Love Letter From The Future

5.5 Interlude: Gold and Silver(9)

Seria opened Booth’s eyes.

The sleepy eyes were just cloudy. My hazy mind couldn’t keep up with my trained perceptual abilities.

Where is this place?

In the puddle of memories where dust floats, Seria tilted her head.

As if it had been severed, the burns of the past had been severed.

To be precise, it was the memories right before I lost consciousness.

Even with a blank mind, Seria slowly retraced the past.

Senior Ian visited the bedroom.

Seria, who was having a good time with the dolls that imitated her seniors, was taken aback.

And after that.

Memories that have sunk in red are finding their place one by one.

The puddle where the mud disappeared revealed the hidden truth.

Yes, senior Ian brought up the story of the bitch.

Sarah was angry. I just couldn’t keep my sanity.

That’s why I went to work on senior Ian while not being sane.

And then.

As the memories came back one by one, the blood began to drain from Seria’s face.

It didn’t take long for her naturally white skin to turn pale.

The girl’s upper body jumped up.

I have to explain somehow.

No, I had to ask for forgiveness before that.

It was like suddenly forcing senior Ian to sleep.

Even without even confessing.

If Seria had done something similar, she would never be able to forgive her opponent.

My heart beats wilder than ever.

The unfocused eyes and twitching limbs from excessive force testified to the girl’s anxiety.

I felt like I wanted to scream.

If only the man’s voice hadn’t been heard.

“Woke up?”

Stand tall, and Seria’s body stiffened.

Eyes filled with disbelief slowly turned to the side. A man with the same face as always was sitting there.

It was senior Ian.

Seria was stunned for a few seconds, then looked away in shock.

embarrassed.

And sorry.

Seriously, Seria couldn’t even think of crying and opened her mouth stammeringly.

“That, that, that… Hey, Senior Ian!”

“Okay.”

Ian’s voice was surprisingly relaxed.

Was it because he had time to organize his mind for a while, unlike himself who fainted?

Seria felt as if she wanted to bite her tongue in shame.

No, I actually bit off.

It was so embarrassing that it made a tongue-chewing sound for the first time in a long time.

“That, that’s it… Ugh, me!”

The images passed Seria’s eyes one by one.

Among them, the scene that left the most intense impact was Ian’s hand ax hitting Seria’s chin.

It wasn’t language.

Even so, it was a very blatant answer. It was also cruel.

If it had been any other woman, I might have cursed Ian.

No matter how insane she was, Seria was confiding her true feelings.

He said it was rude to try to resolve this through violence rather than dialogue.

However, Seria could not bear to resent the senior she loved.

It just felt like everything was my fault.

Because I’m ugly.

Because I’m not attractive.

Yes, because I’m worse than my sister.

Clear dew was dripping from Seria’s blue eyes.

“Lord, kill… Ugh, please… … .”

It was a request made with a mix of shame, despair, and a sense of defeat.

Of course, it wasn’t empty talk.

Seria hung her head like a criminal waiting for the blade on the guillotine.

To hide the overflowing tears, I covered my face with both hands.

“Please, black… please kill me I can’t stand it any longer.”

“Seria.”

“It’s my fault.”

At Ian’s call with a sigh, Seria gritted her teeth as if resolutely determined.

Actually, that expression was not so sad.

“It must be because I am ugly… I’m sorry, senior Ian. black… From start to finish, it only bothered me.”

The man looked at the girl without saying a word.

So the girl cried endlessly.

As if he was going to die of dehydration at this rate.

“Are you feeling bad? I can’t speak well, I’m timid. Besides, I don’t have any friends and I’m an inborn child. No matter where you put it, a woman worse than her sister suddenly confessed.”

“Seria… … .”

“I’m sorry, I dared to be undeserving of you. Well, so that you won’t be noticed from now on… No, so that I can only stay by your side… … .”

“Seria!”

It was only after the man who couldn’t overcome his frustration raised his voice that the girl’s mouth fell shut.

Even so, it was still the same as not being able to make eye contact.

Ian sighed and said.

“I am not such a nice person. Even without me, there are many men in the world.”

“No, senior Ian is the only one.”

Seria whimpered, but declared that.

It was a tone that did not even have the slightest hint of doubt.

“When everyone hated me, you were by my side. And he saved me.”

“Anyone can do that. It’s just that I got close to you early.”

“No, I can’t anymore.”

Clear drops of water run down the girl’s cheeks again.

