Love Just Begins

An Shengmei went silent. The school was too biased, and the students of the elite class were indeed different, with such good living conditions, they could only stay in the dorms of ordinary schools. There were no air-conditioners or even electric fans, let alone washing machines.

An Shengmei turned around, feeling unbalanced in her heart. She felt that Tan Yizhe was enjoying this kind of treatment, and she didn't have any, but felt that he was inferior to by a grade, and felt that she was unworthy of him. She said depressingly: "Forget it, I'll go to my dorm."

Tan Yizhe asked in concern. After a while, the two separated in front of the girls' dormitory. The next morning, when Tan Yizhe saw An Shengmei, he guessed that An Shengmei had entered the First High School. The two of them had lunch together, Tan Yizhe wanted An Shengmei to grab a good seat, so he went to get some food for himself and wait for to come back to eat.

After a long while, Tan Yizhe finally returned. After putting down the two bowls, he said with a smile, "I've been scalded."

An Shengmei said: "Are you alright?"

Tan Yizhe said: "I'm fine."

That feeling appeared in An Shengmei's heart again, that fake smile. She felt that Tan Yizhe was always deliberately making An Shengmei feel guilty and make An Shengmei feel inferior.

In front of Tan Yizhe, because of his attention to his image and his thoughts earlier, he was unable to continue eating. Before Tan Yizhe even had a few bites, An Shengmei said she was full, and then the two of them walked out of the canteen.

On the way, Tan Yizhe smiled and said, "Basically, everyone who knows me knows you."

An Shengmei laughed, "Why?"

Tan Yizhe said: "Your husband is quite famous in school."

An Shengmei replied, it was a little bitter.

Tan Yizhe did not stay for long in the A, after the school leaders contacted Tan Yizhe after the entrance examination results came out, the conditions for each school to open were all very good, especially the B, who received the most money. It was actually a few days before the start of September, when Tan Yizhe's parents arranged for him to transfer out of school, it was because Tan Yizhe's parents wanted the money.

Tan Yizhe's family was not rich, and B High School was also not bad, although it was not as good as A Zhong. An Shengmei was angry at Tan Yizhe's parents for not thinking about the future of their child, but she could do nothing about it.

had sent someone to give An Shengmei a picture of him before she left, and there were a few words written on the back: If you want to wait for me, then please wait two years, I will definitely return in two years. If you don't want to wait for me, then forget about me, I wish you happiness.

This was the first time An Shengmei felt this way. It was the first time that a boy made An Shengmei feel that he wasn't good enough, that he wasn't good enough, that An Shengmei had to stomp her own dignity beneath her feet.

An Shengmei knew that Tan Yizhe had always felt that Tan Yizhe had paid more than An Shengmei, and that Tan Yizhe's injuries were heavier than his, but Tan Yizhe had never thought about how much An Shengmei had paid, and Tan Yizhe never knew of the hardships that An Shengmei had never mentioned out loud. Tan Yizhe had only hinted at Tan Yizhe's actions time and time again, telling him how much Tan Yizhe loved An Shengmei, and that Tan Yizhe liked to intentionally do some self-torturing things that An Shengmei knew …

Actually, An Shengmei had already wanted to tell Tan Yizhe that love was not like this a long time ago. In fact, An Shengmei had already wanted to tell Tan Yizhe that his way of doing things had made An Shengmei feel extremely disgusted.

Those intentional, those final outbursts, perhaps it really was love, to prove it in the most extreme way, or maybe it was just possession, unwillingness, unwillingness to be manipulated, unwillingness to be unable to own, and then being thwarted. Or maybe it was just a desire to love, to be imposed on and out of it, to be on the edge of abandonment and acquisition, to stand at the highest point of morality, to mark one's sacrifice and greatness.

Maybe An Shengmei would slowly forget that there was once a person who used to love An Shengmei but used the most extreme of words to hurt him. An Shengmei suddenly realized that when Tan Yizhe kissed An Shengmei that day, An Shengmei had used a pair of closed eyes and a calm heart to admit that it was love without any ripples.

Even so, An Shengmei still said that she would wait for Tan Yizhe, and she had no choice.

In this unfamiliar place, all of their faces were unfamiliar. An Shengmei ate alone, went back to her room by herself, and took the water, thinking about her best friend from junior high school. All the boys from junior high school who were secretly in love with An Shengmei and were good to him were not present at all, leaving An Shengmei to fight alone here.

When he thought of how he once abandoned his best friend to let her go back to her dorm alone because they had to go on a date, how he found it difficult to call her since they had to go to a different school together after the entrance exams. Because he didn't want to disturb her time with Tan Yizhe, when he thought of how he abandoned everything in the end to come here empty-handed, when he thought of how cruel he was towards his best friend, An Shengmei wanted to cry ruthlessly.

Everyday, An Shengmei would go to a corner of the fifth floor of the teaching building and curl up in a ball while holding herself in pain. However, there would never be someone who would give An Shengmei a toilet paper, nor would there be anyone who would comfort him like her best friend. There would also never be anyone who would silently stay by An Shengmei's side without saying anything. Only now did An Shengmei know that love could never be compared to friendship and kinship.

And Tan Yizhe, would never know of this.

The day that Gu Qingyan filled in the list of students, he also filled in A's, but on the second day he changed to another school. He said that he didn't want to see An Shengmei and Tan Yizhe together being blissful together, and didn't want to be a third party.

When he was alone, An Shengmei would sometimes chat with Gu Qingyan, or write homework. During the military training, Tan Yizhe had returned from the B Academy once. Coincidentally, he had something going on and thus was not able to find An Shengmei, so he left behind a pleasant surprise.

After class, a few of the students made An Shengmei stay behind and said that Tan Yizhe had left a present. When there were only An Shengmei and a few other people left in the classroom, they took out a present.

An Shengmei was a little surprised, this was the first time she had received a rose. As An Shengmei carried the flowers back to his dorm, she saw many people pointing at them with an envious expression on their faces. When they reached the dorm, immediately, people ran over to see An Shengmei's flowers and asked who had given them the flowers. An Shengmei proudly said that it was from her boyfriend, so they were extremely envious.

On the day that the military training ended, An Shengmei didn't participate in the closing ceremony because she was sick. Halfway through, she heard a classmate of Tan Yizhe's from junior high school say that Tan Yizhe had returned to A-level. It was a girl, she said that Tan Yizhe had sent a message to tell her. An Shengmei was startled, but she did not send any message to An Shengmei.