Isekai Torippu Shita Sono Bade Taberarechaimashita

26: I realized I couldn't pretend not to notice anymore

Ha ~ hi everyone, in a sacra escaping admirable reality ~ su......

He escaped the scene four days early while pushing down the captain. In the meantime, I have never met the captain face to face.

No, you know, I'm sorry. Excuse me.

I'm not looking at you, I'm trying not to look at you. I'm avoiding it, I am.

I'm so sorry about that...... no really......

But look, I think there are times when human beings want to run away! Just like the pleasure of sleeping twice!!

... Sorry, I'm reflecting. You're right......

I'm on lunch break now. I'm alone in my room with Mr. Elmia and Hanina, and I'm grilling in my own bed.

This fort isn't narrow, but it's not that it's huge.

Don't face the captain, I think, you better not move around too much.

Inevitably, there is more sloppiness in the room without doing this.

Mr. Elmia frightened me, and Honina worried me.

But I don't know what else to do right now.

Circular Cooler

Uh, I thought it might be time to come somehow.

When I turned to my voice, my office was walking into the room through the window.

Strange colored bodies and eyes like opals, nothing unusual.

He talks to me occasionally, but it's always a whim to show up.

"The flue seems upset."

"I guess. I know why."

Anyway, because I haven't seen the captain in the last few days.

Before that, I was sexless, and even if I was in a mood, I deserved it.

If my senses are connected to mine, it would be terribly boring here these days.

"I don't think there's anything like it anymore, but be careful."

With a crisp look, Ofi gets cautious.

For once, you must be worried about me and saying it.

But.

This is my problem, the Spirit doesn't matter.

Why do I have to move to keep the flue in the mood when I'm on my own?

"... the Spirit"

"Hmm?"

Offi makes his eyes squeeze.

It looks so adorable, like a child.

"... yeah, nothing"

I smiled and shook my neck loose to the side.

Spirits are on their own, aren't they?

That's what I tried to say.

I know it doesn't make sense to say it's something I can't help but say it.

Spirits are different from humans.

Even though there is no amount of difference in values between humans.

It must be natural that there is an incomprehensible groove between the Spirit and man.

Because if.

If the Spirit can properly understand human feelings.

I can't believe you brought people from a different world.

Because there's no way I'd ever do that.

"... Sakura, are you chomping?

Offi looked decent and snapped his neck.

Shizuku, huh?

I can't hate that choice of words.

"Do I look like that?

Um, maybe.

"Well, maybe it is"

Like my ambiguous saying, Ofi gets a troubled look.

Isn't that Shea Wase?

The spirits are truly dostraightforward, like children.

Plainly mouth a question that you can't do if you can read some air.

I read in something that spirits live longer years than humans, but it doesn't feel like that at all.

"Mixed, I wonder"

When I asked back, Ofi gave me big eyes.

"If there's so much happiness and so much fun, it's sheer wax, isn't it?

"Right. But I guess that's not all."

Humans, I am.

That's not enough to be a mix-up.

Ever since I came to this world.

Every day, there was a lot of happiness and fun.

The days when I could be with the captain were full and mixed.

Mixed, I thought.

But I knew it.

I couldn't totally mix it up.

The unhappiness that pushed over the corner of my heart made me want to putrefy at some point.

I, the Spirit, wish for Sakura's Shea Wase.

A statement without a back table, I'm sure, as you wish.

After all, the Spirit is on his own.

I felt so miserable about myself.

How can you not accept the honest words as they are?

"... thanks"

When I managed to thank him, Ofi disappeared as satisfied.

I don't know where he went, but I'm not even interested.

What man thinks, the Spirit does not know.

And vice versa.

I just thought it would be hard to be by my side right now.

sigh, Phew.

I held the pillow and rolled into bed with the broom.

Also alone.

I have a relationship with both Mr. Elmia and Hanina.

When I ran out of time to see the captain before, I naturally had more time to be alone.

With more time on my own, I couldn't help but think about what was going on.

About the captain. position as a different world person.... about the original world.

Until now, what I've been trying not to think about, what I've been running from.

You take care of me and spoil me, Captain. I love it too. But it's hard not to return the same likes.

Spirit guests, in other words, are heretical. I didn't go to the capital right away because I wanted to be soaked in warm water. Because I didn't want to be treated special. Because I was afraid to be exposed to the sight of something strange.

Family I'll never see again. I wonder what you're doing now. Looking for me, I guess. I don't know if I'm crying. Even if I know I can't... I want to see you.

A natural desire to go back.

It's easy to resent the Spirit.

Why did you bring me here, why it was me, why?

"Let this world be filled with a mixture." If you invite other people, why am I not a mixture now?

If you resent me. If you blame the Spirit for everything and say it's your fault.

But I'm not strong enough to live resenting someone.

I felt like I could handle it if I was laughing.

It was easier to pretend that there was no pain.

I wanted to spend every day in a light nori.

I just wanted to see the fun in front of me.

It's frightening to face the negative emotions directly from the front. Because I knew that was something I couldn't do.

I want to go back to the original world. But I can't go home. I want to see my family, my friends. But I can't see you.

It was painful to keep having a wish that didn't come true.

"... the captain's idiot"

I accidentally slap my hatred.

I've been trying not to think about it.

It was the captain who poked what I was running away from in front of.

Think about it. Don't run. I guess that's what you want to say.

But, captain.

It's hard. It's painful.

I miss you so much that I want to cry.

You can't fill this hole in your chest by yourself, Captain.

Besides, I've noticed other things.

As much as I hate it myself, it sucks.

I like the captain, and the feeling is not lies or anything.

But when I said if I didn't intend to work at all, I guess I didn't.

I wanted a reason to be in this world.

If there was no reason, if we didn't find a reason, it would have been too mundane.

Just one person, one bath towel, and I've come to a world where no one knows me, where I know no view anywhere.

I couldn't stand alone, because I couldn't.

So I liked the captain.

I wanted to think that "now” is a great time to be with someone I like.

I chose the captain for that opponent, perhaps because I was unconsciously feeling the favor from the captain.

By being loved, by being asked, I wanted to be reassured that my place was here.

In this world, to not be alone.

so that I can be beside him. so that he can stay by his side.

I'm sure that's because I know what the captain is like.

The captain will never abandon the man he once put in his nostalgia.

A serious, honest, responsible person.

He was a very convenient man to me.

I loved it, so I liked the captain, so he insinuated to me that we could be together.

I wanted the captain's word because I wanted the certainty that was required.

I love you, when they say so.

Get the captain's heart, I'm flimsy.

I pretended not to notice, because I was reminded of my feelings and the deviation of the captain's feelings.

I was relieved that the captain would hold me. When you melt your thoughts into the heat you are given, and your mind and body are full of captains, there is no place for a temperature difference between you and me at that moment alone.

It was just a real escape, 'cause now I know.

If I hadn't distanced myself from the captain, I'm sure I wouldn't have seen this far.

I said I liked it, they gave me back my love, and I was content with it. I meant to be satisfied.

The truth is, little by little, even though the lumps were accumulating.

While I was turning away, that had grown a lot bigger.

I can't go back where I didn't realize.

"It's painful... Captain"

Even at a time like this, he was the one who wanted to rely unconsciously.

If you were held by that disappointing arm and wrapped up in a big body, I'm sure that would be all you need to feel safe about.

But then again, I realized that not all of this suffering would go away.

I don't know how to handle thoughts I can't help.

I've lost my temper to move when I find out where I am is a maze with no exit.