Infinity: Rising of the Soul Weavers
Chapter 158 - Regret And Sorrow Part 2
*Hoang - Run Back To You (feat. Alisa) *
Swallowing loudly while wiping away her tears, Raven cupped her hands around Lizzy's face and forced her to look her in the eyes.
"Why did you do it? Why did you destroy thousands of buildings and kill even more people?
"Why did you kill baby Rituxi, didn't you know that she hasn't experienced her life yet? Why did you let my Maya and Maria suffer? Did they ever harm you in any shape, way, or form?" Raven asked.
Even though her voice was cold, warm tears ran down her cheeks as her lips quivered, struggling to keep herself from crying out loud.
Seeing that, Lizzy felt even worse as she felt a thousand knots tightening around her stomach and lungs, preventing her from breathing.
Not knowing what to say in response to Raven's question, she tried to shake her head as she felt tears running down.
"I- I wasn't in control…" she managed to say.
At that, Raven's hands let go of her as she widened her eyes in surprise, regret and guilt taking a hold of her.
Raven wasn't a stranger to the concept of power taking control over the body.
It was something similar to when she had almost lost control and killed Red Joe and his men in front of Rachel's dad, or even when Tu had helped her in the fight against Scott.
Even though he had meant to help her, she had her soul chained away in the dark corner of her essence.
From what the girl was showing, whatever or whoever was taking control was by no means helping her.
'It must have been really hard on her…' Raven thought in realisation, feeling the strange ache in her heart tearing her apart.
"Can you elaborate?" Raven asked, gently this time.
*Sniff*
"I- I'm not sure," Lizzy managed to say in between sniffs. "It was dark- *sniff* I tired to kill myself, but- but then I was alive again…" she stuttered as she realised how confused she actually was by the previous events.
It was almost as if she was watching some disoriented and blurry clips of a horror movie she has never seen before and then trying to make sense of what was going on. Except, she was the main character in that movie.
"A dark version of myself took control and destroyed everything." She managed to say before coughing and starting to feel even dizzier than before. "I tried to stop her… she was too powerful… she pushed me away and I was helpless.
"I watched as she slaughtered and killed… I saw blood," she swallows loudly. "A lot of it, I could not help. I could not breath. It's still hard…
"Whenever I close my eyes, I see and smell blood. I even feel it on my face as if I was bathing in it…
"I can't die, but I'm not alive… please let someone release me from this torture!" She finally broke down, unable to understand what she's deserved to ever suffer this much.
First, she's lost her brother. Trying to force through her tough life, she was extremely happy when she had met Liam.
But then, he had also left her alone. And just when she was at the pit of her life, drowning in despair, and decided to give up, this hell refused to leave her…
Even though she had tried to stop her suffering, this world decided that she hasn't had enough yet and that she deserved even more suffering.
As such, she was put against more torture. With every droplet of blood she caused to drop on the ground, she felt her soul shattering apart and her sanity dissolve into nothingness.
With every person she killed, she felt herself being pulled away from everything she's ever believed in… from everything she's ever loved.
'Sammy, Liam, will a time come when you accept me back into your hearts?' she thought, feeling her vision getting darker as regret and sorrow choked her, prevention an ounce of air into her lungs.
All the while, Raven was clutching her chest tightly, unable to swallow her guilt and feeling it blocking the veins if her heart.
'I am such a disgusting and miserable living being…' She thought to herself as her arms moved on their own, wrapping around Lizzy's shaking frame.
Feeling the sudden warm aura surrounding her as Raven hugged her, Lizzy didn't even question it as her mind was on the verge of being lost forever.
Returning the hug and squeezing Raven even tighter as if she was her last lifeline, she cried and cried on her shoulder.
Unlike before, she seemed to get calmer with each tear she shed as Raven's aura almost consoled her and eased her pain.
Staying like that for a few more minutes, Lizzy could not resist and quickly fell asleep in Raven's silent embrace.
