Incurable Pain

The moment Lu Ying saw Bai Xunyin, a trace of doubt crossed her eyes behind the lens, and then she stood up and nodded: "Please sit down."

Inexplicably, she felt that the girl was a little familiar.

"Hello." Bai Xunyin walked over and sat down, pursing the beautifully-lined lips, but only said this sentence.

She didn't seem to mean to confide in her heart directly. Lu Ying understood her heart, but she didn't urge.

"People who come here to book my account usually encounter things that cannot be solved by their own ability, or psychological obstacles." Lu Ying crossed her fingers, her ocean-like eyes seemed to be smiling slightly, examining Bai Xunyin: " Girl, you seem to be a calm and intellectual girl, well, dressing is more casual, it should be a temperament that does not force anything, do you have any psychological problems that are difficult to explain to outsiders."

Bai Xunyin, who was just trying to find out if Yu Luoyin had been here, was startled, but under Lu Ying's fixed gaze, he really unconsciously felt a feeling of wanting to talk.

She couldn't help biting her lip.

"Don't, don't be nervous." Lu Ying smiled: "Girl, just talk about the things that have troubled you recently."

And her job is to analyze and guide from it, not just sitting and listening to all the intractable diseases in the patient's heart.

"Doctor, I like my boyfriend very much." After a long while, Bai Xunyin finally spoke, as if only tentatively said: "I also enjoy the process of being with him, but... I will be a little scared unconsciously."

Lu Ying's heart moved slightly, and she was tempted to ask: "What are you afraid of? Is he afraid of himself, or is he afraid that the beautiful feeling he brings to you will one day disappear?"

Bai Xunyin pursed his lips, and said honestly: "It may be the latter."

"It's not surprising, many patients are like this." Lu Ying smiled, and pushed her glasses down with her slender fingers: "Girl, there is a saying that can explain your current state-groundless worry."

Bai Xunyin looked at her blankly.

"Instead of worrying about what has not happened, it is better to do your best to maintain what has happened." Lu Ying said quietly, "Aren't you satisfied with your current state?"

Bai Xunyin frowned, thoughtfully.

"It may be a bit vulgar to say, but..." Lu Ying paused, half-jokingly: "A girl like you shouldn't worry about your boyfriend's love for you disappearing."

Bai Xunyin shook his head: "No."

Lu Ying was taken aback: "What?"

"It's not that his love will disappear. On the contrary, I'm afraid I can't respond to his hot love." Bai Xunyin smiled slightly, with a bitter smile: "Like a volcano under lava, I'm afraid of that. It feels like a blowout at any time, and I feel like I can’t respond, but I also love him very much.”

Bai Xunyin had never said the word'love' to Yu Luoyin, but nowadays, he naturally confided it in front of this strange woman.

It seemed that a person with no direction finally found a corner where she could shelter, she told her heartily: "Sometimes I can't help but think, like me who dare not open my heart, is it worthy of his unreservedness? ?"

"But I know he only wants me."

Lu Ying never expected that in this warm afternoon, she would see such a beautiful girl telling such a ‘romantic’ love story.

The boyfriend in Bai Xunyin's mouth came to mind, affectionate and hot.

"Girl." Lu Ying couldn't help but smile: "You are a typical symptom of a lack of self-recognition security, but your condition looks healthy. Maybe your boyfriend plays a great role in it."

"Yes, I had a psychological checkup before, and the doctor said I have obsessive-compulsive disorder, anxiety..." Bai Xunyin smiled: "But he said it would cure me."

Yu Luoyin said that he is the best doctor.

Lu Ying couldn't help but sigh with emotion: "Your feelings are really enviable."

She didn't use such a scarce adjective as ‘really good’, but said that it was enviable.

This is precisely from the perspective of an outsider hearing Bai Xunyin's narrative, and one can also see Yu Luoyin's affectionate voice.

"Yes, so I want to heal him too." Bai Xunyin smiled, and then told the truth about his coming: "Doctor, in fact, I came here this time because of my boyfriend...he has been here before."

Lu Ying was taken aback: "What?"

"I want to know why he needs to see a psychologist." Bai Xunyin sighed, "Can you help me?"

In fact, the doctor must never expose the patient’s ***, but Lu Ying still couldn’t help but ask: “What’s your boyfriend’s name?”

