Infatuation Of Darkness

The whole argument that she had had with Dr Peterson was useless. In the end, Alexis knew that she was right.Not everyone suggested for our good, sometimes they did it for themselves. Their hidden intentions which no one could think about.

But what were Angelo's?

"I .. am sorry.." Came a broken whisper to her ear.

She tired around but saw no one but then remembered that she was on the phone with her mother. She had completely forgotten about that.

"Wha-Why?" She whispered back. This seemed to be a little unbelievable.

"I just.." A sob was heard and Alexis realised that her mother was crying. "I don't know, to be honest. I just did not know, I was not aware of what I was doing to you. I was an orphan that climbed my way up so I thought that as a parent giving you a shelter on your head.. that you get to call your own and clothes and food in the fridge. I just don't know.." She whispered and sniffed.

Somewhere it broke Alexis's heart. She didn't intend to come out that hard. That was not her intension.

"Mom-"

"No, no," Vanessa stubbornly said. "I need to say this. Your father was supposed to be there. He said he would. He was to guide me through. He said so.. he would have helped me through it all as he promised when I first told him. He just..he was so happy and those promises. I believed him. Who would ever think about a disaster striking and taking him away?"

"I worked hard because my salary was not enough for your college fund. I worked hard. Your father's salary was much more than mine, so we thought to save mine completely for you and use his but..it.."

"It just..didn't happen that way.." Alexis completely in a soft voice.

"Yes, that." Her mother sniffed again. "I am a sorry kid. I never realised that I was pushing you away. I was working for you so that you won't have loans on your head. And for those holidays, I thought kids wanted to be alone. ..well.. to be honest, I wanted to make yourself independent. Life was for me that way. So I wanted to make sure that you knew that you could just depend on yourself."

'I know that very best.' She looked down to her lap. 'I know that very well..'

"Well. I guess it was just miscommunication then. I should have talked sooner to you about my grievances." 

Her mother continued, "And I should have been there."

Alexis swallowed and nodded. They both had fallen silent. A few sniffs were heard and that was it. No one knew what to say.

This had been just as overwhelming for her mother as it had been for her.

"Mom.." She started hesitantly.."Do you want to meet up?"

'Please don't say no. Please don't say no..' She repeatedly prayed to God as she hoped that her mother won't say no.

That would so, so disappointing and she would die from the mortification.

"Why not." Unknown to her daughter, the mother was smiling. "Just tell me where."

That made Alexis wince. She had forgotten where they were. She was in Chicago whereas her mother, to her current knowledge, was in New York. Or so she thought.

"Yes, mum, I am in Chicago."

"Chicago!" Her mother gasped. "Kid what are you doing there?"

Lying eggs. 

"We shifted." Her answer, even the one was on the tip of the tongue, remained respectful. she had been respected for enough to her mother for the day and she could no longer wish to do it.

"Oh, well, I think I can come down there for the weekend." She heard a bit of shuffling from her mother's side. "Which is in three days, I can come on Saturday." She agreed.

"Great," Alexis chirped feeling happy about it. "Its date then."

Vanessa laughed softly at that. "Yes, it would be our date. A long-overdue date."

"Oh, mum.." Alexis could not help but sigh at the tone on her mother said that in. "It's going to be okay. We will take one step at a time and we would get back on track for sure." She promised.

They talked about how life had been to them recently and Hung up pretty soon after.

Alexis once again stood near the windows but this time she stood in her room. There was a feeling in her chest that made her feel content. Satisfied she would rather say. They were not afternoon chances where she could feel the satisfaction of her actions.

With this one, she did at her own will. Something she is doing for herself, for her sanity.

Without even thinking about it, har rebellion against Angelo I took her on a different journey. A journey in which she left for herself and felt responsible for her actions.

"You are back," Angelo noted as the first thing when he stepped inside their room.

"I am." She agreed. "I am back in the room."

He nodded, not understanding what she meant by the words. "Well I for one, am happy about that."

She smiled but did not reply. and so did he she went on to his routine of taking off his clothes and changing before taking a shower.

"Angelo?" She called and soon had his acknowledgement to it. "Are we doing anything this Saturday?" Then without waiting for his reply she continued, "because I am busy for the whole day."

"The whole day?" she could practically hear the frown in his voice as he repeated. "what is it that you're doing is going to take the whole day?"

She knew that her answer would take him off guard,  "I am meeting with my mother." she smiled as she answered and watched his expression for a moment but quickly collected by him.

"Your mother?" He harshly repeated but then schooled his features. "I thought that it was you who blocked her contact."

For the first time, Alexis noticed the play of words he had. A conveniently pushed the blame of blocking her mother from her life at her where as she remembered that it was their decision not hers alone. But since he had already decided that she had to be blamed then she would accept.

Smiling once again at him she said, "well I realise my faults and now I want to correct them. We will be doing lots of stuff this Saturday so don't expect me to join you in anything."

"And pray tell what caused such a change of heart?"

She could feel that Angelo was not happy. But she cares? Nope.

"I don't know. Perhaps knowing that you had a child hidden from me. It is made me question what else do I not know. So I decided that it's time I and my mother had a talk."

"And how was your talk?"

She raised an eyebrow address intrusive nature but answered nonetheless. "Informative."

if he thought that she will give away everything that she knew he was wrong. Alexis was going to maintain her secrecy and only tell him if it was necessary.

"Informative?" He questioned with the sarcastic smile. "That certainly the does the trick, doesn't it."

"Your mother abandons you in the middle of nowhere and you yet, decide that like always you would readily let her come in your life. Do you not think that it is the time for you to cut her off?"

Alexis lowered her head to the ground appearing to be thinking hard about what he said making him smile in triumph.

She looked up to the son expression and shook her head. "No. I don't think so." She spoke innocently. 

This answer certainly caught him off guard and he looked astonished at that. If the situation was not as it was Alexis would have laughed loudly at his face but she could not do that as she had appearances to keep.

He turned to look the other way and nodded his head. "Well, I believe that you can make your own decisions."

'About time people started to believe that.' she smiled.

"Alright I'll go see if Agatha has prepared anything yet or not." She dusted off her lap and walked out of the room.

He felt furious. All his plans had got down the drain, they were washed away by that one stupid mistake. He would kill that woman and now that had a wife he no longer needed the mother for his child.

If it had to be a motherless child that he would bring to his wife to appeal to her, then she certainly got that very child.

But that would not happen right now, it surely would not.

Angelo would let her enjoy her newfound freedom. She should have the ability to make her own decisions, it was important in her role as the Donna.

But in the end, he would make sure so that it was his fingers that she was dancing on.