Love goes east, marriage goes west

Su picked up her mobile phone with trembling fingers and clicked on the MMS.

When the MMS was opened, she felt that she couldn't see the picture and hear the sound at once. It seemed that the whole world was far away from her.

She wants to cry, but she can't cry; If you want to make a sound, you can't make it.

So that she didn't know how she fell to the ground and how she got to the next morning.

Just, in a trance, something suddenly shook her. Su Shijin found out later that when was it dawn?

Su Shijin wanted to get up from the ground, but she couldn't lift a trace of strength.

With trembling fingers, she picked up her mobile phone and wanted to take another look at the picture to see if the picture she saw yesterday was her own illusion.

However, the screen has gone out and the mobile phone has no power.

The cell phone is dead. Does that mean she imagined everything yesterday?

With this idea, Su Shijin felt as if she had survived, so she quickly got up and wanted to find a charger.

However, perhaps because she was not feeling well, or because she had just moved too hard, she just felt dark in front of her eyes and fainted uncontrollably on the ground.

After several minutes, she woke up slowly, her eyes gradually focused, and then realized what had happened.

If she can't walk, climb over.

Like a child under one year old, she climbed to the place where there was a charger, found the charger, and plugged the plug into the mobile phone.

After waiting for a few seconds, she turned on her cell phone and couldn't wait to see the call records.

In the call record, there is Jiang Xiyu's name.

Her heart sank little by little. It seemed that she didn't give up. She went to see the MMS again.

Yesterday, she only looked at the picture, but now she looks at it carefully.

She was like a drowning man, looking for the last piece of driftwood.

As like as two peas, she looked at the picture, the familiar face, and the eyes closed.

She even went to see the characteristics of him.

He was clean and had nothing except a mole under his left shoulder.

In the photo, as like as two peas in Yan, the mole is also found under the left shoulder.

At the moment, he is holding a woman in his arm, which is Jiang Xiyu.

He seemed to have fallen asleep, with a quiet face, as if he were lying next to her after they got married.

However, the woman at the moment has changed from her to someone else.

Su Shijin slowly looked at Yan Qingze's watch. There was a date on it. It was early this morning!

Yes, all the signs show that after he left home, he went to find Jiang Xiyu, and they slept!

So, what else does she have to give up? Do you really want to go to Jiang Xiyu's house and see that scene in order to convince yourself that he really betrayed himself?!

This is not self humiliation!

"Ah!" Su Shijin looked at her mobile phone and screamed. After knowing it, she felt that her heart had been numb and began to cramp again.

She burst into tears and smashed out the phone whose screen had been broken into pieces.

The mobile phone fell to the ground. She was especially unwilling and stepped on it.

Until, even her feet were too painful to lift, she fell powerlessly and sat on the ground.

Cry.

She thought she had dried up her tears last night, but now her tears really want to rush out like she can't stop the car.

There was no one else at home, just herself.

She cried in spite of her image, making a sharp voice and hysterical.

She knows that she and he can't go back, they can't go back again!

She insisted on love for so many years and finally couldn't hold on!

She can't give up, but what can she do if she can't give up again? He doesn't belong to her no matter his body or heart!

I don't know how long it took. Su Shijin's voice was dumb and her eyes were swollen. She stopped crying.

She got up powerlessly and didn't know what she was going to do. She just went to the bathroom in a trance.

She opened the shower and kept watering herself. It seems that only at this moment can she feel the truth.

Through the water curtain, she looked at herself in the mirror.

The eyes are swollen, the hair is wet, how embarrassed, how embarrassed.

She was like a child abandoned by the roadside, with helplessness and despair in her eyes.

despair?

She was surprised by the idea and her mind moved slowly.

She and Yan Qingze, is there a way to go in the future?

I remember yesterday, he told her personally that he was in pain.

Last night, Jiang Xiyu told her that Yan Qingze was so sad that she was about to cry.

When did they become like this, forcing each other, punishing each other, and not free?

Su Shijin shook and an idea rose.

She loves him. Why does she love him so selfishly and make him suffer?

