Love goes east, marriage goes west

Yan Qingze breathed tight when he saw this sentence.

He never thought that she loved him.

"But he really didn't like me. For the first time, he was fierce at me, showed disgust at me, and stabbed me with such words for the first time. I feel heartache and want to explain, but I'm afraid he will be more disgusted. "

"I don't think I can make it, but I still gave myself a two-month deadline. I want to work hard for the only person I love deeply in my life! "

"I asked him to help me and act with me. I want to know, in Qingze's eyes, do you care about me even the slightest bit? "

"If so, it is the driving force for me to continue.

Yan Qingze's heart sank and leaned powerlessly against the back of the chair.

It turned out that she invited Luo to help with the acting?

But he misunderstood her yesterday and thought there was something between them!

So, what kind of pain would she feel when she was misunderstood?

After that, the diary seemed to laugh a lot more.

"I found that Qingze has changed since he came back from a business trip. He has no previous indifference and disgust for me, but sometimes he smiles at me. We are getting better and better. Sometimes I have an illusion. Will he gradually like me while getting along? "

Yan Qingze's pupils contracted.

An idea arose again.

He, like her?

Yeah, why doesn't he like her?

He will gradually lose his mind looking at her and suddenly want to kiss her. He will be jealous that she is too close to other men. He will want to trap her alone in his world

He likes her.

He was in a trance for a while. He just felt that there was something repressed at the bottom of his heart and was slowly loosening his bondage.

So he continued to watch.

Later, Su Shijin wrote almost every day. Such a diary is somewhat like the daily account of her childhood. She even recorded what they ate three times a day and what he said to him.

Then, he saw her write: "I began to keep a running account again. It is estimated that Qingze would laugh at me if he saw it. However, the reason why I want to write so detailed is that if one day he leaves me and doesn't want to be with me, I can still look at these diaries and recall our past. "

When he saw this, a sharp pain surged from the bottom of his heart.

He never knew that when she was spoiled by her parents as a child, she would have such a cautious and humble moment.

It's all because of him.

Yan Qingze felt that he was about to lose sight of it.

What did he do? He clearly wanted her to be the happiest, but he still hurt her after all. Moreover, it was the one who hurt her the most!

"Today, brother Qingze came back from a business trip. He put a ring on me, our wedding ring. But he answered the phone and went out. "

"I have a bad feeling in my heart that something is going to happen. However, I had no other choice. I didn't even dare to take the initiative to find him because I was afraid of disturbing him. So I can only wait. "

"It's snowing outside again. I don't know if the good time before was the gift of the first snow, so God wants to take it back."

"I drew a design draft called snow ELF's wish. I hope the snow elf can hear my thoughts and let me go with him for a long time. "

"Today, I finally know what happened. And I have a plan. "

"Although the plan is risky, I have known him for so many years. He almost helps me every time. I also want to help him once."

"I'm going to go in the evening. Although I know that I'm busy watching the video, if something really happens, he will call the police. Moreover, Qin Haitao should not be so stupid. He put himself in prison for revenge. But I'm still scared and nervous. "

"I hope everything goes well. Qingze can go home tomorrow."

"I miss him very much and want him back."

Seeing here, Yan Qingze almost doesn't have to look anymore. He knows all the beginning and end.

How could anything happen to such a woman, who sacrificed for him, even if she went to the hotel with Luo bustling twice?

He misunderstood her!

He felt his heart was blocked, his nose was sour, and his eyes were stinging.

Yesterday, he did that to her. Today, he didn't apologize to her until they got the divorce certificate. However, his heart still misunderstood her!

He was wrong. He shouldn't hurt her so much, hurt a girl who loves him most in the world, and hurt the wife he already wants to spend his life with!

Yan Qingze found that his throat was blocked. He stood up and went to get a water cup.

Before, when she was at home, the water in the water dispenser was hot. Maybe she turned it off when she left today. Now the water is cold.

He drank the cup of cold water. Suddenly, he felt a chill sweeping through his body.

The house was deserted because there was no her.

He felt lonely because he had lost her.

Up to now, he can no longer find any excuses for himself.

