who didn’t keep his word.

Just in case, Chanelica wrote a memo and stamped it on the spot. If the fiancee divulges incorrect information, she will be severely punished. He considers her psychotic. He could lock her up right away if he changed his mind, so faith was required.

“Whoa, just think of it as an adventure for a year! But it’s still better than being trapped.”

Chanelica bravely talked to herself. 

Dragon’s life that will live for thousands more years. A year trapped in a mansion would feel as long as the years of eternity, but she had no doubt that a year in a complex human world would feel very short.

Therefore, in this uneasy human world, she readily accepted being separated from the person she wanted to stay with.

Although she didn’t meet the gods right away as she originally intended, it’s still a year. As a very ordinary human being, she intended to live freely.

A year later, until the day she becomes a full fledged dragon.

***

199 years ago, three days after White Dragon Ashanerbekirael opened her eyes.

‘I was a god.’

It was a magical word to answer all the questions of where her parents are, how she is in other dragon’s cave without eggshells, and how she can talk as soon as she is born.

Newborn Hatchling, Ashanerbekirael, who had just opened her eyes, spoke frankly in front of the huge black dragon.

‘She was a god?’

‘Yes, so my parents will talk like this.’

‘I’m shy’

Even in front of Dragon Lord, Dershevionerf, dozens of times larger than herself, Asha said with sparkling eyes.

A moment of silence. And,

‘Crazy. I’m a dragon.’

In the cold that erupted in an instant, Asha trembled.

‘But… I think I’m a god.’

In front of Asha, blinking hiseyes several times, as if the light had not yet adapted, Dragon Lord spewed life.

‘The dragon is subject to extermination.’

Every word was so cheap that it seemed like she was going to be eaten at any moment.

‘Even if I kill you as a dragon here, no one will object to me. Even if you’re a Hatchling.’

Hatchling Asha, who couldn’t withstand Dragon Lord’s excessive life, collapsed as it was.

Those were the last words Asha heard from their first meeting. Recognizing the words, she lost her mind.