I'm still alive

And at that moment a bright light burst out from one side.

The light was as bright as a lighthouse and led my drifting eyes. And holy as to drive out this dreary darkness.

The light passed before my eyes and headed for the face of the man who came fiercely to me.

And at that moment an extraordinary event happened.

When he faced the light, he let out a painful cry and hurriedly stopped the attack. Then desperately covering his face and twisting his body violently. The man, who began to twist his body as if he had sprayed hydrochloric acid on a living creature, backed away with a groan that was so horrifying.

I opened my eyes gently and closed my eyes half-closed again. Then he turned his eyes painfully toward the direction of the light.

There, Kang Su-ryeon stood firm with a big flashlight. When he came out of the warehouse, his face was terrified and his arms and legs trembled terribly. However, holding a flashlight and an old man's skewer were the same as the lioness who kept Chae-yeon for the first time.

Kang Soo-ryeon was embarrassed when he started to be afraid of light when he lit a flashlight meaninglessly. However, as she was making quick judgments, she bit her lips tightly and held out her flashlight. Then he backed away in more pain.

I stared blankly at the figure.

All the logic in my head was scattered everywhere. Then, they gather in one place and get tangled up.

And a fragment of memory flies from all directions, clumping and tangled with logic, reminding you of the scene. Why he watched us from inside the building. And why they didn't follow us during the day. And of all things, they attacked us at night!

When all the puzzles came together, the head produced one result.

This guy hates light.

Even before I finish thinking, he spits out a painful groan and runs away through the window he enters. His cry begins to drift slowly away from the shelter.

* * * * * * * *

Dawn began to dawn.

The old man, who had passed out at dawn, came to his senses. I looked all over the old man's body, worried that he might have broken his bone from the shock. Fortunately, there were no major injuries except bruises and bruises, as if the sky had helped. I had no major abnormality except that my whole body was exhausted.

The group members, who were hiding in the warehouse, must have been scared at the end of the day as they listened to the sound and couldn't sleep. The children still showed signs of anxiety and Chae-yeon never fell off my legs.

Kim Si-eun (a granddaughter of an elderly woman) said she had repeatedly blocked Chae-yeon from leaving the warehouse. I was surprised to hear the sound and asked Chae-yeon not to fall from Kang Soo-ryeon and Kim Si-eun's arms no matter what.

Chae-yeon then clung to my leg, pretending as if she didn't understand what I was saying. I'm sure you know what I'm doing......... I sometimes pretend not to know. But I couldn't blame him more when I saw the tears around his eyes.

And he got angry at Kang Soo-ryeon for the first time. When asked why she came out of the warehouse and what about Chae-yeon when you came out, Kang Soo-ryeon burst into tears and bowed her head. And spoke to me in a voice of sorrow and sorrow.

I was afraid you were going to die.….’

I shut my mouth like a honeyed mute. I couldn't say anything more. When I stood in front of Kang Soo-ryeon, who was crying, Chae-yeon was under the bridge and the old man was looking at me with a look of blaming me.

If it weren't for her, he might have died or everyone would have died by firing a gun. She was the one who gave decisive help in the crucial moment. I feel complicated feelings when I get help after always helping. But it was never a bad feeling.

'Thank you.'

In the end, he gave his most sincere thanks. I thanked her. Thank you for saving my life and protecting my party including Chae-yeon. When she hears my thanks, she starts to cry more sadly. The old man who was just watching it gets up with his tongue twitching.

'Stop whining, you little brat.’

The old man spoke deftly and began to clear his luggage on one side. I wanted to appeal, but I couldn't because I was soothing Chae-yeon, who pulled my pants, and Kang Soo-ryeon, who kept crying. In the wake of a storm, we felt strangely small routine.

And a small meeting was held. The meeting, which started with a brief seat, ended in less than a minute. The contents and conclusion of the meeting were simple.

Leave the shelter.

The shelter was safe and drinking water was available. And because it was a deserted mountain, it was free from noise. But the benefits were all squandered by its emergence. I remember the face of the venomous young man. It will never give us up.

So we decided to leave the shelter without hesitation. The children, who were particularly anxious, nodded desperately and two women were also in favor. The old man was already packing his bags as if he knew it would come again.

And another problem remained.

Where should we head?

But the problem has been decided so simply. The destination is a large supermarket where I have a key. Although it was in the middle of the city, it was rich in supplies and excellent locks. We needed to be careful of them, but this was the only place that came to mind right now, assuming we were moving in later.

We gathered opinions and produced results in a short period of time, just like colony life. Children and women began to move in perfect order, and the elderly quickly packed their weapons and equipment. There was no food left, so there was nothing to pack. But I packed everything from the remaining plastic bottle to the blanket.