Bai Xunyin replied cleverly: "Yu Luoyin."

what? Lu Ying was shocked and almost jumped up-she rarely experienced great emotional ups and downs, but helplessly, Yu Luoyin was too familiar with her.

For a while, Lu Ying finally remembered why she thought Bai Xunyin was familiar.

Some time ago, the girl in the "Official Xuan" photo in Yu Luoyin's circle of friends was beautiful and refined. Isn't it the girl in front of you?

Bai Xunyin saw Lu Ying's stunned look, and he understood clearly, and asked calmly, "The doctor remembers his name?"

"I...remember." Lu Ying hesitated, silently swallowing the phrase "we can't disclose the patient's **" that I had prepared long ago, and asked instead: "Is Xiao Yu in good condition recently? He hasn't been here for more than a year and nearly two years."

Instead of coming to the psychological clinic, it is a good thing.

Yu Luoyin's failure to come means that his mental state is healthy.

"No, not lately." Bai Xunyin shook his head: "I heard that he came to you about five years ago, so he has been here for about three years? Can you tell me what's wrong with him? ?"

Lu Ying was relieved when she heard that Yu Luoyin's mental state was still healthy.

"Actually, it's nothing." She turned her pen and smiled helplessly: "Five years ago, Xiao Yu was **** and hurt some emotionally, and she felt that her choice could not be forgiven by the people around her, so she was fine. He would come to sit here when he was a child, and it was a way to express his emotions, but I assessed that his condition was good at that time, at least he was much better than when he was a child."

Bai Xunyin was taken aback, and subconsciously asked: "When I was young?"

"Well, Xiao Yu was thirteen when he came to me for the first time." Lu Ying recalled Yu Luoyin's naive and cold appearance, who had just entered junior high school: "It's been a dozen years ago."

Thirteen……

Bai Xunyin frowned: "Did he see a psychiatrist at the age of thirteen?"

"It's not only the big people who have psychological troubles." Lu Ying couldn't help but smile: "There are often more unknown troubles in the children's world, at least for Xiao Yu, he was precocious, and his mental state at that time. It’s much worse than it was five years ago."

Bai Xunyin's fingers on his knees tightened unconsciously, holding back his doubts, and quietly listening to Lu Ying's words.

"It stands to reason that I shouldn't disclose the content of his medical consultations to you, but you are his girlfriend, and the person he has determined to spend his life..." Lu Ying paused, her eyes sharpened: "You are Is that the girl back then?"

Bai Xunyin was taken aback: "What?"

"I know that Xiaoyu talked about a girlfriend in high school. He loved her very much. It was because of the girl who came to the doctor five years ago." Lu Ying didn't condemn her eyes, but asked gently: "It's you. Huh?"

Bai Xunyin recovered from her narration and nodded frankly.

There is nothing to admit.

"I knew it was you, Xiao Yu is a long-lasting person." Lu Ying couldn't help but smile, and she felt like she had guessed the answer. Her voice was very emotional: "The first time he came to me, it was because a man accompanied him since he was a child. The big robot is broken."

"A precocious 13-year-old boy came to see a psychiatrist because the robot was broken? Doesn’t it sound strange, but Yu Luoyin is such a person. He looks old and introverted. In fact, because of his native family, he has long nostalgia. situation."

"I remember he said that the robot was the first birthday gift he received when he was a child. Even though the workmanship was old and blunt, he still liked it."

"No matter how many robots there will be, he doesn't like it anymore."

Robots are like this, let alone real people?

No wonder Lu Ying said that she was not surprised that Bai Xunyin was a girl from six years ago, because a boy like Yu Luoyin...would not do it, she would only fall in love with one person.

"Xiao Yu's uneasy feeling comes from his native family, from the pressure of his parents to put his expectations into him and the coldness of the parent-child relationship."

"Since you are condescending to ask me? Why don't you give me a little bit of pitiful family affection? Why is the relationship between parents and children of all families in the class closer than ours?" Lu Ying sighed and described the beginning from the perspective of an onlooker. The restlessness and sensitivity of the little boy——

"Children long for the love of their parents. The less they get, the more they want. Xiao Yu is not afraid to grow up according to their strict requirements, but occasionally wants some ordinary family-style care."

"But in his kind of family, it is precisely this kind of ordinary affection that is the rarest."

Bai Xunyin thought of Gu Yuan, and thought of his son who was in the hospital with a fractured kneecap. He just glanced at it and left, and couldn't help squinting his eyes.

