Life With You

Han Chunmeng felt that Gu Dongxu’s shoulders were extraordinarily comfortable, so he looked for a comfortable posture and slept on his pillow, and said in a low voice, “I didn’t feel up for a while, but suddenly thought a lot. How do I feel about being with someone I don’t like, I probably have the desire to die."

"You have been used to living a good life since you were young. I don’t know that your parents earn hard money. My parents often tell me that no matter who you will be a daughter-in-law in the future, you must treat your parents-in-law well, and do what you do to your parents. Other parents, people have to straighten their conscience. You are so good to me, but I always add to your parents. People’s hearts are long and I am afraid of retribution."

"And between the two of us, I don't think we are as happy as before..."

Han Chunmeng held his mouth, very aggrieved, tears running down the corner of his eyes and the bridge of his nose.

Sniffing her nose, she continued: "I thought for a long time whether we are not suitable for being a couple, or whether we don’t like each other as much as we thought. Until today, when your mother came to me, I thought very well in my heart. Whatever she tells me, I won’t leave you, but she just talked about a one-million-dollar contract. I’m really scared. I’m not afraid that she will make me lose money. I just feel that I’m useless. It hasn’t reached what your parents like. Standard, can't help you much, just drag you back..."

"Don’t say you don’t care. This is your parents’ money, not yours. I can’t buy the bill, and you have no right to waive me. Your mother is right. If we were friends, she would like me very much. But I am really not suitable for your girlfriend, at least not suitable for me now."

Han Chunmeng stepped back. At first, Gu Dongxu firmly hugged her and refused to let go. She could only let go of her strength and whispered in a low voice, "Tung Xu, maybe falling in love is really different from talking about friends. I admit it was your mother who came today. I only decided to move out temporarily when I was looking for it, but the problem between us will not be resolved in a day. The result is only sooner or later. I am tired and you are tired. We need to stop and adjust, whether it is work. Still feelings."

Gu Dongxu didn't let go, Han Chunmeng took out his hand and patted him on the shoulder, and said softly, "Don't be like this, I will feel uncomfortable."

Hearing this, Gu Dongxu finally eased up slowly, Han Chunmeng withdrew from his embrace, he hung his eyes and quickly turned his head away, but she still saw him with red eyes.

Leaning on the sofa, Gu Dongxu turned his face to the opposite direction of Han Chunmeng. He was silent for a long time, and said in a suppressed voice: "If you are too tired, I promise to separate for a while, but I will not break up."

Han Chunmeng raised the corners of her lips carelessly, her eyes were red, and she smiled lightly: "No, what's the difference between divorce and no separation of bed? After breaking up, you don't have any pressure. If you meet the good ones, you can prefer them Try another one...Of course I will look at others again. We don't have to force ourselves. Marriage is free, let alone fall in love?"

Han Chunmeng didn't know if he was numb from the pain, or was sad and crazy, and there was a smile on his face when he said this.

Gu Dongxu turned his head, tears just like this, Han Chunmeng saw it, "Oh," he drew a tissue and handed it to him, "What are you crying? You must have been drinking. You have no skin and no face after drinking. I can't cry."

Gu Dongxu took the tissue and pressed it to his eyes.

Men are different from women. Their sadness is silent.

Han Chunmeng was sure that he couldn't see anything, and only then showed him a sad but helpless expression unscrupulously.

If in the past, where she was willing to break up with him, where she was willing to watch him cry, she had always been the one who persuaded her the most, but it was him that she loved the most and the most difficult hurdle to overcome, what could she do?

Holding Gu Dongxu's hand hanging on the sofa, Han Chunmeng closed her eyes and used ten seconds to suppress all unwillingness and repentance urges. When she opened her eyes again, she could speak normally.

"You promise me, don't quarrel with your mother after you go back. I don't want us to be lovers, even friends can't do it, and who said that we are divided now and we will never be together again? We are having problems now. It takes time for each other to adjust. If after a long time we still feel that each other is more suitable, then your parents can agree with me, then I welcome you to chase me at any time, but before that, we all think about ourselves What do you want?"

Gu Dongxu didn't say anything, he just held Han Chunmeng's hand tightly, and his strength was so strong that her bones hurt in an instant, but soon he was relieved again, just like the mood from desperately resisting to being unable to accept.

Han Chunmeng didn’t dare to hold hands with him anymore. She is a person with very serious moral values. She was afraid that holding hands after breaking up would be like cheating. So she pulled out her hand and patted Gu Dongxu on the shoulder like a good brother before, and said Said: "Okay, don't cry, look at me, can't you be stronger?"

Gu Dongxu’s tissue was left in front of his eyes for ten minutes. If Han Chunmeng did not speak, the room would be as quiet as no one.

After a long time, I don’t know how long it took. Gu Dongxu rolled the wet tissue in his palm and sat upright. Han Chunmeng glanced at him, and the whites of his eyes became red.

My heart feels uncomfortable, and I want to say briskly: "Isn't hungry, do you want me to buy you a supper? There are so many supper downstairs."

Gu Dongxu whispered: "Stop eating, I will go back first."

He stood up, Han Chunmeng also stood up, "I'll send you back."

He drank too much, and Han Chunmeng was afraid that something might happen to him on the road.

Gu Dongxu walked to the door and said, "No, you go to bed earlier."

Han Chunmeng asked, "Can you do it?"

Gu Dongxu stood at the door wearing shoes, the shoes were there, but he couldn't put them in. Han Chunmeng glanced at it, tears almost burst out, and quickly said in a teasing tone: "Can it work?"

Suddenly, Gu Dongxu clenched his fist and hung down on the front door with a bang. The silent night shook people's hearts and souls, but Han Chunmeng shed tears before he was afraid, because after Gu Dongxu hit the door, he faced the door directly. 'Yelled, the voice was depressed and helpless, she wanted to be hoarse, but only dull after she came out.

Han Chunmeng can cry loudly, but Gu Dongxu can't even cry loudly. Since childhood, he has never been wronged, he doesn't know what powerlessness is, and he has never tasted the feeling of being lost.

Now once, he tasted enough.

A long time later, Han Chunmeng lay on the bed alone, looking at the ceiling in the dark. It has been more than an hour since Gu Dongxu arrived home to call her to report safety. She was not sleepy at all, and it was his effort to open her eyes and close her eyes. Looks weak.

She didn't know if she would hurt Gu Dongxu's heart if she did this, but she knew that she had no choice, at least the decision to separate it was right.