Seria didn’t even seem to want to shed tears anymore.

“I don’t like it unless it’s Senior Ian. Senior Ian is my everything.”

That hard and simple statement didn’t even show a gap to dig into.

Ian realized that Seria was serious.

So I hesitated for a while.

What should I say to Seria?

Furthermore, I don’t know what future to choose for myself.

What flashed through Ian’s mind was a portrait of a certain woman.

She was the first to tell him the truth.

Finally, Ian let out a long sigh.

“Seria, actually I’m trash.”

Blue eyes widened at those violent words.

Crying, Seria even pursed her lips as if she were going to deny it.

But Ian was faster than him.

“There is a woman who has been confessed to. I asked you to wait, but you went to bed with another woman while wandering around again. There are only three women I have already touched. Indecisive and insensitive, even timid.”

At the sudden confession, Seria shut her mouth again.

This was the truth Ian was hiding.

Maybe he wanted to bury it forever.

Except for Elsie, I couldn’t tell anyone about my true feelings.

“To be honest, I am scared. The more serious the relationship, the more things I want to protect… I have to save the world.”

At first glance, the words that were spat out like a lamentation seemed annoyed.

Or they seemed to be struggling under pressure, or tired from a long struggle.

“Can you still love me? I can’t pick anyone anyway. Until I put my sword through Delphirem’s heart.”

Seria suddenly remembered a certain man.

He had the same appearance as his beloved senior, but the emotions in his eyes were extremely worn out.

The senior was becoming like that man.

The eyes, which were shining with affection and poison, had suddenly become so tired.

Even in the midst of this, Seria felt sorry for Ian and could not bear it.

The answer doesn’t change anyway.

“Yeah.”

Her voice was full of moisture, but Seria answered without hesitation.

“You will like it. Forever and ever.”

Because you are my first and last love.

Faced with the blue eyes that had regained their light, Ian smiled bitterly.

“Then wait a moment.”

The answer to Seria’s feelings was at least after the disposition of the Yurdina family was decided.

Ian held Seria in his arms as he made that promise.

Yes, Seria should be like this.

A cute, lovable, and naive junior.

Occasionally, there are times when the obsession is excessive, but Ian really liked this aspect of Seria.

I’m glad you’re sane

That was Ian’s true feeling.

though, what

Although it was excessive to stun them with an axe.

It was fortunate that Seria seemed to have forgotten.

**

After Ian left, Seria’s face was full of vitality for the first time in a while.

It was like a dream.

I thought I would be abandoned, but to be held in the arms of a senior.

It was good even if I couldn’t take the progress beyond that.

The old man asked to wait.

In other words, doesn’t this mean that Seria still has a chance?

The bitch was still ahead, but the time given to Seria was long.

Someday.

yes someday

Seria hummed and buried her face in the bloody clothes lying in the corner of the room.

It was the clothes Ian was wearing when he faced the wolf witch instead of Seria.

At first, I tried to dispose of it, but I couldn’t bear to throw it away because I was in the middle of preparing for the hunting festival.

After that, there was no reason to throw it away.

Ian’s clothes smelled of memories.

The scent of the day Ian first saved Seria.

Ian sunbaenim covered in dust and covered in blood.

It was cool.

As Seria smelled the blood remaining on her uniform, she thought in a hazy mind.

so i didn’t notice

The black mist rising behind my back.

[You can’t cheat blood.]

[You are a monster. someday you’ll find out In the near future… … .]

Cheeks, giggles, ominous laughter resounded like scraping metal.

Even so, Seria didn’t seem to care about this in the slightest.

On the contrary, it was a calm expression, as if no sound could be heard.

The black smoke, probably tired of that indifference, soon reconciled to mud and collapsed.

Even as it permeated the floor, the unpleasant laughter did not stop.

[I know, it smells… The Lord of your blood is coming. In the far south… … .]

On the contrary, there was only a reverberation of cries of joy.

[‘Jealousy’ will come!]

Eventually, the mud disappeared leaving behind a white cloud of smoke.

**

The day I met Delphine after a long time.

I confided in my concerns about Seria, and Delphine sneered and told me.

“ruler.”

It was a one syllable answer.

Unable to guess the intention, I had to spit out a stupid question.

“Yeah?”

Then, Delphine-senpai kindly provided supplementary explanations.

“You say that’s what you wish for, but let’s get a night’s sleep… Is that okay?”

It was an incomprehensible trick to me, though.