Feeling her tense muscles suddenly relax, Raven swallowed loudly and tried to calm her own racing heart.
Trying to put her alone in her bed, Lizzy subconsciously held tight onto Raven who was surprised.
But realising that the girl was just a victim of some strange interference, she didn't mind keeping her company and making sure she was okay for just a little bit longer.
Pointing towards the door, Kayla ushered Ian and the kid-doll in the white suit out of the room.
Closing the door behind them, Kayla moved a chair closer to the bed and rested her head near Raven.
"You believed her rather quickly," Kayla whispered quietly. "Although I didn't want you to torture her while she was helpless, I didn't mean for you to act as her mother or feel guilty for what you've done…"
Looking into Kayla's red eyes then the ceiling, Raven didn't know what to say as she was mostly doing good in order for her to overcome her guilt.
However, deep in her heart, she knew that the girl wasn't lying. 'There is no way she was lying and all of that was just acting…' she thought to herself.
"Kay?" Raven called while closing her eyes. "Do you think I did the right thing?
"Maybe she was lying… or maybe she had some other plans that would endanger the future… but what if she was just a victim?
"What if what she said is the truth and someone actually controlled her body and mind?"
*Sigh*
"You ask me that even though you're hugging her in her sleep to make sure she's relaxed?" Kayla sighed. "I only know as much as you do…
"But with that being said, even if you feel that she was indeed just a victim, will you be willing to forgive her after everything that's happened and after everything she's done, controlled or not? That is the question you must ask yourself."
At that, Raven sighed, not knowing how to answer. 'In addition, what would Maria think? What will she do to the girl or me after knowing that I was kind to her?'
"Also," Kayla continued. "If she was a real victim that you gave hope to, imagine what would happen if you suddenly acted all cold when she woke up…"
"I'd completely break her…" Raven muttered in response, biting her lip in concern.
'I guess… I'm willing to take the risks… after all, I'm pretty sure Maya would have been extremely mad at me if I didn't,' she smiled.
Swallowing loudly while wiping away her tears, Raven cupped her hands around Lizzy's face and forced her to look her in the eyes.
"Why did you do it? Why did you destroy thousands of buildings and kill even more people?
"Why did you kill baby Rituxi, didn't you know that she hasn't experienced her life yet? Why did you let my Maya and Maria suffer? Did they ever harm you in any shape, way, or form?" Raven asked.
Even though her voice was cold, warm tears ran down her cheeks as her lips quivered, struggling to keep herself from crying out loud.
Seeing that, Lizzy felt even worse as she felt a thousand knots tightening around her stomach and lungs, preventing her from breathing.
Not knowing what to say in response to Raven's question, she tried to shake her head as she felt tears running down.
"I- I wasn't in control…" she managed to say.
At that, Raven's hands let go of her as she widened her eyes in surprise, regret and guilt taking a hold of her.
Raven wasn't a stranger to the concept of power taking control over the body.
It was something similar to when she had almost lost control and killed Red Joe and his men in front of Rachel's dad, or even when Tu had helped her in the fight against Scott.
Even though he had meant to help her, she had her soul chained away in the dark corner of her essence.
From what the girl was showing, whatever or whoever was taking control was by no means helping her.
'It must have been really hard on her…' Raven thought in realisation, feeling the strange ache in her heart tearing her apart.
"Can you elaborate?" Raven asked, gently this time.
*Sniff*
"I- I'm not sure," Lizzy managed to say in between sniffs. "It was dark- *sniff* I tired to kill myself, but- but then I was alive again…" she stuttered as she realised how confused she actually was by the previous events.
It was almost as if she was watching some disoriented and blurry clips of a horror movie she has never seen before and then trying to make sense of what was going on. Except, she was the main character in that movie.
"A dark version of myself took control and destroyed everything." She managed to say before coughing and starting to feel even dizzier than before. "I tried to stop her… she was too powerful… she pushed me away and I was helpless.
