Love in the wrong time

I suddenly thought of the month to shi fan care for my family, and all the previous. I always thought that we had lost that kind of affection, I admitted that I had a little love for him in high school, but his abroad let me know that he did not like me, he has always regarded me as a sister. So I fell in love with arlo in college.

Was I too negligent, or shi fan in sympathy with me, do not want to let my unborn baby no father love. I smiled sadly and said:" mom, I don't have to pity me, he is such an outstanding boy how can I drag him down." "

My mother patted my hand and said:" may, you still do not understand, shi fan from the beginning to the end only love you one person." Since you got married, as long as you are happy, he is happier than anyone. Just like this time, he came to hua city to look for you for a few days and nights. Finally, he found you through his classmates. He was afraid that it would cause unnecessary misunderstanding and did not return to yu state with you. As you have seen in the past month, his concern for you has increased and he knows you will say so, so he specially told me that there is no burden and pity in love, some just willing. "

"My feelings for him have never changed since I fell in love with him. Looking at my mother's tightly knitted brows, I calmed down and said," mom, I will solve my own problems. Shi fan will definitely find a better girl than me." "

My mother looked at me and said," I understand all this. I don't quite understand the love and love of your young people. However, shi fan's love for you was so sincere. Every time he saw how good shi fan was to our family, he always felt that our family owed him too much. "

I grabbed my mother's hand and said," mom, we don't owe him anything. Please don't say that. If you think we owe him, the next time I tell him not to come to our house, I'll alienate him. "

The mother was worried and said," you child, how can you let him not come to our house? Shi fan was a little anxious this time. It was a bit inappropriate for him to bring it up at this time. He just didn' t want to see you get hurt again so he brought it up at this time." His heart is always for you. "

I leaned against the bed and sat down with my mother sitting beside me with a sad look on her face. Finally, she said softly," you and shi fan are childhood sweethearts. You can' t give up on this kind of love at any time. Although I hope that you can be with shi fan, I don' t want to force you to do anything. Don' t feel any pressure. "

I didn't hear a word of my mother's advice. I stroked my stomach, thinking that I had called chen wen 10 times since morning, but he didn't answer, nor did he reply to wechat. She panicked at the thought and quickly called George to confirm what had happened to chen wen. I frantically looked for my phone, pressed George's phone and hung up. Finally, I asked him whether chen wen had returned to china by wechat. George replied: always in europe.

I let out a sigh of relief, and then looked sad and leaned on my mother's shoulder, want to tell her that the baby in her belly is not arlo's, but can not open the mouth. My mother looked at me and said," may, your heart has always been at home to do everything, but this time it's different. You have little tree and this unborn baby. Now you have to think about everything and think about them. Let's talk about shi fan later. I know that relationships can't be forced. "

Looking at my mother's sad eyes, I turned my head to the other side and said slowly," didn't shi fan say something else? "

Mom stood up and said," he said he'd come to our house tonight to talk to you. "I looked at her, stunned, and secretly sighed, and my heart grew heavier. Her mother sighed and walked out. In the evening, my mother brought a plate of seafood noodles to the room. I took it and said," mom, I'll go out and eat. I don't need to bring it in." "

The mother said softly," today is my grandmother's 90th birthday. Your sister-in-law will take the three children home early. We will go too later. You should stay at home. Shi fan should be there at 7 o 'clock." "My mother said casually, but I knew why she did it so that I could talk to shi fan without any pressure.

I said with a smile," mom doesn't have to do this. "

Mom took my hand and said," may, we're doing this to make you understand that your family won't put pressure on you, but you have to think about little tree. Besides, you'd be more comfortable without an adult at home. "

I sighed, feeling a little strange to shi fan, blaming him for coming to me at this time. But he was relieved to think of all the things he had done in the past month.

Mother took a comb from the dresser to help me comb, I said:" mom, I will wash my hair later." "

She put down her comb and said," the implementation is waiting for your grandparents downstairs right now. They like to ride in shi fan's car, and they let shi fan be the driver wherever they go." They used to talk to me about how nice it would be to have a grandson like shifan. Mother sighed again, and when she closed the door she said, think of little tree.

