Love You Forever

I could only watch him walk out of my sight. My heart was pounding. "Woo... Woo..."

After some time, I gave up struggling, and Tan Jie let go of me and helped me to sit on the bed. I pushed him away like crazy.

"Do you know what you're doing? Tan Jie! I hate you now, especially you!" I said what I had been holding back for a long time, and every word was very clear.

Tan Jie panicked. "I called for you in the middle of the night for your own good. I'm sure it's not a good person. It must be Fu Jing's. What if you were to say something just now and you were found out? Or do you want to be discovered by Fu Jing and go back to North city with him?"

"What do I do? That's my freedom. You have no right to restrict my freedom!" I picked up a pillow and threw it at him.

He did not hide, nor did he fight back. Similarly, he would not change the way he was doing now.

I really couldn't stand it anymore. My stomach was so angry that it hurt. I went back to bed to sleep, and he came to cover me up. I yelled at him and told him to stay away from me.

That night, I barely slept. When I woke up the next morning, my stomach was still hurting. I got up to go to the bathroom and found blood on my underwear. I was so shocked that I asked Tan Jie to take me to the hospital.

"Someone just knocked on the door last night. I can't go now."

I wanted to be angry again, but I didn't dare to be angry anymore. I was worried that the symptoms of the bleeding had something to do with my anger.

"I'm bleeding and I'm going to miscarry. It's not a small matter, Tan Jie. Can I beg you? Take me to the hospital."

Tan Jie frowned. It was obvious that he was very conflicted.

I covered my stomach and felt more and more uncomfortable. The pain seemed to get worse. I fell on the bed and looked miserable. "This is my child. You know how much I want this child. Take me to the hospital. I beg you..."

Tan Jie put on my hat and mask and carried me out of the house to the hospital.

The doctor said it was a good thing it was delivered in time, otherwise the child might not be able to keep it. If this child really couldn't keep it, I really couldn't imagine if I would hate Tan Jie.

"I'm sorry, I didn't know it was so serious." Tan Jie sat by the bed and apologized to me guiltily.

I don't want to see him, and I don't have the strength to argue with him anymore.

Because I was going to stay in the hospital, he went back to help me get my clothes changed and brought me food. I don't know how he fried the kitchen and learned how to cook. These days, he was the one who cooked. He bought vegetables and soy sauce and vinegar from the fresh supermarket and sent them home. We haven't been out for a long time, like cavemen living in modern times.

Three days after I was hospitalized, Tan Jie ran around and I couldn't touch cold water. He washed my clothes. I didn't talk to him, and I didn't care about him. I couldn't help but soften my heart when I saw how aggrieved he was. After all, he didn't mean anything to me. He was just too stubborn and almost paranoid.

The other patients in the ward all said that I had a good husband, which was very considerate. I didn't explain it. I was really exhausted from both my heart and body. Besides taking care of my baby, I didn't want to do anything or talk.

Thinking about it this way, I'm afraid I'm going to be depressed.

"Can we still have a good talk?" I said.

He nodded and moved a stool to sit in front of my bed. "I wish you were still willing to talk to me."

"Are you going to insist on locking me up?"

"I'm not shutting you down, I'm protecting you."

Well, there's no way to continue this conversation. I resisted the urge before I lost my temper and stopped looking at him. I've already thought about it. I won't give him another chance to imprison me. I'm cornered. I'll run...

"Xiao Qing, can you wait two more days? When the bar business gets a little better and no one notices, I'll do whatever you want." Tan Jie's promise sounded behind me.

I still ignore him.

When he was discharged from the hospital, he went through the formalities. I planned to run, change my clothes, and estimate the time he would talk to the doctor. I made an agreement with the doctor one day in advance when he came home to cook. When I was discharged from the hospital, the doctor would talk to him about how to take care of me. I planned to leave at this time.

When he passed the doctor's office, he was talking to the doctor.

I left quickly and followed the people on this floor into the elevator. The moment the elevator door closed, my heart pounded and almost jumped out of my throat.

The sign for the elevator to go down lit up, and when I reached the first floor, I walked out with quick steps.

Just when I thought I was going to run away from Tan Jie, a hand suddenly grabbed me. I couldn't help but scream and sweat broke out behind me.

"Xiao Qing, where are you going? Why don't you wait for me?" Tan Jie's voice sounded like a ghost.

I couldn't help but push him away. He grabbed me by the waist and lifted me up. "You're just in time. The doctor said I can't exercise too hard. Come home with me and take care of me."

I struggled, and I couldn't beat him, so he took me to the car and brought me back to my place.

He was so scary, like a demon.

At that moment, I almost cried.

When I got back to my apartment, I lay in bed and couldn't get up. As long as Tan Jie didn't do anything drastic to hurt me, let him do the rest.

When the bar business is good, he will let me go. He said it himself.

After a few more days of being grounded, I had nothing else to do but eat and sleep every day. I weighed myself. I naively felt that if I gained weight, the baby in my stomach would grow up quickly. It would be better to give birth to it in the blink of an eye like a roar of thunder.

I miss Fu Jing so much, I miss ting sheng so much, I want to hear ting sheng call me mother, I want to see him eat his hands...

Several times during the night, I dreamt that Tingsheng was playing with me in the living room of the Wuyingjia. When I woke up, my face was wet and my heart was so gloomy that I had to remind myself to be optimistic and maintain a stable mood. I was afraid that I would suffer from prenatal depression and not be able to give birth to this baby in my stomach.

One night, it was raining outside, and the rain pattered on the window. The weather seemed to be getting cold. Tan Jie covered me with a thin quilt. I lay quietly and didn't speak. In fact, we didn't talk much these days.

I quietly listened to the rain, and my mood fell into an unprecedented low tide. I feel that life is meaningless, no freedom, no hope. I even want to give birth to a child, and I can't even protect myself. What can I do if I give birth to a child? Or let him suffer with me.

I started to cry as I thought about it, from a soft sob to a loud one.

I'm so sad, the kind of sadness that climbed up from the bottom of my heart, like a thriving vine, wrapped me up in one fell swoop, I can't even breathe.

"Xiao Qing, what's wrong with you?" Tan Jie turned on the light.

I didn't say anything and kept crying.