An unspeakable resentment hit my heart.

"The thirteen-year-old does not understand those."

"But Xiao Yu is clever, and deceiving psychotherapy can't deceive him-for example, those who study hard to meet the requirements of their parents, they will love you such nonsense." Lu Ying snorted coldly, disapproving: "So I had to change it. From one perspective, I told him that the strict requirements of parents are to make you a strong password, just like solving a complicated puzzle. When you grow up strong enough, your parents will start to ask for your love."

This is indeed the case.

Lu Ying's ability to open her own psychological clinic at a young age is evident.

She will treat people and know what kind of treatment to target what kind of people.

For Yu Luoyin, a cold and arrogant teenager, it is useless to sympathize with the poor and persuade him, only to stimulate him.

And what Lu Ying said was true. The more outstanding the talent, the more attracted the attention of Gu Yuan and Yu Yuan—Yu Luoyin's growing strength was actually just to ‘retaliate’ them at the beginning.

It was only later that he became less and less happy in appearance and matured as a young man.

"He received three years of treatment with me, and then he went to high school, so he stopped coming." After Lu Yingxu finished speaking, he unexpectedly remembered an episode——

"But when he was in the third year of high school, he did come once, but not for himself, but..."

Lu Ying is such an ingenious brain circuit thinking. At this point, I think of Yu Luoyin's anxiety when he asked about ‘post-traumatic stress disorder’, and immediately felt blessed to the soul.

What kind of person would it be that a teenager like Yu Luoyin could consult her?

"Miss Bai, take the liberty to ask." Lu Ying asked tentatively, "Can you talk in high school? Or, have you had PTSD symptoms?"

Bai Xunyin was a little stunned: "Is there... did Yu Luoyin tell you?"

"No, no." Lu Ying shook her head, turning a pen with her slender fingertips: "He came to consult."

"He asked me how to heal a girl who couldn't speak because of intense trauma, think about it, it should be you."

All the doubts seem to have formed a dense circle at this moment.

Bai Xunyin finally knew why Yu Luoyin used that method to stimulate him six years ago. It turned out that he not only read the book, but also came to consult.

"That silly boy has a bad character, or I guess you wouldn't be willing to leave him for six years." Lu Ying looked at Bai Xunyin's expression, and she smiled: "But he is true. I love you forever."

"Little girl, don't be afraid of loving him, be bold."

"What he desires most in his life should be pure and passionate feelings."

"If you two will get married one day, you must invite me to have a wedding drink."

At this moment, Yu Luoyin's mysterious past and the dark corners behind his wanton and unrestrained nature seemed to be revealed bit by bit.

Bai Xunyin never thought that she would feel sorry for the 13-year-old boy after more than ten years.

Yes, Yu Luoyin has indeed been a bastard, but a **** has grown into a person who is willing to heal other people's pain. How much self-negotiation has he experienced during this time?

He turned out to be really good and sensible.

After a long while, Bai Xunyin let out a deep breath, her frustrated mood dissipated, and she laughed.

"Doctor Lu, we will send you an invitation."

A few years ago, she thought that she and Yu Luoyin would talk about getting married. It was like a fairy tale. They were separated from each other, and there were eight thousand miles in between.

But now...Bai Xun Yin felt that there might be such a day, maybe, it would come soon.

The thought of my life disappearing so quickly, and I am not really alive, I can't stand it-Hemingway's "The Sun Also Rises".

Only with the right person can the feeling of'alive' become more and more real.

Rarely, Yu Luoyin, who did not need to be exploited by his teacher, got off work on time and bought a fish to go home.

He has recently learned to cook and dabbled a lot. It may be that a smart person learns everything quickly. The principle is quite applicable. It turns out that the young master who has ten fingers and does not touch Yang Chunshui learns to cook, whether it is chopping or stir-frying. Kind of.

Yu Luoyin found that Bai Xunyin liked to eat the steamed sea bass he made. He tried to make it that night, and the little girl who had a modest amount ate a few more chopsticks.

She was silent at the time, but she had actually written it down silently-it turned out that she liked to eat fish, bass.

So after work, I went to the vegetable market and picked a fresh live fish like a family cook.

When I got home, I got up lightly.

On weekends, Bai Xunyin does not go to work, and occasionally likes to take a nap to make up for sleep.

It's just not today.