I'm trapped in a cube

This is a fear that stems from low self-esteem, fear that you are not doing well, and that everything you do is unsatisfactory.

As a healer, he was afraid of his own abilities, of not being able to complete the cure, of not being able to fulfill his responsibilities, and of not being able to satisfy his patients.

Looking at Bo Ke who was trembling all over, Mo Ling realized that this powerful race with wonderful power was actually full of concerns about itself.

Fear comes from worry, and worry comes from low self-esteem.

Pork carries a deep sense of inferiority, which also brings him endless fear.

Thinking of his previous experiences, it was hard for Mo Ling not to wonder whether Poke had also been infected by those black balls and added personal emotions when he was healing.

This personal emotion made him extremely paranoid about eradicating parasitic plants. Even though he had gone through many cycles, he still stubbornly persisted in this matter.

Thinking of this, Mo Ling immediately asked Xi, "Xi, do you feel any strange emotions here?"

Xi immediately understood what Mo Ling meant, but he denied Mo Ling's guess: "Senior, there are no strange emotions or black things in Bok's healing space."

"The first time I entered here, I checked, but I didn't find any. Maybe they were hiding somewhere I couldn't find."

Mo Ling was a little surprised when he heard Xi's answer.

"No?"

Wasn't Poker attacked by those black balls at all?

Seeing Pok's current confused and ignorant look, Mo Ling could only remind: "Xi, after Pok wakes up, you can check his body and see what's going on with his memory. If his memory recovers, Yes, maybe there are clues.”

"I understand, senior."

As the parasitic plants were completely eliminated, everything around them was gradually falling apart.

The surrounding tropical rainforest fell like broken glass, and then disappeared without a trace like smoke and dust.

And behind the glass shards, there was a sea of ​​burning fire.

The sea of ​​​​fire is also rapidly collapsing, and further behind the cracks are those expanding plants.

Layer after layer, the "textures" of the environment are revealed one after another. This is every scene that Pork has experienced.

As these scenes appeared, Pork knelt on the ground in pain, shaking the light ball on his head.

"Pork, what's wrong with you?" Xi asked with concern.

"I remembered...I remembered..."

At this moment, it seemed that all the memories were pouring into Pork's mind. In an instant, he remembered what he had done in every scene. The disasters that occurred in each cycle were constantly stimulating his mind.

Sea of ​​fire, swelling, glaciers, deserts...

At this moment, countless repressed emotions rushed into Pork's memory.

The "root" he has been pursuing is just impossible healing again and again.

His inferiority and fear were superimposed in the repeated failed healings, and twisted into a huge shadow in his subconscious. Although he lost his memory, these experiences continued to affect him deep in his consciousness. Making him feel even more inferior and fearful.

"I understand why I tremble every time I heal."

Pork said in a daze, he finally understood the source of his inferiority complex.

"Are you okay? Pork." Xi gently touched Pork's shoulder and said worriedly.

The overwhelming influx of memories can easily lead to mental breakdown.

However, after accepting all this, Pork calmed down.

"I'm fine, I feel relaxed."

easy? Xi almost thought that Pork was so stimulated that he had a mental problem.

"Of course, I have gone through so many cycles and I have failed so many times, but no patient was really harmed. Isn't this something to be thankful for?"

Pork slowly stood up from the ground.

"These memories are changing me subtly. They use repeated failures to make me feel inferior and more afraid, and make me doubt my own healing without knowing it."

"You know? Xi, I actually know that my formula is right, but I will doubt myself and escape. I will think that if I don't do it, I will not fail. My hands will always be trembling."

"This fear that comes from nowhere has been affecting me. Every time I muster the courage, it will lead to greater failure, which makes me resist bravery from the bottom of my heart."

Pork's light group flickered and shone on Xi's body. At this moment, the lights of the two doctors echoed each other and became the only anchor point in the broken picture.

"I doubt myself too much, that's why I am so happy after you come here, because I need a companion to verify my formula. In that way, even if something goes wrong, it is not entirely my responsibility. I am trying every means to escape myself. ”

"Actually, it was the same when I was on Baihua Island. I didn't dare to make decisions on my own. I would always find you and ask you to make decisions for me..."

Hearing this, Xi interrupted Pork's story: "You are more courageous than most doctors in being able to leave the Metamorphosis Islands."

"This is also a decision you made for me, have you forgotten?" Pork asked.

Xi was stunned for a moment: "It seems right..."

"Never mind." Xi patted Pork's shoulder hard: "No one has ever stipulated that responsibilities must be borne alone, right?"

"Isn't it normal to ask others for help when you feel scared?"

"I'm always afraid, everyone is afraid... But we are companions, aren't we? Companions are used to share fear."

Hearing this, Poke was also stunned: "Just that?"

"And when something goes wrong, we share the blame?" Xi said uncertainly.

"What else?"

"And... when you are lazy, you can let your companions work hard?"

"Huh?"

"Also, when you meet a strong companion, you can hug his thighs, you just need to cheer behind... When you run away, you can disperse and go your own way... And, when you are attacked, you can hide behind your companions..."

"Why do I feel a little strange?" Poke sweated.

Xi also realized that his explanation was a bit off, and immediately changed the subject:

"Are you much better now?"

"I've recovered, but there are still some gaps in my memory. I may have to wait until I get out to recover."

As he spoke, the surrounding scene had collapsed to the final stage.

As the scene filled with yellow sand gradually broke, a maze wrapped in black walls appeared. This was the most "bottom-level" scene, and the scene closest to reality.

When he saw the black wall, Poker froze in place as if he suddenly remembered something.

His light ball flickered, as if it had been hit by some huge impact, and the sealed memory suddenly cracked...