The invisible pressure was suffocating. Sitting quietly on the floor with my knees crossed, I didn't get up until shi fan knocked on the door.

When shi fan entered, he turned on all the lights in my house and said," may, why don't you turn on the lights?" "

We sat on the sofa together, with our heads down as if we were not ideal for our exams to be reprimanded by my father.

Shi fan said softly," may, I remember that the first time I saw you was the same night. That day, I went to my father's company to play and met brother yan. I insisted that he take me to play. He had no choice but to take me to pick you up from your study. You gave me a lollipop the first time I met you, and now you have the habit of carrying it with you whenever you want. "

I smiled softly, twelve years old those carefree years, now look back, is also particularly precious and beautiful.

Shi fan took out a lollipop from his pocket and gestured for me to open it. I had just ripped open the plastic paper and saw a dazzling diamond ring. I quickly put my head down on the coffee table and said," shi fan, when I was a senior, I wished I could be your girlfriend. Every time I saw you helping other girls with their english lessons, I would be very angry, and you would always innocently ask me: what's wrong?" I got even angrier when you said that. At the end of the college entrance examination I thought you would hold my hand and say: be my girlfriend. Unfortunately, no, but wait for the news that you went to study in england, I just know that you just treat me as a classmate. So I fell in love with arlo in college. I don't know if you're sympathetic or serious about what you said to your mother at noon. I just want you to know that we should be good friends. "

Shi fan was about to reach out to her when I quickly retracted my hand. His expression was a little awkward as he said," the whole school has decided that we are a couple and all my friends treat you as my girlfriend. I thought that was enough. "

I cut him off coldly:" shi fan these are not important, in the past can not, now more impossible." "

He muttered to himself," may, I just want to be the father of the baby. "

I lowered my head and said:" shi fan you are very good very good, unfortunately I do not have that blessing, now I can not like you." Because the baby's father wasn't arlo. I touched my lower abdomen.

Shi fan's expression changed and he said hastily," whose is it? What the hell happened to may? "

I took a deep breath and said," this child's father is called chen wen. I have a long story to tell with him." "As soon as I said this, shi fan was tongue-tied and completely stunned.

I smiled coldly and continued," my family thought it was arlo's. You can keep this secret for now. In a few days, I want to go back to flower city and settle the divorce with arlo." I brought chen wen to yuzhou. "

Shi fan wanted to say something but stopped. He said decisively," chen wen isn't the brother of many strange people, is he?" "

I nodded, and he slowly closed his eyes and looked gloomy. After a while, he sighed and said," why is it like this? "

He was disappointed for a long time. The fog outside the window drifted in and coated his body with a layer of melting gray halo, giving him a sense of desolation.

Looking at him like this, I could not bear to, slowly said:" shi fan, you can rest assured that chen wen will give me the happiness I want." "

Shi fan shook his head helplessly and said," why is he the brother of many wonders?" Why him? "

He muttered to himself as if he had thought of something very important to do. He looked at me and said," may, I have to prove something first, and then I'll tell you later. As he was about to go out, I wrapped the diamond ring again and whispered," keep it well, its master must be better than me. "

He stared blankly at the lollipop in my hand and said with a sad face," its master is right in front of me. I don't want it anymore. What do I want it for?" "

I was speechless. I just smiled and handed the lollipop to him. Shi fan's hand trembled slightly. He took the lollipop and walked towards the door. When he opened the door, his eyes were filled with nostalgia and pain as he said," no matter where things go, I will always wait for you until you are truly happy." Then he closed the door gently and walked out of my house. Looking at his back view, she thought of what her mother had said. I leaned against the sofa and fell down in despair. Suddenly, my chest felt hot and my breath almost reached my throat. My chest was so agitated by the air that it made me panic like an ant on a hot pot. The sweat on my forehead was squeezed out again and again. I tried my best to suppress my chest so that it wouldn't burst out. She stopped her thoughts and slowly disappeared. I decided to go back to huacheng to find dr. Zheng, just too dangerous feeling a little careless will suffocate and die.

When I got back to my room, I found that chen had called me five times and sent me a long wechat message. He told me that he would be back in a week.