"I watched as she slaughtered and killed… I saw blood," she swallows loudly. "A lot of it, I could not help. I could not breath. It's still hard…
"Whenever I close my eyes, I see and smell blood. I even feel it on my face as if I was bathing in it…
"I can't die, but I'm not alive… please let someone release me from this torture!" She finally broke down, unable to understand what she's deserved to ever suffer this much.
First, she's lost her brother. Trying to force through her tough life, she was extremely happy when she had met Liam.
But then, he had also left her alone. And just when she was at the pit of her life, drowning in despair, and decided to give up, this hell refused to leave her…
Even though she had tried to stop her suffering, this world decided that she hasn't had enough yet and that she deserved even more suffering.
As such, she was put against more torture. With every droplet of blood she caused to drop on the ground, she felt her soul shattering apart and her sanity dissolve into nothingness.
With every person she killed, she felt herself being pulled away from everything she's ever believed in… from everything she's ever loved.
'Sammy, Liam, will a time come when you accept me back into your hearts?' she thought, feeling her vision getting darker as regret and sorrow choked her, prevention an ounce of air into her lungs.
All the while, Raven was clutching her chest tightly, unable to swallow her guilt and feeling it blocking the veins if her heart.
'I am such a disgusting and miserable living being…' She thought to herself as her arms moved on their own, wrapping around Lizzy's shaking frame.
Feeling the sudden warm aura surrounding her as Raven hugged her, Lizzy didn't even question it as her mind was on the verge of being lost forever.
Returning the hug and squeezing Raven even tighter as if she was her last lifeline, she cried and cried on her shoulder.
Unlike before, she seemed to get calmer with each tear she shed as Raven's aura almost consoled her and eased her pain.
Staying like that for a few more minutes, Lizzy could not resist and quickly fell asleep in Raven's silent embrace.
Feeling her tense muscles suddenly relax, Raven swallowed loudly and tried to calm her own racing heart.
Trying to put her alone in her bed, Lizzy subconsciously held tight onto Raven who was surprised.
But realising that the girl was just a victim of some strange interference, she didn't mind keeping her company and making sure she was okay for just a little bit longer.
Pointing towards the door, Kayla ushered Ian and the kid-doll in the white suit out of the room.
Closing the door behind them, Kayla moved a chair closer to the bed and rested her head near Raven.
"You believed her rather quickly," Kayla whispered quietly. "Although I didn't want you to torture her while she was helpless, I didn't mean for you to act as her mother or feel guilty for what you've done…"
Looking into Kayla's red eyes then the ceiling, Raven didn't know what to say as she was mostly doing good in order for her to overcome her guilt.
However, deep in her heart, she knew that the girl wasn't lying. 'There is no way she was lying and all of that was just acting…' she thought to herself.
"Kay?" Raven called while closing her eyes. "Do you think I did the right thing?
"Maybe she was lying… or maybe she had some other plans that would endanger the future… but what if she was just a victim?
"What if what she said is the truth and someone actually controlled her body and mind?"
*Sigh*
"You ask me that even though you're hugging her in her sleep to make sure she's relaxed?" Kayla sighed. "I only know as much as you do…
"But with that being said, even if you feel that she was indeed just a victim, will you be willing to forgive her after everything that's happened and after everything she's done, controlled or not? That is the question you must ask yourself."
At that, Raven sighed, not knowing how to answer. 'In addition, what would Maria think? What will she do to the girl or me after knowing that I was kind to her?'
"Also," Kayla continued. "If she was a real victim that you gave hope to, imagine what would happen if you suddenly acted all cold when she woke up…"
"I'd completely break her…" Raven muttered in response, biting her lip in concern.
'I guess… I'm willing to take the risks… after all, I'm pretty sure Maya would have been extremely mad at me if I didn't,' she smiled.
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