In fact, he has long liked her.

That's why he spoiled her since he was a child.

He looks very careful. In fact, if he has little patience with people, how can he give her a lecture carefully, teach her a lot of things, and go to school to see her as long as he has time?

In his concept, girlfriend may only mean literally, and love is not eternal, but only family affection can last for a long time in life.

It begins at first sight, as for dead bones.

Therefore, he smugly classified the relationship between them into the category of family affection. Just thinking that they will always be so good.

They won't be like ordinary boyfriend and girlfriend. When they are good, they are like conjoined babies. When they are bad, they break up and don't communicate with each other.

Because she will always be in his life, in his most cherished position, no one can shake.

Therefore, he broke up with his former girlfriends, and he hardly ever felt sad.

Even Jiang Xiyu, when he broke up, he could be rational and objective. If he couldn't see it, he wouldn't take another look.

Originally, all those are not true love. All that, he just likes men's occasional appreciation of women, or a moment's trance.

Just because, his heart has long lived a person, that is Su Shijin, his little Jin.

That's why he was so angry because she was close to Luo. Even misunderstood her and didn't want to divorce.

When she said divorce, she couldn't help crying in front of a stranger.

After she left, she felt frustrated, empty in body and mind, and could no longer be filled.

This is the real feeling of breaking up and lovelorn!

This feeling is unforgettable. It's so uncomfortable that every breath is painful. It's so uncomfortable that I can't wait to take out all my things in exchange for the time I used to get along with!

Hehe, it's just that he understood too late. If he could have done it earlier, would they be busy having dinner together in the kitchen, smiling at each other and beating their hearts?

When Yan Qingze came back, he found tears on his face.

He actually cried several times in one day.

He looked at Su Shijin's last diary across the hazy line of sight.

Obviously, it was written last night.

"Over the years, I have written a script alone for ten years. What monologue can be performed for ten years? So when I saw that picture, I found that I really should let go. It's the end of the play, and it's time for me to wake up. "

"I think I can't stand it."

"I'm going to let go and set him free. Because he told me today that he was in pain. "

"I don't want to see the person I love suffer, and I don't want to be the source of his pain. I hope that after many years, when he occasionally thinks of me, he doesn't think of the unhappiness I brought him, but the simple and happy appearance of each other at the beginning. "

"I think we should divorce."

"Indeed, everything just corresponds to the words of Zixia fairy: I guess at the beginning, but I can't guess the end."

"Goodbye, Qingze. I think we may never meet again."

"Goodbye, my only love. This sentence is for you, although I know that you will never know that there is a girl who once loved you so much. "

When the document is pulled here, it is completely over.

At the moment, Yan Qingze couldn't help crying like when Su Shijin wrote these words.

He could even imagine that she wrote down her back at that time.

Her shoulders must be shaking constantly. She must be almost unable to type in the middle of writing. She must erase the blur before she can continue to write.

He lost the girl who loved him most, and also the girl he loved most.

"Xiao Jin, I'm sorry..."

Yan Qingze kept repeating: "I'm sorry, I'm sorry..."

He pinched the mouse, looked at her last sentence, and kept pumping: "I don't love you, but I don't know love... Now I know that I love you so much, and it has always been you..."

He lay on his seat and cried bitterly.

I don't know how long it took before Yan Qingze looked up.

His eyes were still red. He looked at Su Shijin. The computer had automatically turned off the screen, and the divorce certificate next to him. His eyes gradually deepened.

No, since they are in love, they can't separate!

Although he saw between the lines that she was expected to leave here, since he was asked to express the computer, it proved that she had not left yet!

Yan Qingze's yearning at the moment, knowing it later, overwhelmed him. He's going to find her and keep her! I don't want to wait a second!

At the moment, Su Shijin has packed her bags for going abroad.

She did not expect that she decided to stay abroad twice because of Yan Qingze.

The first time, because he was there, she wanted to find him.

The second time, because she was in China, she wanted to stay away from him.

Different reasons, including sadness and loss, unable to tell others.

She laughed at herself and went to the kitchen for the last meal at home.