She should be watching him happy, giving him freedom and silently blessing, isn't she?

However, at the moment, why is she still so reluctant?!

Su Shijin flushed for a long time until the hot water in the water heater ran out. She dried herself and went to the mirror.

She used cold water to cover her eyes, which were swollen like goldfish, for a long time. Until it was not so uncomfortable, she put on her clothes and left the apartment.

She drove all the way to the place where Yan Qingze and she went to school.

There, the owner of the stall at the gate has changed, and the gate of the school has been completely renovated, which is not what it was.

It seems that everything is telling her in disguise that her memories are always memories.

Her obsession is only an obsession after all.

She bound him with her obsession and wronged her. Finally, she had a bad end.

So

Thinking of being separated from Yan Qingze, Su Shijin felt that every breath was painful.

After standing at the school gate for a while, I slowly returned to the car.

It was cold. When she turned on the air conditioner, she accidentally turned on the car stereo switch.

Last time it seemed to be a tune music channel, so at the moment, songs are playing in it.

She listened one by one until a female voice came into her ear.

She had never heard this song before, but when she heard the first sentence, she fell in love with it inexplicably.

She felt astringent pain in her heart.

Just listen to the female voice sing: "forget, it's not easy to forget. I don't blame you. I'm so vulnerable. Feeling deep can go to the bottom of the sea. No one can compare love. You never pay attention to these. "

She thought of herself and Yan Qingze.

Yeah, forget, it's not easy?

Everything she did never entered his heart.

That's why he said she was cheap and that she could sacrifice her body for anything!

He couldn't see her efforts, just because he never put his heart into it.

"I miss you not only because of emptiness. In the final analysis, I really have feelings, don't cheat you, dare to be enemies with the whole world, and suffer all kinds of grievances for you. I'm even willing to... "

The night before yesterday, she went to Qin Haitao's room at risk for him and their relationship.

She was wronged. At that time, although she was afraid, she was happy when the other party was willing to compromise and hand over the evidence.

She doesn't regret it, because she really did something for him.

She even thought that when things subsided, they would hold a wedding and continue to be happy.

However, everything is just a mirror. A dream, after all, there is still a day to wake up.

"It's a pity to finally lose you. I'm sorry. I've tried my best. I didn't give up, but I didn't see you. I thought I wouldn't hurt myself... "

They finally came to this day. When she woke up, she found that she really lost him.

She couldn't accept his relationship with Jiang Xiyu. It would be a pain she couldn't get rid of in her life. Even if they were so reluctant and tortured each other, she couldn't get rid of being so late after all.

"It's a pity that we can't go back and cry harder. I've always declined, because of the affection of others, just for an uncertain you... "

Over the years, I like her, but she is still alone, just waiting for him.

Always waiting for him.

It's just a pity that she lost him.

"Qingze, let's divorce!" Su Shijin said softly to the front.

Just after saying that, she felt her sight began to blur again.

She couldn't help reaching over and found that she was crying again.

Is she made of water? Why are you crying all the time?

She couldn't hold on any longer. She accomplished it for him. It was relief for both of them. Why did she still cry?

Su Shijin couldn't continue driving, so she had to park her car on the roadside, lie on the steering wheel and cry loudly.

For a long time, she turned on her mobile phone and found the song with the lyrics. Therefore, she connected the car stereo and started circular playback.

She sang again and again in a hoarse cry voice, remembering the lyrics from strangers to the back.

Finally, as if powerless, she slowly leaned against the back of the seat, then picked up her mobile phone and sent a wechat to Yan Qingze.

After sending wechat, Su Shijin directly drove home, packed the clothes she had brought from Su's house and put them in the trunk, and then her eyes fell on her ring finger.

There was the ring he put on her that day.

The ring is still elegant and dazzling, but it shouldn't belong to her.

Su Shijin slowly withdrew the ring, feeling as if she had stripped her heart from her body.

Spare time.

She put the ring on Yan Qingze's desk with the men's ring he didn't have time to wear that day.

Then she pulled up the trolley case, took the only key from the key ring, put it on the tea table and left Yan Qingze's apartment.