Love is really a long journey

The result I got from the doctor is similar to what I expected, but it is not the result I want.

At this time, I finally understood why my mother insisted on leaving the hospital. I also understood why my mother deliberately changed the topic when I talked about my illness. In the final analysis, it was to prevent me from being a daughter!

When I think of this, my chest hurts again. This feeling is not heartbreaking, but it is eroding my heart bit by bit.

"Well, don't be sad. You can sort out your mood first. I'll go to see my mother first." At this time, we had already come to the door of my mother's ward. Seeing that my mood was not very stable, Tang Tianqi patted me on the shoulder and left me to calm down for a while outside. He went in first.

I'm in a mess now. On the one hand, I don't know how to face my mother. On the other hand, I'm worried about my mother's condition. At the same time, I'm entangled in the doctor's success rate.

If I succeed, my mother can survive and let me accompany her for many years. However, if I fail, I can't live for a moment. People always like to think in the direction of bad things. When I think in the direction of bad things, I can't help thinking about the last words of the doctor when I left. When I think of the doctor's advice, I will think of the fact that there are only a few months left.

"It's so annoying!" I squatted in the corner, gripping my hair in distress, and suddenly felt lonely and helpless. The more I thought about it, the more negative I felt. Finally, I hugged my knee, buried my head between my knees, and sobbed in a low voice.

Although I know that hiding in the corner to shed tears is of no help to my mother's illness, I still can't control my emotions. I don't know how long I stayed in the corner. Tang Tianqi opened a gap in the door and came out with a sigh.

"Well, mom called you."

With Tang Tianqi's words, his mother's voice came out.

"Silly child, what are you worrying about? Mom, it's good. If I had known you look like this, I wouldn't have called you."

As soon as I heard my mother's words, the tears that had been suppressed came out again. I suddenly stood up, cried and rushed into the ward, and fell on my mother's body, crying like a tearful person.

Although the sick person is my mother, now I am comforted.

I cry on my mother's body, but she doesn't say anything more, because I know my son is better than my mother. Now I really need to vent my anger, and my mother comforts me with her most gentle and silent maternal love.

Tang Tianqi did not disturb us, he has been standing beside us, so quietly guarding us.

I don't know how long I've been crying. Until my negative emotion was almost released, I was willing to wipe away the tears from the corner of my eyes and look up at my mother.

And the first time into the eye, is the mother that kind smile.

My nose began to sour again. When I thought of this kind of smile that I could only see in my memory, I felt the impulse of tears rushing out again.

But this time I didn't cry. I tried to suppress this emotion and make me look normal. I forced a smile on my face and said to my mother.

"Mom, I made you laugh."

"Silly boy." Mother shook her head. She gently stroked my hair with her withered palm: "in fact, you don't have to worry about so much. Now, isn't mom OK?"

"Well, mom, I don't want to."

With that, I rubbed my head against my mother's arms, as if I were coquettish in front of her when I was a child.

"I don't want to, then mom, you should get better soon!"

At this moment, I suddenly want to understand a lot of things, just like not long ago I was still struggling with whether to let my mother continue to treat the disease, now, I have figured it out.

I lay in my mother's arms and spoke softly.

"Mom, the doctor said that you still have to be cured, but the probability of successful cure is a little low, and if you fail..."

Before I finished speaking, my mother put out a hand to cover my mouth and forbade me to continue. She shook her head and said to me.

"Mom doesn't want to be cured any more. I know in my heart whether I can be cured or not. Instead of risking my life to fight for more than ten years, it's better to make good use of the remaining months and spend more time with our family."

My heart was completely touched by this sentence, I was moved to look at my mother, at this time I have a kind of illusion, as if the mother's body exudes a soft light

This is maternal love, selfless maternal love, great maternal love.

At this time, I am more and more sure of the idea in my heart. Yes, my idea is not to let my mother give up treatment and spend the surplus time, but to choose treatment! Go to Bo that little hope!