While the party was busy moving, I stood still in the lobby for a moment and looked around the shelter blankly. a strangely affectionate shelter I watched the busily moving party staring blankly inside the shelter as if I were recollecting.

The scene changes before you know it, reminding you of the past. When I first came here with my party, Lee Hye-in looked at me with fear. And I walk to the bathroom looking pathetic. Lastly, Chae-yeon hugs me in front of the lobby.

When someone hits me like a movie, all of my memories disappear and turn into a chaotic lobby. I stared blankly at the back, and the old man was putting his hand on my shoulder, and after that, all the party members who packed the luggage were looking at me.

said the old man.

'Shall we go?'

And I answered.

'Yes, we have to go.’

* * * * * * *

'I'm sorry.'

As soon as the whole party left the shelter, Lee Yeon-kyung told us. It was her face that was dark all the time after morning dawned and she came to her senses. We knew the reason, so we kept our mouths shut and pretended nothing had happened, but she didn't seem to be at all.

With dim eyes like a madman, and a face that seemed to have lost everything in the world, she bowed to us. I'm sorry, the word had a lot of implications. But I didn't mean to blame her.

It was like a disaster that attacked us. A disaster that can't be prevented even if you know it and don't know when She didn't know it was there and I had agreed to go there. This was just like a variable that happened in the course of a transaction. I didn't want to pass the buck to her.

However, Lee Yeon-kyung, as if she did not, held her brother forward, desperately with her head down and hugging him. The mournful gesture was ready to kneel down if he wanted to.

"Well, I'm so sorry......... I know you're shameless, but......... please just Junho......... could you just take my brother?’

There was an awkward silence among the party. This silence was not silence then, blaming or rejecting her impudence. However, it was such a silence that occurred because he didn't know how to respond. The old man coughs in a corner. I keep my mouth shut and look into space.

I was thinking of taking her naturally. He didn't seem to be particularly ill-tempered, and no one in our party was cold-hearted to leave her alone here, where monsters like Ah-hi were wandering around.

I slowly shifted my sight and looked at the women and the children, and they were looking at me with desperate eyes. Sympathy? Sympathy? Or a homogeneity? I wanted to go with him, but he didn't seem to be able to say yes because of me.

I coughed in vain. Was it always this hard to ask you to come with me? What should I say? Do I have to speak warmly? I was standing hesitating for a long time, and I heard the old man's voice from behind me.

What are you doing? Are you filming a drama? You're supposed to go before dark.'

Looking at the old man, already that faraway old man was looking at us and talking. At that moment, the silence is broken and the awkward atmosphere begins to ease a little. As if they had been silent, the group whispered again and busily moved in a line. And start getting ready to move.

The brother and sister staring at it blankly make eye contact with me. I coughed for nothing and said in a low voice.

'Let's go together.

And the way he looked at me was burdensome, so he quickly turned his head. Then, he takes the lead of the party and moves slowly. As soon as I turn back, I hear the sighs of relief and the sniffing of siblings behind me.

I walked after the old man, walking casually as if I hadn't heard it. That's a relief. Good job. I'm relieved now. In such a short time, Kang Soo-ryeon and Kim Si-eun followed me, whispering to their sister and sister.

The sky was clear and shining, as if to bless our future. And the sunlight that we saw after a long time shone on us. The weather was still cold, but I felt my body and mind melt in the warm sunshine. But that feeling didn't last long either.

As I began to climb over the middle of the mountain and down the sloping hiking trail, I began to see the city in the distance. And I warned my party. From now on, you should never make a sound and watch your surroundings. The old man, who was walking ahead, slowly walked this way and took charge of the rear and I led the way in the lead.

We'll be at the bottom of the mountain in a little while. And if you pass the familiar path I used to take, you will be able to get to Well-being Mart without difficulty.

I had a lot of thoughts throughout the walk. He survived the worst enemy, and his party is all safe. Compared to the beginning, the situation was clear, but that didn't mean our future is bright. And I had to seriously think about the future that I had avoided.

As soon as you have a large supermarket as your base, you won't have to worry about food. There was a lot of food that I checked that day, and there was a variety of daily necessities except food. At least it would be more abundant and comfortable than a shelter life.

But then what?

Get food and avoid the cold. That has been the biggest challenge yet. But the task will be solved the moment we settle down at the big mart and it was time to think about the next problem.

Man is not a mere breadwinner.

At least we needed a lighthouse of hope and the future. If you bear with it, hope that someday you can go back to your daily life and the future that things will get better and better. There wasn't it now. Steady walking along the foggy road will wear us out one day.

My head was so complicated that I could only sigh. But I came to my senses again and took a step forward.