Because I believe in miracles!

Maybe this will make me look selfish, but in order for my mother to continue to live in this beautiful world, even if no one agrees with me, everyone will spit on me, I will be infamous forever, and I will still do this!

Although my mother now told me that she didn't want to continue treatment, I had a way to keep her in the hospital.

I smile at my mother and weave a white lie.

"OK, mom, if you say no treatment, we'll go through the discharge procedures now, but the doctor said that even if we want to leave the hospital, we have to prescribe some medicine to suppress the disease, otherwise..."

At this point, I deliberately stopped, did not continue to say, but I believe that my mother must know what I want to say.

My mother didn't doubt me either, she waved at me.

"Well, then you should go to prescribe the medicine quickly, and let your mother accompany you after prescribing the medicine! It seems that our mother and daughter haven't talked together for a long time! "

"Mm-hmm!"

After chatting with my mother for a long time, I took Tang Tianqi to help my mother deal with the treatment. When Tang Tianqi and I came out from the inside, Tang Tianqi stopped and asked directly.

"It looks like you still want to gamble. It's less than a one percent chance."

"Yes." I nodded and replied without any concealment, "why, do you think I'm heartless?"

Hearing what I said, Tang Tianqi quickly shook his head.

"There's no such thing. We've been together for such a long time. I naturally know what kind of person you are. Now you will make this choice. It must be for your reasons. I just asked, but there's one thing. Will mom be happy when you know that?"

"But instead of doing nothing and watching mom leave slowly, it's better to gamble. Maybe it's successful?"

"All right." After hearing what I said, Tang Tianqi shook his head and said to me, "before the operation, please accompany my mother, otherwise, if it fails..."

Tang Tianqi didn't say it. He knew that it might hurt my heart to say it directly, so he shut up in time, but I helped Tang Tianqi make up his next words.

"Then it may never be seen again, right?"

Tang Tianqi looked at me in surprise, as if he didn't expect me to say that, and when he said that, his face was still calm.

This calm appearance is not because I am heartless, but because I have figured out that if I die, I can live happily for a few months, but after a few months, it will always be a piece of loess.

If you choose to gamble, there is still a glimmer of hope for cure, but if you give up treatment, there will be no hope.

The reason why I am so firm in the idea of treating my mother is that just now, I caught a trace of attachment from my mother's eyes, attachment to me and the world. I don't want my mother to leave with regret, so I chose to be the villain.

"Well, if you know it yourself, I won't interfere with your choice. I'll grant you a leave these days. You don't have to come to work. Go to accompany your mother!"

"Well, Tianqi, thank you." I went to Tang Tianqi, hugged him, and nestled my head in his arms: "thank you. If you don't accompany me, I'm afraid I don't even have the courage to face my mother's illness."

Hearing what I said, Tang Tianqi pursed his mouth and gave a slight smile. He put out his hand and put his arm around me. He bent his head and said softly in my ear.

"Is it necessary to say thank you for our relationship?"

With that, Tang Tianqi took out a card from his pocket, stuffed it into my hand and said with a strained face.

"Pay attention, I didn't give it to you for nothing. It's your salary. Do you hear me? Your salary!"

After handing the bank card to my hand, Tang Tianqi raised his hand and looked at the watch, then looked up at me and said.

"Well, I'll go through the procedures of treating my mother, and I'll give it to you! Now there are some things in the company that I need to deal with. Without me, they can't manage them at all. "

"Well, you can go back to the company as soon as possible."

I nodded to Tang Tianqi and said in a low voice that without Tang Tianqi, some departments would not be able to operate. However, I didn't have any major events, so I let Tang Tianqi go back.

After watching him walk into the elevator, I went back to the doctor who helped my mother treat her. After so long, of course, the doctor's operation has been completed. As soon as I saw him, I said directly.

"Doctor, thank you very much for your advice, but after much consideration, I choose..."

"Continue the operation."